this one is for peaches
ok, so i'm reading through my list of blogs and i find a hilarious quotes that has to do with my friend and fellow habitat family member sara, aka peaches, aka tippy boutain, aka....and the list goes on. but anyways, as soon as a read it, i burst out laughing thinking of sara! hopefully she thinks it's funny too...otherwise that may not be so good for my case....
longest car ride ever: becker to california. i swear to you nebraska was 3 days long OF NOTHING. and just when you thought it couldnt get any worse, you hit Wyoming, also known as trailer park, USA. and I got poked with a hanger by CHad and TOny the whole way.
~via EscapE (mandei)
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
just 1 month
i can't stand my glasses more than anything in the world (ok, that's a little bit of an over exaggeration but not by much). they just bug me. i'm tired of having to wear them because my eye gets all messed up with my stupid eye problem i've been having. what's basically happening with my eyes is that the oxygen cells aren't getting a chance to build back up and they get all irritated and watery and it's just not fun. it takes a couple of days for my eyes to go back to normal and stop with the watering thing (it gets a little tireding - fun word! - when you have to keep telling people that yes, i am ok and no, i don't need to talk...my eye is just having problems). but the big problem is is that this condition with my eye, it needs about a month to clear up. that means no contacts for one month! i'm going to do this just so i can go back to not having to worry about my eyes but there are so many things in april that i want to wear my contacts for; mainly easter and the habitat banquet. i feel like myself in my contacts and feel so odd and out of place with my glasses. i can't see as well with the glasses and my vision is limited to just my immediate vision and not my peripheral (sp?) vision as my glasses don't cover that, so all of that is blinded. although people do say they look nice in them, i beg to differ, just because i look in the mirror and i think, "that's not me...and these glasses are bugging me!" but if i do as the dr. says, hopefully in a month i can make some adjustments and get back to rolling with the contacts. i try to look on the bright side of this...this will be better for the long run, at least it's only a month, i'll get to wear them for the campout and graduation and everything else that's in may and after. so..... 30 days till contacts!!!!!
i can't stand my glasses more than anything in the world (ok, that's a little bit of an over exaggeration but not by much). they just bug me. i'm tired of having to wear them because my eye gets all messed up with my stupid eye problem i've been having. what's basically happening with my eyes is that the oxygen cells aren't getting a chance to build back up and they get all irritated and watery and it's just not fun. it takes a couple of days for my eyes to go back to normal and stop with the watering thing (it gets a little tireding - fun word! - when you have to keep telling people that yes, i am ok and no, i don't need to talk...my eye is just having problems). but the big problem is is that this condition with my eye, it needs about a month to clear up. that means no contacts for one month! i'm going to do this just so i can go back to not having to worry about my eyes but there are so many things in april that i want to wear my contacts for; mainly easter and the habitat banquet. i feel like myself in my contacts and feel so odd and out of place with my glasses. i can't see as well with the glasses and my vision is limited to just my immediate vision and not my peripheral (sp?) vision as my glasses don't cover that, so all of that is blinded. although people do say they look nice in them, i beg to differ, just because i look in the mirror and i think, "that's not me...and these glasses are bugging me!" but if i do as the dr. says, hopefully in a month i can make some adjustments and get back to rolling with the contacts. i try to look on the bright side of this...this will be better for the long run, at least it's only a month, i'll get to wear them for the campout and graduation and everything else that's in may and after. so..... 30 days till contacts!!!!!
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
a reasurring thought
so a lot of comments were made to my post back there about myself finding God. i had to make another post reguarding it as i didn't want people to have to go back and sort through all of the comments...which i loved! but i did notice one thing that was repeated...i think we were all meant to find each other and then find God again. i'm so blessed to have my habitat family! god bless!
so a lot of comments were made to my post back there about myself finding God. i had to make another post reguarding it as i didn't want people to have to go back and sort through all of the comments...which i loved! but i did notice one thing that was repeated...i think we were all meant to find each other and then find God again. i'm so blessed to have my habitat family! god bless!
hehehe
so my stripper name is mocha mjoen, as it was determined on the habitat trip. but nothing about my pornstar name came up....until now! here's the info, go ahead and enter and try it for yourself:
and then if i change my name to andi i get a whole new listing! woohoo! fun for hours....
butter mcpancakes....much better ring to it than fidel castro!
so my stripper name is mocha mjoen, as it was determined on the habitat trip. but nothing about my pornstar name came up....until now! here's the info, go ahead and enter and try it for yourself:
and then if i change my name to andi i get a whole new listing! woohoo! fun for hours....
butter mcpancakes....much better ring to it than fidel castro!
superblogdom
squeak made that one up...superblogdom...she'll have to enlighten us with the definition at some point. i'm hoping right now that i won't have class tonight. i would rather go enjoy my time with my habitat family and the laughter that orbits them as we grace the winners of the penny drive with their rootbeer float parties. sounds much more fun to me than sitting in a cold classroom and running plate's of metal (that big booty jammed her back into) with etchings on them and covered in ink through a press. rootbeer float parties? running plates through a press? you pick. so let's all cross our fingers.....
work has been somewhat boring lately. this is about the time that i joined online services last year and i remember sitting around doing absolutely nothing. and what i am doing now? absolutely nothing. well not really. i am typing in my blog. but that's only because i'm doing absolutely nothing. i just got done helping dave larkin, one of the teachers on campus, develop one of his online classes. i'm glad i have such a high level of patience because i sat and watched him do the same thing over and over again. uploading files and creating files and putting them into his course. i'm glad he's learning but sometimes i just want to say, "here, let me do it and it'll be done by the end of the day. i promise." and then get 'er done. that simple. but i have much more respect for myself and others than that. so i sat and watched. i made one of the paper folding game thingies where you pick one of the numbers on top and .... ok, not sure how i'm going to explain it but if you know what i'm talking about, good for you! otherwise, well, sorry!
i'm excited for church tomorrow as usual. not sure who all is going along but it'll be interesting to see. they just turned off the lights in the office next to us and it makes me want to pack up and head on out of here too. i still have an hour left. if squeak was on messenger i would see if she wants to play a game to help pass my time but last i checked she was away.
i have to work on more stupid honors stuff tonight. more essays. since when did honors become hard? it used to be the easiest class i had! all you had to do was show up, sit quietly, contribute your thoughts, and leave. two hours of boredom. but nooooo. not anymore. now the teachers decided we were law students and they might as well make this hard so they can fail us all. grrrr. can't do much about it though. i'll just tough it up....5 more weeks left and it'll all be over! katie and i also have to do some work on our end project for honors. doesn't sound like it should be that bad but we still have 17 pages left to type. looking forward to that this weekend....
::::square came to the marvalous (sp?) discovery that when she says "andi and i" it's kinda like saying andi andi. great work!::::
::::squeak had a bad dream. scared her a bit. bascially she's a cold, hard baby killer! check out her odd dreams on the side bar under eeka squeak::::
squeak made that one up...superblogdom...she'll have to enlighten us with the definition at some point. i'm hoping right now that i won't have class tonight. i would rather go enjoy my time with my habitat family and the laughter that orbits them as we grace the winners of the penny drive with their rootbeer float parties. sounds much more fun to me than sitting in a cold classroom and running plate's of metal (that big booty jammed her back into) with etchings on them and covered in ink through a press. rootbeer float parties? running plates through a press? you pick. so let's all cross our fingers.....
work has been somewhat boring lately. this is about the time that i joined online services last year and i remember sitting around doing absolutely nothing. and what i am doing now? absolutely nothing. well not really. i am typing in my blog. but that's only because i'm doing absolutely nothing. i just got done helping dave larkin, one of the teachers on campus, develop one of his online classes. i'm glad i have such a high level of patience because i sat and watched him do the same thing over and over again. uploading files and creating files and putting them into his course. i'm glad he's learning but sometimes i just want to say, "here, let me do it and it'll be done by the end of the day. i promise." and then get 'er done. that simple. but i have much more respect for myself and others than that. so i sat and watched. i made one of the paper folding game thingies where you pick one of the numbers on top and .... ok, not sure how i'm going to explain it but if you know what i'm talking about, good for you! otherwise, well, sorry!
i'm excited for church tomorrow as usual. not sure who all is going along but it'll be interesting to see. they just turned off the lights in the office next to us and it makes me want to pack up and head on out of here too. i still have an hour left. if squeak was on messenger i would see if she wants to play a game to help pass my time but last i checked she was away.
i have to work on more stupid honors stuff tonight. more essays. since when did honors become hard? it used to be the easiest class i had! all you had to do was show up, sit quietly, contribute your thoughts, and leave. two hours of boredom. but nooooo. not anymore. now the teachers decided we were law students and they might as well make this hard so they can fail us all. grrrr. can't do much about it though. i'll just tough it up....5 more weeks left and it'll all be over! katie and i also have to do some work on our end project for honors. doesn't sound like it should be that bad but we still have 17 pages left to type. looking forward to that this weekend....
::::square came to the marvalous (sp?) discovery that when she says "andi and i" it's kinda like saying andi andi. great work!::::
::::squeak had a bad dream. scared her a bit. bascially she's a cold, hard baby killer! check out her odd dreams on the side bar under eeka squeak::::
Monday, March 29, 2004
at peace with myself....aaahhhh.....
so square has been getting on me to post. and now i am. it took me such a long time to post as i wasn't quite sure what to post. you may think that when you have a busy and hectic week you would have just crap loads to type and put up here but it took me awhile to find time, figure what i wanted to write about, and then get 'er done (YES!). so now that i have contemplated and put much thought into this...i think i'm ready to go.
the past week (mon. 22- fri. 26) was just hectic. i found myself drowning in my homework. i forgot an assignment, i forgot that another one was due in a couple of days, i had to study for a test that did not interest me at all and was written for law students...which i have to be the farthest away from. i tried to stay calm through it and finish it, or as nate would say "get 'er done." and i did, no problems. but as the high rising waters calmed down, i noticed that i did too. this past weekend was a lot of fun but i noticed that i just wasn't as talkative and perky as i am with my fellow habitat family...i was rather quite and i wondered if they noticed too. i opted to sit and listen to them talk, bicker and laugh than joining in. it was a surreal experience. this is what i used to be like in high school. the quiet one who would rather have her nose in a book or computer and would rather sit and listen than to blab and share her inter most feelings. it's not that i didn't want to share...it was just a peaceful time for me. but i also noticed something else about myself...
it happened when we got back from the trip. i noticed that my relationship with God has been getting stronger. through out my as-to-date short college life, my relationship with God has been depleting. in high school i was very active with my church. i loved my mission and habitat trips back then and my junior and senior year i came really connected with God and my church. i became a peer minister, a sunday school teacher, i wrote the youth newsletters and went to wednesday night alive. but then college came and my connection with my church started to wear thin. i didn't find a church here in Bemidji that i could connect with or had the time or a friend to go with. but somehow the habitat trip changed that. this year we tried to make it more Godly (great word, i know!). we started the trip with a prayer session, christian radio stations were played often and at one point square and i were even belting it out on the streets of downtown oklahoma city after a fake hockey game (pre rehearsed fights at a hockey game does not equal a real hockey game). then when we came back square asked me if i would like to go to church...approximately 2 hours after we got back and unloaded from the trip. i was a little hesitant at first just because i really wanted my sleep...but something told me to go...so square, gizmo, nate and i went to church, and i've gone now every week since, even wednesday nights. perkins usually happens afterwards as we will get something to eat and enjoy more bonding time and good, long, funny and cricitical talks (anything can happen!). i've also put my cross and confirmation necklaces back on and i'm constantly playing with them, untangeling them, reaching to make sure they are still there, just holding them. my bible is always with me in my car. people used to comment on it but it hasn't happened lately. i'm itching to open it back up and look at all the mementos i've put in there, to look at how i personalized it, to share them with someone. that's one of my favorite things to do, to share my mission trip experiences with everyone. everytime i look at nate or give him the evil eyes (or as i found out they can also be called "the hairy eyeball) i see his cross necklace too and it's a reminder to me...it's little things like that. last week when i was walking home, having criciticals about the doom day midterm i had coming up, i would pass a nickel on the street...i saw it at least 3 days last week. i got my favorite email again about the millionaire who picks up pennies as they remind him of God, as on every one they say "in God we trust." on the day before my test, as i was walking home with criciticals in my head, i saw the nickel again. i picked up, dusted it off, read "in God we trust." i smiled and stuck it in my pocket, stopped worrying and the nickel is still there...i'll probably keep that one for awhile.
i'm very elated to have God back in my life. he was missing as i disreguarded him...putting my life with him on hold. but now things are good, back to an almost normal. i'm glad that he reached back through me. it's a wonderful blessing. so thank you habitat family for everything you have done..especially bringing God back into my life :) !!!
::also, i think my test went somewhat well...B or C range?::
::i got the idea for this post from the blog "beautiful distraction." it was a great post. check it out on my side bar::
so square has been getting on me to post. and now i am. it took me such a long time to post as i wasn't quite sure what to post. you may think that when you have a busy and hectic week you would have just crap loads to type and put up here but it took me awhile to find time, figure what i wanted to write about, and then get 'er done (YES!). so now that i have contemplated and put much thought into this...i think i'm ready to go.
the past week (mon. 22- fri. 26) was just hectic. i found myself drowning in my homework. i forgot an assignment, i forgot that another one was due in a couple of days, i had to study for a test that did not interest me at all and was written for law students...which i have to be the farthest away from. i tried to stay calm through it and finish it, or as nate would say "get 'er done." and i did, no problems. but as the high rising waters calmed down, i noticed that i did too. this past weekend was a lot of fun but i noticed that i just wasn't as talkative and perky as i am with my fellow habitat family...i was rather quite and i wondered if they noticed too. i opted to sit and listen to them talk, bicker and laugh than joining in. it was a surreal experience. this is what i used to be like in high school. the quiet one who would rather have her nose in a book or computer and would rather sit and listen than to blab and share her inter most feelings. it's not that i didn't want to share...it was just a peaceful time for me. but i also noticed something else about myself...
it happened when we got back from the trip. i noticed that my relationship with God has been getting stronger. through out my as-to-date short college life, my relationship with God has been depleting. in high school i was very active with my church. i loved my mission and habitat trips back then and my junior and senior year i came really connected with God and my church. i became a peer minister, a sunday school teacher, i wrote the youth newsletters and went to wednesday night alive. but then college came and my connection with my church started to wear thin. i didn't find a church here in Bemidji that i could connect with or had the time or a friend to go with. but somehow the habitat trip changed that. this year we tried to make it more Godly (great word, i know!). we started the trip with a prayer session, christian radio stations were played often and at one point square and i were even belting it out on the streets of downtown oklahoma city after a fake hockey game (pre rehearsed fights at a hockey game does not equal a real hockey game). then when we came back square asked me if i would like to go to church...approximately 2 hours after we got back and unloaded from the trip. i was a little hesitant at first just because i really wanted my sleep...but something told me to go...so square, gizmo, nate and i went to church, and i've gone now every week since, even wednesday nights. perkins usually happens afterwards as we will get something to eat and enjoy more bonding time and good, long, funny and cricitical talks (anything can happen!). i've also put my cross and confirmation necklaces back on and i'm constantly playing with them, untangeling them, reaching to make sure they are still there, just holding them. my bible is always with me in my car. people used to comment on it but it hasn't happened lately. i'm itching to open it back up and look at all the mementos i've put in there, to look at how i personalized it, to share them with someone. that's one of my favorite things to do, to share my mission trip experiences with everyone. everytime i look at nate or give him the evil eyes (or as i found out they can also be called "the hairy eyeball) i see his cross necklace too and it's a reminder to me...it's little things like that. last week when i was walking home, having criciticals about the doom day midterm i had coming up, i would pass a nickel on the street...i saw it at least 3 days last week. i got my favorite email again about the millionaire who picks up pennies as they remind him of God, as on every one they say "in God we trust." on the day before my test, as i was walking home with criciticals in my head, i saw the nickel again. i picked up, dusted it off, read "in God we trust." i smiled and stuck it in my pocket, stopped worrying and the nickel is still there...i'll probably keep that one for awhile.
i'm very elated to have God back in my life. he was missing as i disreguarded him...putting my life with him on hold. but now things are good, back to an almost normal. i'm glad that he reached back through me. it's a wonderful blessing. so thank you habitat family for everything you have done..especially bringing God back into my life :) !!!
::also, i think my test went somewhat well...B or C range?::
::i got the idea for this post from the blog "beautiful distraction." it was a great post. check it out on my side bar::
Thursday, March 25, 2004
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please let me pass this test
please let me pass this test
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
ANT AND THE CONTACT LENS
A true story by Josh and Karen Zarandona.
Brenda was a young woman who was invited to go rock
climbing. Although
she was very scared, she went with her group to a
tremendous granite cliff.
In spite of her fear, she put on the gear, took hold
of the rope,
and started up the face of that rock. Well, she got
to a ledge where she
could take a breather. As she was hanging on there,
the safety rope snapped against Brenda's eye and knocked out he
contact lens. Well, here
she is, on a rock ledge, with hundreds of feet below
her and hundreds of
feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and
looked, hoping it
had landed on the ledge, but it just wasn't there.
Here she was, far from
home, her sight now blurry. She was desperate and
began to get upset, so
she prayed to the Lord to help her to find it. When
she got to the top, a
friend examined her eye and her clothing for the
lens, but there! was no
contact lens to be found.
She sat down, despondent, waiting for the last of
them to make it up
the face of the cliff. She looked out across range
after range of
mountains, thinking of that verse that says, "The
eyes of the Lord run to
and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought,
Lord, You can see all
these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and
You know exactly
where my contact lens is. Please help me.
Finally, they walked down the trail to the bottom.
At the bottom
there was a new party of climbers just starting up
the face of the cliff.
One of them shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody
lose a contact lens?"
Well, that would be startling enough, but you know
why the climber saw
it? An ant was moving slowly across the face of the
rock, carrying it on
it's back.
Brenda told me that her father is a cartoonist. When
she told him the
incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the
contact lens, he drew a
picture of an ant lugging that contact lens with
the words, "Lord, I
don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I
can't
eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what
You want me to do,
I'll carry it for You."
I think it would probably do some of us good to
occasionally say,
"God, I don't know why you want me to carry this
load. I can see no good
in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if you want me to
carry it, I will."
God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the
called.
Please tell me this is why my life is so....complicated? busy? completely full of homework? (it's just homework that sucks)
A true story by Josh and Karen Zarandona.
Brenda was a young woman who was invited to go rock
climbing. Although
she was very scared, she went with her group to a
tremendous granite cliff.
In spite of her fear, she put on the gear, took hold
of the rope,
and started up the face of that rock. Well, she got
to a ledge where she
could take a breather. As she was hanging on there,
the safety rope snapped against Brenda's eye and knocked out he
contact lens. Well, here
she is, on a rock ledge, with hundreds of feet below
her and hundreds of
feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and
looked, hoping it
had landed on the ledge, but it just wasn't there.
Here she was, far from
home, her sight now blurry. She was desperate and
began to get upset, so
she prayed to the Lord to help her to find it. When
she got to the top, a
friend examined her eye and her clothing for the
lens, but there! was no
contact lens to be found.
She sat down, despondent, waiting for the last of
them to make it up
the face of the cliff. She looked out across range
after range of
mountains, thinking of that verse that says, "The
eyes of the Lord run to
and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought,
Lord, You can see all
these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and
You know exactly
where my contact lens is. Please help me.
Finally, they walked down the trail to the bottom.
At the bottom
there was a new party of climbers just starting up
the face of the cliff.
One of them shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody
lose a contact lens?"
Well, that would be startling enough, but you know
why the climber saw
it? An ant was moving slowly across the face of the
rock, carrying it on
it's back.
Brenda told me that her father is a cartoonist. When
she told him the
incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the
contact lens, he drew a
picture of an ant lugging that contact lens with
the words, "Lord, I
don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I
can't
eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what
You want me to do,
I'll carry it for You."
I think it would probably do some of us good to
occasionally say,
"God, I don't know why you want me to carry this
load. I can see no good
in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if you want me to
carry it, I will."
God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the
called.
Please tell me this is why my life is so....complicated? busy? completely full of homework? (it's just homework that sucks)
why people who suck at driving just shouldn't drive!
so today after work, i walk home from school only so i can get my car so i'm not running around on the streets of bemidji after dark and i don't worry my mother half to death (some how she will find out that i'm running around on the streets of bemidji after dark. i don't know how, but we'll save my mothers 3rd eye stories for another time) after i am done with my night class, which gets over at 9. which i was also planning on going to the library and studying my butt off for my economics and law class which is an honors class which i hate which i just don't want to take this test for....but anyways.
now that you are completely lost.
let me finish my story. :)
so i walk home from work, go in the house, grab other things i need for my "night life," and i head out the door, jump into my car, turn it on, check my mirrors....MY MIRROR! yes, my driver's side mirror has been SMACKED INTO AND SOMEONE FREAKING BROKE IT! GGGRRRRRRRRR! you have no idea how mad this makes me! now i have to freaking replace the mirror which i can't use insurance on just because one STUPID person decided they couldn't drive! the mirror itself has cracks running through it and the mirror is dislodged from it's holder just hanging there by a couple of wires. it is also cracked on the holder thingy where it is attached to the car. again, ggggrrrrr! so i freak out, check my car for other damages, which thank God, no, and run inside and grab my cell phone to call my parents.
so yeah, now i have to buy a new mirror. which i would have never had to pay for. but someone had to be completely careless and inconsiderate and decided to just rip off my poor mirror. why? what did i do to deserve this? someday when i die will this be explained to me? why i had to suffer so someone else can have the joy of saying that they cracked someone's mirror off their car? what's the benefit? i already have absolutely zip in my bank account (and i'm not over exaggerating), so why? explain! please!!!
on a much higher note, at least they didn't smack up my whole car and it was just my mirror. and i can easily buy a replacement...for about 50 buckeroos. they should just be lucky that i wasn't there to see it happen. they may have had their head ripped off...or worse. anyone wanna donate to the andi foundation?
so today after work, i walk home from school only so i can get my car so i'm not running around on the streets of bemidji after dark and i don't worry my mother half to death (some how she will find out that i'm running around on the streets of bemidji after dark. i don't know how, but we'll save my mothers 3rd eye stories for another time) after i am done with my night class, which gets over at 9. which i was also planning on going to the library and studying my butt off for my economics and law class which is an honors class which i hate which i just don't want to take this test for....but anyways.
now that you are completely lost.
let me finish my story. :)
so i walk home from work, go in the house, grab other things i need for my "night life," and i head out the door, jump into my car, turn it on, check my mirrors....MY MIRROR! yes, my driver's side mirror has been SMACKED INTO AND SOMEONE FREAKING BROKE IT! GGGRRRRRRRRR! you have no idea how mad this makes me! now i have to freaking replace the mirror which i can't use insurance on just because one STUPID person decided they couldn't drive! the mirror itself has cracks running through it and the mirror is dislodged from it's holder just hanging there by a couple of wires. it is also cracked on the holder thingy where it is attached to the car. again, ggggrrrrr! so i freak out, check my car for other damages, which thank God, no, and run inside and grab my cell phone to call my parents.
so yeah, now i have to buy a new mirror. which i would have never had to pay for. but someone had to be completely careless and inconsiderate and decided to just rip off my poor mirror. why? what did i do to deserve this? someday when i die will this be explained to me? why i had to suffer so someone else can have the joy of saying that they cracked someone's mirror off their car? what's the benefit? i already have absolutely zip in my bank account (and i'm not over exaggerating), so why? explain! please!!!
on a much higher note, at least they didn't smack up my whole car and it was just my mirror. and i can easily buy a replacement...for about 50 buckeroos. they should just be lucky that i wasn't there to see it happen. they may have had their head ripped off...or worse. anyone wanna donate to the andi foundation?
Monday, March 22, 2004
reassuring thought of the day
Phil. 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me."
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a
loop
called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies,
caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if
you
have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance,
insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place
called Success.
Phil. 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me."
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a
loop
called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies,
caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if
you
have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance,
insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place
called Success.
prez andi: the evil emailer!
if there has been one thing i have learned in life, it's this: i would rather not cause conflict. in the end, it is always easier if i just suck it up and do whatever that needs to be done myself because i do not like to deal with conflict. i also do not like to put people in their place or tell them how it should be or just tell them that they are wrong. but i had to do that. i usually believe that everyone is doing what they need to do and they have a reason for what they are doing...did you follow that? let's try phrasing it this way: if someone is doing something that i don't approve of, or i consider it something that i wouldn't do, i believe they are probably doing what ever it is they are doing for a good reason.
anyway, i had to write an email to the "big" habitat president, who is a friend of mine (he got me my coaching job), and tell him that we were frustrated with the "big" habitat's efforts. i was later told it was harsh...which is not what i want. i'm slightly scared now. here's the email i sent; you can judge it:
Hi Tim,
The reason I am writing this is to tell you that we are going to put off the benefit concert for now. There are a couple reasons for this. One being that the concert is too close and that we are still uncertain of many things. The other reason is because we wanted to raise money for Dennis and Evelyn's roof together with the "Big Habitat" and we feel that we, the "Little Habitat," are doing most of the work.
We wanted to "Raise the Roof" with Big Habitat this year as to bring us closer together. Both the Big and Little Habitat get credit on our year end reports if we can say that we have worked together. In the past years, as far as I can tell, both of us haven't done much work together. This year we thought that we could change that. We thought that doing the benefit concert together we be good for both organizations and for the city. We have enthusiasm to put this concert together, but we weren't quite feeling the same enthusiasm from you. I would come away from the Big Habitat's meetings with ideas but without sure committment on your part. I would then proceed to the Little Habitat meetings only to find more questions and the members overwhelmed and frustrated with what we still had to do. We felt that we were being put in the spot of putting on the Benefit concert for you, but what we wanted was to put on the Benefit concert with you.
We would still like to put on an event with the Big Habitat so that we can help "raise the roof." We would like to know if there is possibly another date that would work better with the Big Habitat. A date that was mentioned was possibly the 24th of April. We also had talk that we could possibly do it at a church, possibly First Lutheran. It depends on if we want to rely on the elders in the community to bring in the money or if we want to (in Lois's words) "have a rompin' time." Some ideas that have come up would be to do an event at the Uptown Cafe, possibly having Carolyn help sponsor? There was also talk of having Sammy come and play there.
We are really looking forward to doing an event with you. As I mentioned to the Little Habitat, this isn't a "us" and a "them" event; it's a "we." Hopefully the Big Habitat will feel the same?
Thank you so much for your help and time!
Andi
square told me i sounded to harsh. the last thing i want is for them to think i'm some sort of ungratelful person...i hate doing these sort of things because the last time i "put someone in their place" i ended up upsetting my mother and myself and i went home from school with an upset stomach wondering if i would ever live. it was a horrible day. now i have to see the big habitat on wednesday...should be fun... :(
if there has been one thing i have learned in life, it's this: i would rather not cause conflict. in the end, it is always easier if i just suck it up and do whatever that needs to be done myself because i do not like to deal with conflict. i also do not like to put people in their place or tell them how it should be or just tell them that they are wrong. but i had to do that. i usually believe that everyone is doing what they need to do and they have a reason for what they are doing...did you follow that? let's try phrasing it this way: if someone is doing something that i don't approve of, or i consider it something that i wouldn't do, i believe they are probably doing what ever it is they are doing for a good reason.
anyway, i had to write an email to the "big" habitat president, who is a friend of mine (he got me my coaching job), and tell him that we were frustrated with the "big" habitat's efforts. i was later told it was harsh...which is not what i want. i'm slightly scared now. here's the email i sent; you can judge it:
Hi Tim,
The reason I am writing this is to tell you that we are going to put off the benefit concert for now. There are a couple reasons for this. One being that the concert is too close and that we are still uncertain of many things. The other reason is because we wanted to raise money for Dennis and Evelyn's roof together with the "Big Habitat" and we feel that we, the "Little Habitat," are doing most of the work.
We wanted to "Raise the Roof" with Big Habitat this year as to bring us closer together. Both the Big and Little Habitat get credit on our year end reports if we can say that we have worked together. In the past years, as far as I can tell, both of us haven't done much work together. This year we thought that we could change that. We thought that doing the benefit concert together we be good for both organizations and for the city. We have enthusiasm to put this concert together, but we weren't quite feeling the same enthusiasm from you. I would come away from the Big Habitat's meetings with ideas but without sure committment on your part. I would then proceed to the Little Habitat meetings only to find more questions and the members overwhelmed and frustrated with what we still had to do. We felt that we were being put in the spot of putting on the Benefit concert for you, but what we wanted was to put on the Benefit concert with you.
We would still like to put on an event with the Big Habitat so that we can help "raise the roof." We would like to know if there is possibly another date that would work better with the Big Habitat. A date that was mentioned was possibly the 24th of April. We also had talk that we could possibly do it at a church, possibly First Lutheran. It depends on if we want to rely on the elders in the community to bring in the money or if we want to (in Lois's words) "have a rompin' time." Some ideas that have come up would be to do an event at the Uptown Cafe, possibly having Carolyn help sponsor? There was also talk of having Sammy come and play there.
We are really looking forward to doing an event with you. As I mentioned to the Little Habitat, this isn't a "us" and a "them" event; it's a "we." Hopefully the Big Habitat will feel the same?
Thank you so much for your help and time!
Andi
square told me i sounded to harsh. the last thing i want is for them to think i'm some sort of ungratelful person...i hate doing these sort of things because the last time i "put someone in their place" i ended up upsetting my mother and myself and i went home from school with an upset stomach wondering if i would ever live. it was a horrible day. now i have to see the big habitat on wednesday...should be fun... :(
Friday, March 19, 2004
whoopididoodahday yay!
do a little dance cause it's friday five time!
If you...
1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?
wow...off all the things i could serve...it's a toss up between italian, ice cream, and sandwiches (not deli express!) hmmm...or maybe just a chicken everything restraurant! mmmm...chicken!
2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
i'm so indecisive about these things...what to sell what to sell...how about a graphic design store! with paper and all sorts of art supplies...how fun!
3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?
a hot steamy romance novel. actually no...because i wouldn't know how to go about writing it having no hot steamy romance in my life to base it on. awww shucks. how about self help books? now that could be interesting.... hehehe
4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
art and graphic design! of course! but then again, why would i be teaching? i would be dictating the school!
5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it?
since i can't sing, it would have to be some sort of comedy. we won't go with music, well, maybe piano music, but i don't have the ambition right now.
so yeah. that's my friday five. ann would be so proud of me. i had a cricitical moment last night. habitat emails just weren't working so i called square. i think i scared her. o well, it was a good time. on an even better note, we got to work on the habitat video today! things are looking up!! now on to that weekend homework! (haha...yeah right!)
do a little dance cause it's friday five time!
If you...
1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?
wow...off all the things i could serve...it's a toss up between italian, ice cream, and sandwiches (not deli express!) hmmm...or maybe just a chicken everything restraurant! mmmm...chicken!
2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
i'm so indecisive about these things...what to sell what to sell...how about a graphic design store! with paper and all sorts of art supplies...how fun!
3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?
a hot steamy romance novel. actually no...because i wouldn't know how to go about writing it having no hot steamy romance in my life to base it on. awww shucks. how about self help books? now that could be interesting.... hehehe
4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
art and graphic design! of course! but then again, why would i be teaching? i would be dictating the school!
5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it?
since i can't sing, it would have to be some sort of comedy. we won't go with music, well, maybe piano music, but i don't have the ambition right now.
so yeah. that's my friday five. ann would be so proud of me. i had a cricitical moment last night. habitat emails just weren't working so i called square. i think i scared her. o well, it was a good time. on an even better note, we got to work on the habitat video today! things are looking up!! now on to that weekend homework! (haha...yeah right!)
Thursday, March 18, 2004
my life as a procrastinator
it doesn't get much better. i get home after boring classes, where at these boring classes, i decided that i have this list of things that i need to accomplish when i get home. so finally, classes end and i'm on my way home, still ready to tackle my list of things when i get home. well, as you can probably guess, i get home and i get everything on my list accomplished. that's it. end of story.
actually, i'm kidding. actually, i'm kidding BY A LONG SHOT. this is the full story. i get home and yes, i'm set to tackle the list. packing, cleaning, broadcast to finish writing and then habitat emails...and then to bed because i'm dead tired after my adventurous night last night. so what do i do when i walk in the door? well, first i check my email, just because that's the type of person i am. it makes my day when people try to communicate with me (it doesn't happen often so i have to do a little dance!). then i check blogs. and then i sorta start on my list. i start grabbing my piles of dirty clothes that my roommate carly claims that i could keep 30 people clothed with for 30 days, and she's probably true. i also grab everything that i think i may want to bring home tomorrow when i leave. then i get started on my mess that i still have laying out since i got back from my habitat trip. basically, i stare at it. stare it some more. stare it one more time. then hope with all my might that it will clean itself up by itself. and then i realize that i have to do it. so i start making piles. and really, that's all my room is these days. piles of clothes, piles of habitat, piles of pictures, piles of electronics, piles of art stuff, piles of homework, piles of misc. stuff that i don't know what in the heck to do with. so i make my piles and then i run downstairs and take my pile of going home stuff out to the car without incident. and then i crash on the couch.
i thought i would just be watching friends. but no. it was friends, will and grace, extreme makeover and then i get my butt off the couch. at this point i don't have my homework done and i have a hand full of emails to write still. so, i take a shower. after putting some au gratin potatoes in the stove so they would be done when i was done with getting squeaky clean. so now i'm clean, and i start on my half of the dishes, get those done, eat and watch more tv (but this time it was like 10 min. worth, i swear!). and now....i'm upstairs....in my room...5 hours later...procrastinating more by listening to music and typing on my blog...and half the list done. at least i got half the list done i guess...but the important stuff is still left to do. grrrrr....i'm pathetic. i think i may call someone to help me with the emails though...just to make sure i'm sounding gramatically correct. we'll see.
but on a lighter note...last night rocked! after church and some homework, the habitat crew met up again at 11:30 at night for a perkins pie run! we dominated the place with our laughter and we all had a good time. as if you couldn't get us together and not have a good time. even better, i had all the studs in my car! woohoo! heheheheee! o wow, i love the habitat family...can't stress that enough. love ya!
it doesn't get much better. i get home after boring classes, where at these boring classes, i decided that i have this list of things that i need to accomplish when i get home. so finally, classes end and i'm on my way home, still ready to tackle my list of things when i get home. well, as you can probably guess, i get home and i get everything on my list accomplished. that's it. end of story.
actually, i'm kidding. actually, i'm kidding BY A LONG SHOT. this is the full story. i get home and yes, i'm set to tackle the list. packing, cleaning, broadcast to finish writing and then habitat emails...and then to bed because i'm dead tired after my adventurous night last night. so what do i do when i walk in the door? well, first i check my email, just because that's the type of person i am. it makes my day when people try to communicate with me (it doesn't happen often so i have to do a little dance!). then i check blogs. and then i sorta start on my list. i start grabbing my piles of dirty clothes that my roommate carly claims that i could keep 30 people clothed with for 30 days, and she's probably true. i also grab everything that i think i may want to bring home tomorrow when i leave. then i get started on my mess that i still have laying out since i got back from my habitat trip. basically, i stare at it. stare it some more. stare it one more time. then hope with all my might that it will clean itself up by itself. and then i realize that i have to do it. so i start making piles. and really, that's all my room is these days. piles of clothes, piles of habitat, piles of pictures, piles of electronics, piles of art stuff, piles of homework, piles of misc. stuff that i don't know what in the heck to do with. so i make my piles and then i run downstairs and take my pile of going home stuff out to the car without incident. and then i crash on the couch.
i thought i would just be watching friends. but no. it was friends, will and grace, extreme makeover and then i get my butt off the couch. at this point i don't have my homework done and i have a hand full of emails to write still. so, i take a shower. after putting some au gratin potatoes in the stove so they would be done when i was done with getting squeaky clean. so now i'm clean, and i start on my half of the dishes, get those done, eat and watch more tv (but this time it was like 10 min. worth, i swear!). and now....i'm upstairs....in my room...5 hours later...procrastinating more by listening to music and typing on my blog...and half the list done. at least i got half the list done i guess...but the important stuff is still left to do. grrrrr....i'm pathetic. i think i may call someone to help me with the emails though...just to make sure i'm sounding gramatically correct. we'll see.
but on a lighter note...last night rocked! after church and some homework, the habitat crew met up again at 11:30 at night for a perkins pie run! we dominated the place with our laughter and we all had a good time. as if you couldn't get us together and not have a good time. even better, i had all the studs in my car! woohoo! heheheheee! o wow, i love the habitat family...can't stress that enough. love ya!
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
good, non eventfull (i guess not really) day
ok, i guess...so i kinda lied. the eventful part was the habitat meeting and it went great! i'm so pumped! we know what we are doing and we laughed the whole way through...we're a great team!
i'm still on spring break, technically...i don't have class until maybe, tomorrow night...i'll have to see if my teacher shows up...so. all i did today was work. and update blogs. but i have errands to run tomorrow for work, habitat and school and i want to work out. eventful day. unlike today. except for habitat...i was so excited to see them! o and i guess that i should add that after the meeting as we were filming ending thoughts, and nate's apology (hehe), we were all getting ready to film nate and .... BLACKOUT! o but was it fun... we filmed nate in the blackout and then as we were thinking about leaving...half of them come back! so we had some drinks and then sat around and talked, even after the lights came on...that's why i love them. they make my life fun exciting and add those needed events!
ok, i guess...so i kinda lied. the eventful part was the habitat meeting and it went great! i'm so pumped! we know what we are doing and we laughed the whole way through...we're a great team!
i'm still on spring break, technically...i don't have class until maybe, tomorrow night...i'll have to see if my teacher shows up...so. all i did today was work. and update blogs. but i have errands to run tomorrow for work, habitat and school and i want to work out. eventful day. unlike today. except for habitat...i was so excited to see them! o and i guess that i should add that after the meeting as we were filming ending thoughts, and nate's apology (hehe), we were all getting ready to film nate and .... BLACKOUT! o but was it fun... we filmed nate in the blackout and then as we were thinking about leaving...half of them come back! so we had some drinks and then sat around and talked, even after the lights came on...that's why i love them. they make my life fun exciting and add those needed events!
Monday, March 15, 2004
back to the real world
i can't believe the best time off my life is now over. spring break in OKC was more than i imagined. i never imagined that i would be a part of a family of 18 and i know we will always be close. together we all put up a house. in OKC. we laughed together. we fought together. we all love each other. i miss them all already and it has been about 24 hours already and i'm just itching to see them tonight! it was funny when we first realized that we were a family. it was the end of the week and we were on our way back home. sitting at a village inn in omaha, nebraska, and we had all just got our food. while we were eating, we all start passing food around the table, all sharing with each other. lo j then looks over and just says, "we look like one crazy family!" and it's true. here's some other reasons we all are a family:
-we drive for 18 hours, going straight to okc, only stopping for food and bathroom breaks. we all got pretty confortable using each other for pillows and we had no problem with it.
-we all had the same common goal. "let's get that house up! the family's moving in at 5!" as we stare down at the slab of cement foundation. we got straight to work!
-we can bicker at each other like no other. we are always teasing each other, coming up with witty comments for each other ("can you guys look behind the van and tell me how much room i have before i hit the car behind me?", "you have mirrors." nate so got evil eyes for that one..."that's it! everyone out! ESPECIALLY NATE!) (square, put down the camera and get to work!) (how odd is it that nate said most of these comments?) i think we were all ready to pummel nate at the end of the trip...but we never would because we all have love for each other...even nate.
-we all learned how to work with each other. building a house requires team work. if you would look up team work in the dictionary, you find find a picture of BSU habitat for humanity. that's how well we work together and i'm proud to say i'm part of the team.
-we have a million and one inside jokes. every thing from "let's nail that stud!" to "that's manly" to "the sun is round. there are flies on the walls." to "rubber ducky, this is rusty nail. do you read me?" and in a low voice, "caandy caane." yeah...good times!
-we're all comfortable with showing the love. every now and then you'll hear one of us say, "i love you!" and the hugs are always going around.
-we all have nicknames. or a stripper name. not that having a stripper name has anything to do with being a family but hey, we're all comfortable with calling each other by our stripper names. and then laughing hysterically at it.
-we had a lot of us reveal our true selves. especially nate, ann and pete. the quiet ones at the beginning of the trip turned out to be the ones we couldn't get to stop talking. and that's not a bad thing, we're glad that they finally opened up!
-we find out our true talents. such as rapping vanilla ice, commentaring a b ball game WHILE playing bball, being stoic, gluing on nails, painting a wall, driving a van, using power tools, running a video camera, garbage surfing, shower relays, stipping and working the pole, immitating each other, being manly, looking snazzy while being on the work site (whether it be color cordinating, curling your hair, dressing for the eighties), or navigating.
-learning we can all dance like no other. we shaked our groove thang at the hockey games (ann shakin it like a polaroid picture, so not stoic) (cotton eyed joe) (lo j teaching kearney,neb. the YMCA), in the van (ekren and baby got back?), and at the site.
-most of us felt like crying when we had to split from each other after being with each other for a week...and i'm sure we're all dying to see each other tonight.
these are just a few of the many reasons. i think we all wanted to stay longer. we'll have to plan the reunion tour. if you want to learn more about what we did, i'm in the process of posting the trip journals here.
i can't believe the best time off my life is now over. spring break in OKC was more than i imagined. i never imagined that i would be a part of a family of 18 and i know we will always be close. together we all put up a house. in OKC. we laughed together. we fought together. we all love each other. i miss them all already and it has been about 24 hours already and i'm just itching to see them tonight! it was funny when we first realized that we were a family. it was the end of the week and we were on our way back home. sitting at a village inn in omaha, nebraska, and we had all just got our food. while we were eating, we all start passing food around the table, all sharing with each other. lo j then looks over and just says, "we look like one crazy family!" and it's true. here's some other reasons we all are a family:
-we drive for 18 hours, going straight to okc, only stopping for food and bathroom breaks. we all got pretty confortable using each other for pillows and we had no problem with it.
-we all had the same common goal. "let's get that house up! the family's moving in at 5!" as we stare down at the slab of cement foundation. we got straight to work!
-we can bicker at each other like no other. we are always teasing each other, coming up with witty comments for each other ("can you guys look behind the van and tell me how much room i have before i hit the car behind me?", "you have mirrors." nate so got evil eyes for that one..."that's it! everyone out! ESPECIALLY NATE!) (square, put down the camera and get to work!) (how odd is it that nate said most of these comments?) i think we were all ready to pummel nate at the end of the trip...but we never would because we all have love for each other...even nate.
-we all learned how to work with each other. building a house requires team work. if you would look up team work in the dictionary, you find find a picture of BSU habitat for humanity. that's how well we work together and i'm proud to say i'm part of the team.
-we have a million and one inside jokes. every thing from "let's nail that stud!" to "that's manly" to "the sun is round. there are flies on the walls." to "rubber ducky, this is rusty nail. do you read me?" and in a low voice, "caandy caane." yeah...good times!
-we're all comfortable with showing the love. every now and then you'll hear one of us say, "i love you!" and the hugs are always going around.
-we all have nicknames. or a stripper name. not that having a stripper name has anything to do with being a family but hey, we're all comfortable with calling each other by our stripper names. and then laughing hysterically at it.
-we had a lot of us reveal our true selves. especially nate, ann and pete. the quiet ones at the beginning of the trip turned out to be the ones we couldn't get to stop talking. and that's not a bad thing, we're glad that they finally opened up!
-we find out our true talents. such as rapping vanilla ice, commentaring a b ball game WHILE playing bball, being stoic, gluing on nails, painting a wall, driving a van, using power tools, running a video camera, garbage surfing, shower relays, stipping and working the pole, immitating each other, being manly, looking snazzy while being on the work site (whether it be color cordinating, curling your hair, dressing for the eighties), or navigating.
-learning we can all dance like no other. we shaked our groove thang at the hockey games (ann shakin it like a polaroid picture, so not stoic) (cotton eyed joe) (lo j teaching kearney,neb. the YMCA), in the van (ekren and baby got back?), and at the site.
-most of us felt like crying when we had to split from each other after being with each other for a week...and i'm sure we're all dying to see each other tonight.
these are just a few of the many reasons. i think we all wanted to stay longer. we'll have to plan the reunion tour. if you want to learn more about what we did, i'm in the process of posting the trip journals here.
Friday, March 05, 2004
friday five and last post of the week!
What was...
1. ...your first grade teacher's name?
mrs. fleichek...i think that's how you spell it...you pronounce it like flea and check...and then put the two together and say it really fast!
2. ...your favorite Saturday morning cartoon?
i loved my looney toons!
3. ...the name of your very first best friend?
my first best friend was britton smith. yes, the girl who has never had a boyfriend had a boy as her first best friend. we kinda grew apart after elementary school but i see him often since our families are very close. he's kinda gotten, well, stupid over the years...i don't think he makes the best choices. last i heard he wanted to buy a new truck and then file for unemployment. but yeah, i also just found out that in first grade, when we couldn't be in the same class, he cried! how sweet!
4. ...your favorite breakfast cereal?
back then i did like to eat cereal as opposed to now (ick!). i liked lucky charms, cheerios, frosted flakes and what ever else my mom bought.
5. ...your favorite thing to do after school?
well, i liked playing with friends and the other kids in the neighborhood and at the daycare...but after awhile, once i really got into swimming when i was 6 and 7, i would head off to swimming because practice started at 4 so that's what i did everyday after school!
well everyone, i'm leaving for spring break which means no posts for awhile. like a week. and i was going to post about the rest of my horendous week which did get much better but it's such a long story and it ended on a good note after i felt like punching the wall in, which i refrained from doing. it's odd...i've never really wanted to do that before...but the chili dinner for h4h put me back in a wonderful mood and then shawn started talking to me online last night! which just put me in an even better mood...until after i told him i had a shitty week and then he asked me why and so i told him....and he still didn't respond so i don't know where he went! and then msn had to shut down for maintanance! why don't they do that at a later time? hello! people are still talking at midnight!!! anyway...i'm gonna finish packing and then i'll see you all after a glorious week in okc!
What was...
1. ...your first grade teacher's name?
mrs. fleichek...i think that's how you spell it...you pronounce it like flea and check...and then put the two together and say it really fast!
2. ...your favorite Saturday morning cartoon?
i loved my looney toons!
3. ...the name of your very first best friend?
my first best friend was britton smith. yes, the girl who has never had a boyfriend had a boy as her first best friend. we kinda grew apart after elementary school but i see him often since our families are very close. he's kinda gotten, well, stupid over the years...i don't think he makes the best choices. last i heard he wanted to buy a new truck and then file for unemployment. but yeah, i also just found out that in first grade, when we couldn't be in the same class, he cried! how sweet!
4. ...your favorite breakfast cereal?
back then i did like to eat cereal as opposed to now (ick!). i liked lucky charms, cheerios, frosted flakes and what ever else my mom bought.
5. ...your favorite thing to do after school?
well, i liked playing with friends and the other kids in the neighborhood and at the daycare...but after awhile, once i really got into swimming when i was 6 and 7, i would head off to swimming because practice started at 4 so that's what i did everyday after school!
well everyone, i'm leaving for spring break which means no posts for awhile. like a week. and i was going to post about the rest of my horendous week which did get much better but it's such a long story and it ended on a good note after i felt like punching the wall in, which i refrained from doing. it's odd...i've never really wanted to do that before...but the chili dinner for h4h put me back in a wonderful mood and then shawn started talking to me online last night! which just put me in an even better mood...until after i told him i had a shitty week and then he asked me why and so i told him....and he still didn't respond so i don't know where he went! and then msn had to shut down for maintanance! why don't they do that at a later time? hello! people are still talking at midnight!!! anyway...i'm gonna finish packing and then i'll see you all after a glorious week in okc!
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
GoGo Power Rangers!! AHAHAAAA!
Power Rangers Movie!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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hehehe! so funny!
Power Rangers Movie!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Tuesday, March 02, 2004
the disastrous life of andi
i want to fall down, preferably hitting my bed, crawl under my covers and disappear into a long, long sleep. that's my wish right now. and i'm wishing....
i know it won't come true because i won't let it come true. i don't consider my life hard, so to say, because i'm tough. i always have and always will be...well maybe not always have. i cried pretty easily in elementary school. but NOW i consider myself tough. i can take anything and do anything. so why is it that i just want to kick school in the butt and crash? i have no idea.
call me lazy, but all i want to do every day is sleep, read good books, paint or make a masterpeice, relax, exercise and enjoy life. BUT then on the other hand, i have to do life: schoolwork, bills, organizing, work, and more schoolwork. i'm not saying any of these are a burden to me, but they are things i would rather not have to concentrate on right now.
it seemed to all boil down last night however. i went to the habitat meeting knowing i wasn't prepared and knew that i would be prepared after spring break...i just had to get through this meeting. i had all that i wanted to say and i had a 2 goals in mind: 1) i didn't want to start assigning things to be done for after spring break because i knew they would be forgoten before spring break. 2) to get this meeting done and over with so we could tye dye shirts. i felt i was doing pretty good until loj came downstairs and started shooting questions at me. i know loj was doing good but for some reason i just couldn't defend myself. not because i didn't know the answers but for some reason i struggled to get the words out of my mouth. my brain litterally froze in action and no thought was going on; all that was happening up there was a mad scramble to find those words that had made a mad dash for it when loj's mouth opened. i have no idea why this happened. my face started to get hot and i sputtered out words that didn't make sense. i hate to be admitting to stress but i think the mad dash for homework before the meeting and the knowledge that i would be at the newman for a good couple of hours was taking it's toll on me. thank god for square and jackie who came to my rescue (i think?) what they said didn't quite reach me the first time due to my disorientedness and the fact that by this point i had lost the groups attention. all i know is jackie eventually said "let's go tye dye" and all i could do was say "let's go". jackie then came and asked me if i needed a hug and i took it because i needed it, which is odd because i'm not the kind to give or receive hugs but will usually take them...not too many people ask me this unless their name is alli. at that point i pretty much felt the tears coming to my eyes but i pushed them away. i wanted to run to the bathroom to let them all out, but decided against it. i had some habitaters that were devouring the tye dyeing equipment and i had to call order!
i don't think yesterday would have been that stressful. i think i was just in one of those moods. i will never admit that i can't handle being president, because i know i am capable of it and it will not be a problem. now i just have to sit down with all the habitat stuff that has been passed on to me and get it organized and make it happen.
my night did cheer up towards the end - square spilt half a bottle of red tye dye on the floor causing us to have to use simple green to clean it up...o darn! hehehe
o and hear's some more startling news: i just found out my wonderful friend julie, who is my partner in crime at online services is quitting! she was a little delayed with the whole letting me know, but i completely forgive her :) you'll be missed at work julie!
anyways, less than 4 days till OKC...it'll be fun, but not quite a relaxing spring break. i'll enjoy the work though, and the laughter and craziness, but most of all, not having to think about anything schoolwork related and putting all of my mind and soul into habitat!
i want to fall down, preferably hitting my bed, crawl under my covers and disappear into a long, long sleep. that's my wish right now. and i'm wishing....
i know it won't come true because i won't let it come true. i don't consider my life hard, so to say, because i'm tough. i always have and always will be...well maybe not always have. i cried pretty easily in elementary school. but NOW i consider myself tough. i can take anything and do anything. so why is it that i just want to kick school in the butt and crash? i have no idea.
call me lazy, but all i want to do every day is sleep, read good books, paint or make a masterpeice, relax, exercise and enjoy life. BUT then on the other hand, i have to do life: schoolwork, bills, organizing, work, and more schoolwork. i'm not saying any of these are a burden to me, but they are things i would rather not have to concentrate on right now.
it seemed to all boil down last night however. i went to the habitat meeting knowing i wasn't prepared and knew that i would be prepared after spring break...i just had to get through this meeting. i had all that i wanted to say and i had a 2 goals in mind: 1) i didn't want to start assigning things to be done for after spring break because i knew they would be forgoten before spring break. 2) to get this meeting done and over with so we could tye dye shirts. i felt i was doing pretty good until loj came downstairs and started shooting questions at me. i know loj was doing good but for some reason i just couldn't defend myself. not because i didn't know the answers but for some reason i struggled to get the words out of my mouth. my brain litterally froze in action and no thought was going on; all that was happening up there was a mad scramble to find those words that had made a mad dash for it when loj's mouth opened. i have no idea why this happened. my face started to get hot and i sputtered out words that didn't make sense. i hate to be admitting to stress but i think the mad dash for homework before the meeting and the knowledge that i would be at the newman for a good couple of hours was taking it's toll on me. thank god for square and jackie who came to my rescue (i think?) what they said didn't quite reach me the first time due to my disorientedness and the fact that by this point i had lost the groups attention. all i know is jackie eventually said "let's go tye dye" and all i could do was say "let's go". jackie then came and asked me if i needed a hug and i took it because i needed it, which is odd because i'm not the kind to give or receive hugs but will usually take them...not too many people ask me this unless their name is alli. at that point i pretty much felt the tears coming to my eyes but i pushed them away. i wanted to run to the bathroom to let them all out, but decided against it. i had some habitaters that were devouring the tye dyeing equipment and i had to call order!
i don't think yesterday would have been that stressful. i think i was just in one of those moods. i will never admit that i can't handle being president, because i know i am capable of it and it will not be a problem. now i just have to sit down with all the habitat stuff that has been passed on to me and get it organized and make it happen.
my night did cheer up towards the end - square spilt half a bottle of red tye dye on the floor causing us to have to use simple green to clean it up...o darn! hehehe
o and hear's some more startling news: i just found out my wonderful friend julie, who is my partner in crime at online services is quitting! she was a little delayed with the whole letting me know, but i completely forgive her :) you'll be missed at work julie!
anyways, less than 4 days till OKC...it'll be fun, but not quite a relaxing spring break. i'll enjoy the work though, and the laughter and craziness, but most of all, not having to think about anything schoolwork related and putting all of my mind and soul into habitat!
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