unemployment

well...i'm officially one hour into my life unemployed. i'm watching tv, i just ate some breakfast, and i think i'm going back to sleep. right after i dispose of my roommates birds.

but i don't want to be unemployed for long. the money situation does worry me. and i do have a lead on a job. i should here back on more of that today. i really want this job. it will involve a move to reno, but i'm pretty psyched for it.

plans for today:
-pack
-lunch with a friend
-if it's nice out...i'm laying outside for a bit
-go to old workplace to pick up rest of my stuff
-oil change
-walk
-call landlords to check out how to get my deposit back

life is grand.

microwave dinners

here's one to bookmark

graduation time

in a couple of hours i will go to my last final (ok, not a final, but my group has to do a little bs presentation) and then i will be done with classes, which is pretty exciting.

the not so exciting part is trying to figure out where i am going. right now it's looking like home, until i get this job situation figured out with my uncle. he wants to hire me as his marketing director, which is not only flattering but pretty exciting. the bad news is that i will be moving somewhere completely new, where i won't know anyone. my plans were to move down to the city, live in a fabulous house with a friend and i would keep myself busy meeting up with all my friends who live down there and going to twins games. but now it's looking like reno...

which i said is exciting. i would be making good money from the sounds of it, so i do have a list of things that i would do if i moved to reno:

-new car (i don't think the breeze will make it unfortunatly...)
-the apartment would need 2 bedrooms, one for the visitors. and a pool. i'm not living in the desert without a pool.
-a puppy to keep me company
-45 minutes from lake tahoe? ok!
-pay off bills... :(

but as i said...no friends. no one i know except my great aunt and uncle. good thing for family. but this whole job is so scary/exciting/overwhelming/________. i'm not sure what to think....all i know is that if i'm offered it, i will take it because years from now, i don't want to be kicking myself for not taking a leap and experiencing life.

i just wish i knew where i was moving. soon.


(((my portfolio went great by the way -- i made my dad cry, but that's not a hard thing to do. the picture is of me and my banner i made for the gallery displaying...well, me.)))

wow i've got a ways to go....

an update

portfolio presentation and graduation is upon me...it's less than a month! somehow, i've managed not to freak out.

i got my portfolio site up last night. check it out: amkrolldesign.com

i slept through my loan counceling session this morning. i'll have to try and make another date.

here's my schedule:

april 29th...fargo for squeaks graduation
may 5...taking the night off...it's cinco de mayo!
may 9...rehersal, 3:30, bbq following
may 11...biggest day of my life: portfolio presentation! i present at 3:30. presentations start at 1. refreshments at 3. bridgeman hall.
may 11...after party for design tech, tjuans. hi chance i may not be functioning that night......but i deserve to celebrate!
may 17th, honor reception, 1 pm
may 18th....10-12 union for graduation brunch
1 pm, line up for the parade!
2 pm graduation!
5:50 dinner at btcc
party and celebrate!
may 21...start my adult life :(

just so you know...

i don't like staying up until 5 am finishing homework and all the other crap that i have to do. here's what's on my plate:

-i have to get the last 3 essays back from louise, correct the edits in the electronic file, check every paragraph on every page of a 300 page book to make sure that they "flow" and then finish talking to the book printing company in minneapolis and ftp the file to them by the end of the week.

-i have to finish my 3dh planets file...hopefully today...and send that file down to atlanta for rendering, or at least by the end of the week.

-i then have to get that same file up on my portfolio webpage so that i can get my webpage up and working hopefully by the end of this weekend. flash (the program) is not easy.

-i have to finish my portfolio projects by the end of this week and get them up on my webpage...well soon, so that i can send my resume to a couple of select companies by april 20. next friday, yes. i have mucho work to do.

-my script is due for my portfolio presentation by monday. i have it half written.

-i have an identity standards manual (a 20 page book telling someone the correct usage of a logo) that is due monday, but i have to laminate it so it needs to be done by friday.

-i have a 2 magazine articles that i have to put together by friday, that are due monday but my group and i have to organize our magazine by then.

-friday i have to go out and get door prizes for the beaver film fest. gotta keep the masses happy!

-wednesday night, screen printing beaver film festival tshirts.

-thursday night, screen printing design guild tshirts.

-friday, 3dh presentations for bridgemans open house

-monday, class all day, followed by a film fest meeting with all my volunteers.

-i have to do last minute shopping for film fest decor at some point over the weekend.

-i'm hosting a bday party at my place on saturday. preparations need to be made for that.

-there is a million last minute details that i have to figure out and print out for the beaver film festival.

-either monday or tuesday night i have to help screen the films and come up with a script for our host.

-i have to finish sewing my dress by next wednesday. and that means buying more material.

-the job situation...i might have a job that fell into my lap. but now i need to meet with people to figure out its the right one.

-my thesis is due april 30th.

that might be it for now. trust me, i am busy. but if you want to believe you are busier than me...well then, by all means, go for it.

worries and wishes

WORRY:
-that my portfolio presentation will suck
-that i won't get a job

WISHES:
-that i didn't have to spend my waking hours (and it's getting close to my sleeping hours...seriously. if one more thing goes wrong...)
-that i could stand my ground better
-that my thesis would write itself
-that june was here. (but that i didn't miss a second of the next two months)

i just won my dream portfolio on ebay. it's red, there's 2 of them, 2 different sizes. for all this homework crap i have to deal with right now...this totally makes my day. i'm so excited!

i. hate. life.

happy 2 years of eurospring!

i miss it each and every day :)

happy valentine's day!

just thought i would get that out there. here's what is new in my life:

i officially have a roommate: MS. LINDSI JO GISH! you have no idea how excited the two of us are. we're in the process of house (townhouse, condo) hunting. we're trying to find the perfect place in a perfect city. it's going to be the most fabulous house ever because we both kind of want to find some sort of special house that needs a little bit of a fixer upper...i love diy and so does she...so FRICKEN EXCITED!

other than that...just working on my portfolio and getting everything done for graduation. a long ways away, i know, but i have lots to do...maybe even score a job in the process? we'll see.

but other than that...happy valentine's day. and if you're the down in the dumps type...just remember that someone out there loves you. maybe not me... but someone ;)

happy birthday squeakers!

i am sorry i can't get you the sammy the singing birthday cake featured at left.

but you get me in 5 days!

hope you have a fabulous day of turning old!

love squishy.

more reasons to hate monday

i finally made it out of bed this morning. it took awhile. i was going to go swimming and texted the 2 guys i go swimming with to see if they were going. either they did and didn't want me to come with, or they didn't get up to go swimming either. either way i wish they would at least text back.

one of my roommates ate my pineapple pizza that i had saved for myself in the fridge especially for breakfast this morning. i was completely looking forward to it...that and it was probably the only thing i really had ready for breakfast. except i didn't get it. because someone ate it. who eats other people's food? i don't eat theirs. makes me mad.

i get on campus (and i think my eyelashes were starting to freeze together...damn its cold!) and attempt to drop off my painting stuff so i don't have to lug it around. the painting room door is still locked. i guess i have to drag this monstrosity around with me.

class was cancelled. yes, i am happy, but at the same time...i could have just slept in. and i almost did except i told myself i wasn't going to miss a class this semester.

i went and bought a cappucino. i tastes horrible. ick. almost 3 dollars of grossness.

and now i'm sitting at work. at least i get an extra 2 hours on my paycheck.

my last first day of school

tessa dragged me out of bed at 6:30 this morning to work out. it was pretty liberating. all in all i did about 4 miles!

came home, showered, listened to some vh1 music videos as i dried my hair and did my make-up. i went for the sweatshirt and jeans look for now...i'll change later tonight.

then i made myself a slice of wheat french toast and made my lunch (veggie burger and leftover broccoli cashew salad with a diet cherry coke). packed that up, turned everything off and then ran to the postoffice to mail a book that was supposed to be mailed last week (oops!).

at work, i finally finished my preliminary portfolio webpage. it's pretty cool cause it's in flash!! check it out here...then leave me some comments on what would be cool to do with it:

http://www.bemidjistate.edu/atc/staffsites/akroll/

my one class today? jewelry and metal making. boring. went over the syllabus and safety proceedures. all of what should have taken 45 minutes. but no...we have an adhd teacher who rambled on for half an hour on who should get into the class (we had extras wanting to get in...the class usually only takes 14 students...we had a 4 extras today). gross.

but now...done with work. i'm going to go see if my loan check came. then i'm going to deposit it and then possibly go swimming. then...date night with jennie! i think a marg would be the perfect way to celebrate my last first day of school! one semester left!

i have decided that i need to get out of this stupid funk that i'm in and realize that people have much bigger problems than me and that they need my help right now.

but i swear. i hate boys. they don't realize just what emotional turmoil they are putting on me. especially when i don't know you and you call me things such as "conceeded," "bipolar," and "the most unsocial person i know" when i tell you i'm tired. asshole.

that and they just don't listen to what exactly i'm trying to tell them before they act. stupid boys.

but i think things are starting to look up.


and then my radio died again in my car.

i'm a model

check it out!

damn you keith urban

your songs make me cry. and unfortunatly, you're the only one i want to listen to right now.

life hates me

i think i had one of the worst days ever. it involved learning that my favorite manager was quiting, problems with certain people that i won't elaborate on, my cd/radio decided to quit with my new keith urban cd in it, and i dismissed a boy from my life (he decided to date someone else and not tell me...and then tried to break it off with me by blaming me. as if. he has way more to be blamed about). tessa and i will be dropping his things off at his place tonight whether he wants them or not.

i hate crying.

BUT today is a new day. my cd/radio started working again, although it was reset, i slept in a little bit, and its nice to know that i will not be lied to from someone i love for a very long time.

and i'm sure the tears will eventually subside.

although i do want to get the hell out of bemidji right now.

and, please, i don't want to hear any good for yous or anything. he's still my friend. and it just makes me cry again.

...here it is...

...here it is ...

well, here's the new template. i actually just modified the old one and it took me all day! good thing i can count it as learning css ;)

let me know what you think...or if you have any suggestions. i might try and add some color later...we'll see.

i'm making a new template for the blog. it's a new year. out with the old, in with the new!