and here's an update...

it's been awhile. christmas has come and gone (it was good) squeak is back in germany, movies were watched (narnia was good, family stone...a little more dramatic than what was expected, funny but not as funny), and way too much food was eaten.

i went out and bought the first season of gilmore girls and i'm watching while i wait for a certain person to call. i love this show. i love how innocent rory is in the beginning...lorelai too. she tries to be cool...well, she is cool...but inviting your crush over for movies with your mom = not cool. just a note to mom's out there. at least she makes up for it in the long run.

well...here's for a boring night in. tomorrow night should be a good one though. everyone will be back in town!

if i don't say it before it happens: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

released

it's weird to see your friends leave. it's almost an eye opener to know that you've been here long enough to watch your friends be released into the real world and leave the safe, crazy, fun haven of bemidji.

good luck to all that are graduating...it's been a fun couple of years. keep in touch.

Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
But the rest is still unwritten
-unwritten, natasha bedingfield

My blog is worth $3,387.24.
How much is your blog worth?

...and how can i get this money?

and it's christmas...allover, again!

a eurospring christmas party just got done. i hosted and am now officially broke. why did i agree to host? because then it wouldn't have happened...and it was so much fun!

i was the only one who stole on our white elephant gift exchange. i wanted that painted martini glass like no other. and bill looked pretty kickin in the hat i gave away. suited him more than it did me! haha.

habitat christmas tomorrow, plus bajillions of cookies to deliver.
christmas with the girls on tuesday.
out on the town for one last hurrah with the peeps on wednesday. before they all go home...and i stay here to work. but o my, will it be wonderful. i get the house to myself!

big project due tomorrow, let's hope i finish it.
tuesday test.
wednesday, @ noon, my paper retype is due. aparently, when a teacher says to type about your passion, she doesn't mean your passion. she means to type about the part of your passion that you really don't care about.
WTF.

and jennie leritz might be living with me next year! wooohoo!

so me and my 20 dollars that i hold to my name are over and out for the night. doing homework...boo.

job well done

i love it when you get good reviews back on homework that you kicked your butt on. we completely rocked our design management class, our teacher was so impressed. he said:

"it's so good to see a group meet your expectations, but when a group goes above and beyond your expectations...wow."

thanks mark!

and thanks to phil, jenna, and jessie...we had a kick butt group. if you want to see our dance club and business plan that we put together so stylishly...go here:
http://www.bemidjistate.edu/atc/staffsites/jtaray/InThePit


so yeah, sweet presentation today...glad to have class number 2 out of the way...3 more to go!

the good and the bad

it's been one of those days

good:
-got my hockey ticket for friday
-ran into a certain someone...made me smile
-was told about my work being published (see below)
-finished my honors class (YEEESSSS!)
-got 2 more registrants for battle of the bands and another on the way!
-cookie sales finally got going
-we had a good habitat meeting tonight...for once i didn't have to do all the talking

bad:
-sat on the phone with habitat international today as they continued to screw us over. i know they don't mean to, and i'm not mad...just really frustrated because i want them to give us something in return for all of our suffering...even though they have nothing to give us.
-i hate running all over campus
-i wrote a 10 page paper in 1 hour and 49 min. and ran it to be turn in with 5 min. to spare
-i miss a certain someone. though i shouldn't be jealous...i got 3 days in a row before this one day off.
-form z can bite me butt. i hate it
-no more homework, make it go away.

it's my finals week

and after this week i'm done! but for now...well, i shouldn't even be typing in here i have so much to do...and i have so much going on!

but i do have to tell you this: my teacher for 3d computer imaging will be featuring my artwork in an article that the software company that we made our artwork in wants her to write. it will be featuring bemidji state students and i'm one of the few she choose to include in the article. so yeah...that makes me happy.

i lost 9 pounds in the past week

i'm happy...yet concerned. that's an awful lot to loose in 1 week. that's 5 pounds of turkey and 4 pounds of me...just random fat that was there before. well...6 pounds until my goal...and then i get to reward myself! massage...body wave for the hair? i don't know. we'll worry about it when (and if) i get there...because i'm technically not on a diet.

things i should be doing:
-business proposal papers
-3d computer imaging homework
-the book
-student senate webpages
-honors paper...if i have to do it

things that i want to be doing
-watching tv
-blogging
-running
-sleeping
-anything and everything that's not on the list above...

how sad am i? eh, gotta keep going...

i hate keeping secrets. sometimes, i just want to run out and tell all to the world. i don't want to tell my secret, but sometimes...it's hard to not say it. i find it funny that you have friends that you only tell certain things to...never the whole story.

but then again...we don't want others screaming, "too much information!"

june 24.

i will be competing in a swim meet on june 24...or at least i'm pretty sure. i need to start getting in shape! my siblings and i are going to do a medley relay for sure: i'll swim back, zach breast, alli fly and zerek free. zach and i are going to have to train hard core this spring semester. we can't let the 2 that are still in shape swimming wise down.

i need to start running, everyday. no more eliptical...we need to do the tread mill. and swimming more often. i'm kind of excited!

so i'm bored at work...have fun!

10 Firsts:
First Best Friend(s): Britton Smith
First Screen Name: giggles1444...andi...
First Kiss: Shawn
First Pet: Brandy, my guard dog
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: Britton...funny how your 3 year old best friend is also your first crush
First CD: I think I got Amy Grant for xmas...good cd.
First love: swimming...haha.
First Stuffed animal: this little teddy bear...apparently i had a name for him and my mom asked me and i have no clue. thanks for remembering mom...so now i have my first teddy bear lying around nameless. sad.

9 Lasts:
Last Cigarette: ick, gross, keep em away.
Last Alcoholic drink: last night...combat!
Last Car Ride: home from the bar last night.
Last Kiss: my mom gave me a kiss before i left back to bemiji
Last Movie Seen: Harry Potter
Last Phone Call: i just talked to steph who's on the radio right now. she played a surprise song for me.
Last CD Played: a very merry christmas 2. i love xmas music
Last bubble bath: right after we got the new jacuzzi at our home last year.
Last time you cried: the night my friend yelled at me and then we didn't speak for a month...beginning of october.

8 Have You Evers:
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: how about, have you ever dated? no.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope...but i have been pulled over because i can't control my passengers fingers when they decide to flip off a cop. the cop wanted to take me in for that one. how would the rest of my drunk passengers get home? stupid.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yes! adrianic sea at the island lido off of venice, italy. amazing.
Have You Ever Been on TV: yeah...news and when i was little they had this show where you went up and sat on santa's lap and told all of the grand forks community what you wanted for xmas. i was the last one picked from the big crowd to go up.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted it: not yet.
Have You Ever Dreamt about someone you knew: ummm...doesn't everyone?
Have You Ever played in the middle of a hurricane: No.

7 career paths you've considered:
1. layout artist
2. grahic designer
3. graphic design teacher
4. swim coach
5. beggar on the streets of oxford
6. artist
7. president of the united states...ahaahha...no. why would i want a job where almost eveyone hates you?

6 Things You've Done Today:
1. Checked E-mail
2. Ate lunch
3. woke up at 11...yeeeesssssss!
4. checked all my websites
5. struggled to put my contacts in
6. amused our selves at work with contacting the other office via microphone and tv

5 favorite things In NO Order:
1. computers...and the internet
2. laughing
3. music
4. being warm and near good people
5. cuddling

4 People You Can Tell Anything to in NO order:
1. ok, first off, i tell everyone everything because a)nothing cool ever happens to me so there's not much to tell and b)if something cool does happen, i tell everyone because it's just that cool

3 Choices:
1. Black or White: either or
2. Hot or Cold: depends on my mood
3. Chocolate or vanilla: they're both good...i had triple chocolate cake today...and phil made me scrap all the rest off the bottom of the pan and eat it...gross.

2 Things You Want to Do Before you die:
1. travel all over the place (and relive eurospring)
2. Die clutching all my glorious money (i kinda like that answer...)

1 thing you regret:
i have nothing to regret...yet.

christmas time

you know it's christmas when you hear the redneck's version or the 12 days of christmas.

"..and a beer in a tree..."

they play just to amuse us all at work...it's making my co-workers laugh at least.

"eight...(twelve!)...oh, twelvth day...good day..." "go out to the store and get some presents...or the donut shop..."

"i think it ranks up there with stairway to heaven."

o my.

thanksgiving in bemidji photos

no school!
at least night class, which means no honors...which is more than wonderful! but this crappy weather sucks. we're in a blizzard warning, i can't get in my car, which means that i can't charge my phone (no i wasn't thinking of driving!). but there is a possibility that their won't be school tomorrow, which means no stupid wsi...but i do need to get there to work, so i will be walking across the street tomorrow....and i cancelled habitat for tonight, there was no need for me to keep it on and go and only be the only one to show up, but this just means we have a lot more to do in the next coming weeks.

yay for blizzards!

turkey and snow (or basically ice)

i made it into work this afternoon, which isn't much of an accomplishment since I just had to walk across the street and get into bsu's tunnel system to make it here, but my morning classes were cancelled since the teachers couldn't make it into town due to the mass amount of ice on the roads.

coming back to bemidji yesterday afternoon wasn't too much of an accomplishment either, well for me i guess. ice and snow on the roads doesn't phase me one bit, but it seemed to everyone else. i was going 50 on a 65 although everyone else was going 40. but i felt confident on the road, i wasn't sliding, and there was no way i was going to leave egf at 2 in the afternoon and get home at 8. so i passed everyone...including a sandtruck in a ditch and 2 other accidents, but they were all in the west bound lane. tessa was 10 minutes behind me and katie another 10 minutes behind her, so if trouble did happen, i would have my back covered.

my mom sent me home with quite a bit of food, which for that, i'm thankful. i wouldn't have anything otherwise! i had to buy a new cell phone (lindsi on my old phone: "that thing looks like a spaceship!") as my old phone would turn off for now apparent reason (i would turn i on and it would still have full battery) and no one could really hear me in it anyway. but unfortunatly i had to drop the rest of my paycheck on it, so i've got 2 weeks to go until the next paycheck. but anyway i got all sorts of leftovers from out friday night junk food night, a pizza, all sorts of chicken (grilled, patties and breaded), hamburgers, turkey, cheese, pasta, spaghetti sauce, veggies...it was a lot! so i should be set for the next couple of weeks.

it was good to see family on thursday and friday. i don't get to see my cousins that live down in the cities all that often, so it was good to catch up with them. it was a lot of talking and eating and just good times.

and now it's back to the daily grind. homework to be done and all sorts of other things. emails to send, projects to complete...and that stupid water safety instructor workbook to finish for tomorrow and i don't understand what i'm supposed to complete in there. i'll have to email the teacher, but i'm pretty sure she hasn't looked at it.

but anyways....happy monday!

i did my damage

ahhhh...good times last night. i did some good damage in the drinking department and need to go for a run so i can get in shape to continue on tonight... cause it's billiam's birthday! happy birthday my friend!

i also made an attempt to clean my room and rearrange it. i got the rearranging done...there's so much space in my room that we can have A DANCE PARTY in there! along with the new subwoofer and speakers, it could be a good time...that is if i could just clean up my floor so there would be room to dance without tripping over my clothes...and swim bag...and shoes...and random papers...and the broom...and....yeah.

tonight: party hardy!

freebies

i got a new bsu id today, for free. when i went to take my picture for my new IT working credential thingy, the guy was like, that doesn't even look like you! so i got 2 new ids. didn't realize that i had changed that much.

anyways...it's a thursday night so that means out on the town. slim's burgers, keg and who knows what else. and it's ben's birthday ... happy birthday ben! (highly doubt he reads this)

and tomorrow night...it's billiam's birthday! but i'll save his happy birthday for tomorrow!

and how crazy is this...i have another birthday to celebrate on the 19th and then the 20th it's a baptism. so much going on.

good nights

big project out of the way yesterday...time to go out! good bars and good friends equal good times.

i love bemidji...but for right now, i could do without the mass amount of snow it's dropping down on us.

my sister, the stud

last weekend, pretty damn exciting. i went home to see my sister swim in the north dakota high school girls state swim and dive meet. it's the meet that pretty much became what my life revolved around for 4 years and now she has the opportunity to do it for 6 (1 down,5 to go). it's dressing up for the parade of athletes, wearing a fastskin II, not shaving your legs for 3 months until the day of the big meet, wearing crazy colored tights and swimsuits to recreate the drag that you just shaved off for warm-up, getting your last gift from your secret sister, giving your last gift to your secret sister, cheering, and last but not least: swimming out of your mind.

before i go on, i have to tell you this: i went to go see fredrick winters, the hypnotist when he came here to bsu for a little show. he sells cds with his hypnotic practice on them for $5 a pop and he had one for sports and since i knew my sister had a mental issue when it came to swimming, i picked one up for her and mailed it to her. she became addicted to it, listening to it every night before bed and right before meets. i have a feeling this is what helped her, as she made sure to listen to it on the car ride over to the pool for prelims last friday.

alli was seated in the upper 20's for the 200 IM. my parents and i weren't sure what to expect. we weren't sure if she was going to swim her time or bomb it ... or maybe she would drop a second or two. or she could do what she did: drops 5 seconds and takes 21st. she didn't make it onto the next day for that event, but my parents and i had our hopes up for the 100 fly.

going into the fly, alli was seated 19th. being a seventh grader competeing against seniors can be slightly intimidating. she had a 1:08 seed time that she earned at eastern distric championship (edc) the prior weekend. i knew she would have to drop at least a second to make the consol heat, and i knew my mind was blank when the beep went off for her race and she dove in. i had no idea what the outcome would be. she had a strong first 50, staying pace with everyone else...then all of a sudden she took off! i know my mom and i were screaming, urging her to go faster...she touched the wall at a 1:05, now seeded 11th...we were so impressed. my parents took us out to eat that night so she could get a decent pasta meal and to celebrate (it was my 2nd time of the 4 times that weekend that i would eat restaurant food for a meal...it was a swimming weekend, what can i say?).

next morning, is finals. i'm in charge of running the video camera for the scoreboard at the meet, which naturally, i had fun with, warming up the crowd, zooming in on certain swimmers having fun and such. alli and the team warm up (alli wore red tights i had bought her as a fire up gift, pink fishnets, drag suit, and my brothers red short drag suit...stylin), then they have parade of athletes, and then relays start. she was on the 200 medley, swimming the fly leg, which was right away, she looked good during it, but they missed getting up on the award stand. then, later, after diving, is her event. part of my job was to zoom in on every swimmer and get them on screen. when i got to her, she blows a big kiss to the camera...what a ham. i started to worry she was going to bomb the swim, as her mind might not be in the right place...but boy was i wrong. last 50 she takes off again...cruising by everyone, touches the wall at a 1:04.49 and winning consols...taking 9th! as a 7th grader! she's pretty much a stud in my book.

so yeah, anyways...as state swimming comes around every year and i hear all the talk about it, it puts me in a swimming mood...shaving my legs is veeerrrrry minimal, and i've been at the pool as many times as i can make it to whip out a couple of sets. it's too bad bemidji doesn't have a team.

ahh...i heart swimming.

barf

i just ate 3 pieces of candy and now it's time to start homework.

there's 2 reasons to barf.

trying to finish so i can make an appearance at keg tonight...we'll see.

no homework weekend

should have done homework...but it didn't get done. instead, halloween decorations came down (tear*) but all the leaf decorations are still up. once i get paid, i'm going to buy more thanksgiving decorations for turkey day.

kt and i are planning a little shindig for turkey day. it should be fun. good food, good friends, and maybe a little touch football? :)

state next weekend. i haven't been home in 2 1/2 months! my sister dropped a second off her 100 fly time yesterday and she's not all the way tapered yet, so that should equal a rockin time next week. hopefully making it into the next day and t16? we'll hope...i need to make a sign i think...

well, i'm off to bed. i think i'm gonna go running in the morning. danielle and leann are my inspiration! hopefully i can get my lazy butt out of bed in the morning!

...and stupid turns to just plain unlucky...

but maybe not in all ways. so, as you have probably already read, i locked my keys in my car. so this morning, kt and i begin the excursion to retrieve my car. it goes a little something like this:

-go to get vin number off of my dashboard of my car.
-vin number is covered by A BOOK. figures.
-grab fricken parking ticket i was told i wouldn't get by police officer becky.
-call parents. no one will be home to tell me my vin number untill 1.
-go by police station, appeal ticket. old man sheriff is super nice, no ticket to pay!
-go home. dad calls at 1 with vin number.
-call chrystler center. five dolla gets me new key.
-go to chrsyter center. nice old man there gets me a spare key for free! score! really liken old men right about now...
-go back to car, drop off kt, take off to drop off friend's car.
-kt calls, "your car is dead!!"
-back to car
-indead, it is dead
-drop off friend's car
-to house, pick up kt's car and jumper cables
-back to my car
-proceed to hook up cars the correct way and not electrocute ourselves
-we succeed! bring car home, no money spent...but time.

loooooonngg process. all because i fricken locked my keys in my car.

bar scene tonight was dull at the most, but i got to hang out with lindsi, good times.

thursday night should be exciting...no school friday. jenny and i need to get drunk and dance!!

or at least that's what i'm hoping...someone else can drive this time.

stupid

fucking locked my keys in my car outside of brigids (excuse my french). i just can't believe how stupid i was. how did i forget to grab them? it's so unlike me...ugh.

good news though: talked to police officer becky, and although she couldn't unlock my car, she's going to spare me the ticket as she is on ticketing duty tonight (yes!). so tomorrow, all it's going to cost me is five dolla for a spare key at the chrystler center. and i really can't even handle that with all the broke-ness...thank god for five dolla spare keys at chrystler!!

and thanks to garret, who got me into keg, since my id is attached to my keys, which are in the ignition.

grrr.

party at the hockey house tomorrow night? hopefully!

new stuff

so i made a bet with jen and steph that i would get married before them...as in, if i do, i owe them each $50 in drinks at my bachelorette...if not, they owe me...$100 in drinks...it will be a sweet reward, because i can almost guarantee that i will not be getting married before them, as they sit at perkins with guys and i chose to come home. but i have an 8 am!

good news...i whipped out the hot red pea coat today. matches my scarf from berlin perfectly and ties in my fav. blue mittens. i want the cold to go away, but if it's going to be here, at least it gets to be in my red coat.

danced with a good guy friend at keg to build me up buttercup. it was fun, especially since i wasn't in the mood for dancing. i love dancing with him, it's always a good time.

thursday nights: slim's, bar bingo and karoake at keg with jen and steph (and all you lovely folks that come out to join us)...i love thursday nights

life is falling apart

eh....missed a class this morning. but i didn't have the homework done quite yet for it anyways, so yeah...but i can't miss anymore for that class. i've missed my 3. i don't necessarily like the content that we are learning in that class. it's stuff that i'm pretty sure that i won't be using in the future anyway.

i still have no money. and i've found that i owe more money to a credit card. i can't wait to get paid in a little over a week...but then again, it doesn't matter...because all that money will be gone towards gas, utilities and such. the only reason i go out is to see people. i can't drink, because i can't afford it...and if i do drink it's because someones paying for me to drink. thanks guys :)

ahhh....life sucks.

why is it like this?

so you get close with a guy...as in, heck, ok...i slept over at this guys house last week, shared a bed with him, we cuddled...it was fun. we didn't talk all week. party at his house tonight. he has 2 girls all over him and when i'm leaving and walking past, we finally say hi and we ask how each are doing...while he is still grinding with this girl.

why?

i'm not sure if i even like this guy, but why do guys mess with girls like this? my old roommate and i were talking about this. guys always seem like they are interested. you'll go out one night and some guy will stick with you all night, dance with you, buy you your drinks, hand on your back, hand around you...the whole bit. but other than that they want nothing to do with you.

it must be the alcohol...but seriously. i don't liked to be messed with.

stop messing with me!

more pirates!

there's going to be 2 sequels to pirates of the caribbean! how cool is that?

spring semester:

history of modern design
3-D computer imaging II
multimedia processes II
senior project II
portfolio preparation II

14 credits.

i think i might die with this schedule.

this is the semester that should have been my last. but due to eurospring, i will be here another full year. super senior. as much as i want to be done with everyone else, to be done with classes...i'm relishing my childhood still. i may not be a child, but i'm still young. plus, i wouldn't have traded eurospring for anything!

speaking of still being young...i stayed up until 3:30 last night and fell asleep at a mini sleepover...and made it to my 8 am class this morning. and soon...i will take a nap, because i will pay for my late night later. i really should have come home last night and slept in my bed, except that where i slept last night really wasn't all that comfortable and it made it much easier to get up in the morning.

i was in fine form this weekend. no homework was completed, and i got somewhat drunk...ok, drunk enough that i don't remember talking to steph. and that's it. other than that...it was a good night. the agents and i turned quite a few heads...it was marvelous. jenny and i had one guy beg us to pat him down at the bar.

i'll post pictures as soon as i can get my hands on some.

here's to mondays!

i'm not a hobag!

or maybe i am...i didn't update for a reeeeeeaaaaalllly long time.

i have to say, life is starting to look up, except for the whole financial situation. calculated my savings incorrectly and sent too much money into the forbidden credit card that i should have saved for living expenses...o yeah, and the $380 in car malfunction that i had to fork over.

but here's what's making my life better:

-mid term week over! homework is muuuuccchhh more lax.
-i no longer have a hater! thanks again to my wonderful friend lindsi!
-good friends and good food (thursday nights rock my world)
-halloween is turning into one big party. fbi special agent kroll here with her partners in crime, special agent anderson and special agent virnig, along with assistant director seydel.

although, there are still some worries in my life:
-no longer going to fort smith, arkansas for habitat spring break. now going to beverly, new jersey...which is fine, but has just produced some new problems that other people decided to bring up...and we were JIPPED!
-the financial situation
-procrastination central...grr.
-my schedule for next semester...you may not see me.

but yes, that's about it in my life. i'll try to update this a little more often, now that life has slowed down a bit.

scarry!

what's up with that?

bemidji state dropout (no graduation day for you...)

homework has officially has kicked my ass. i'm ready to drop out right now. but i'll be fine.

haha...i love grease.

i had a little study break and now i'm all revved to go again. but i think i'm gonna catch some shut eye and then wake up early to finish er up.

and my god. my bad luck...i didn't win the powerball. jeez my luck sucks. and i had 2 tickets!!

and just a reminder...the people in btown rule. they made my night much better than it should have been.

horrible

every time i jump on a computer to finish homework, i have to prolong the inevitable: my homework. i get on the computer, check my 4 email accounts (yes, 4! why...well, one is h4h and the rest all served their purpose for different parts of my life...so i check all 4), then my blog, then others blogs, and (new!) then facebook. it takes about a half hour.

why don't i wait until after i finish my homework? i think i need to get it out of my system. i'm an internet addict. i have no idea why...but i think the idea of the fact that someone out there may have tried to communicate with me is what makes me check all of the above.

we wouldn't want to keep someone waiting on my answer, now would we? but truth is...they probably don't check email/blogs/facebook as often as i do, so they probably won't see if until later anyways.

but i still can't wait. it's a horrible situation.

for your enjoyment

this makes me laugh. i'm sure it will do the same for you!

www.eighthourday.com/falldown

wow...i had no idea

**********And then Andi made my life.*************
(if that isn't the case, I'm pretty sure I have officially died and gone to heaven)

...............

So today I salute you, Andrea Kroll, for your wonderful, kind heart, the way you always look out for your friends, and your people connections. Without you, I never would've met the Deuce. I owe you, big.

you do owe me big! but i won't hold it to you...we all make it up to each other eventually...after all, that's what friends are for!

it's gotta be the people

i've always know that btown is the glorious town, know for the lake, all that jazz. but seriously, this town wouldn't be what it was to me if it wasn't for the amazing people who go here. we (bsu students...that's right, ALL OF YOU) make this place the place to be. somehow, the craziest, coolest, most wonderful people, all ended up right here in btown. i don't know how it happened but it did. so let me tell you about my weekend, and why it really is the people and not the town...starting with the design guild trip to the cities, which was one blast of a time with some fellow bsu design students.

wednesday night i got approx. 4 hours sleep. i wanted to hang with some eurospringers, so i did, and so jennie and i went and were spontaneous and went to join steph for some good times at the keg. thursday morning, i piled my stuff in the bsu van (that's right 15 seater baby), ran and got cappucino, and picked up my crew at the design guild office at 6 am. let me tell you this: i don't drink coffee. but this stuff was amazingly good. however, it took a massive toll on my system. first i went from hyper (john: "NO sudden movements!") to extremely bad. it felt like my stomach was on fire. it hurt so much. i finally had the crew pull over at hackensack and i ran inside...where my eyes went black and i thought i was going to faint. i know i had to catch my balance...i was so scared. i made it to the bathroom where i was shaking but regained my composure and sight. i don't know what was wrong. after some quick fix solutions and jenna driving for a short period of time, i was good...but weak. i did end up driving for the rest of the trip, but man...i have no idea what went wrong. we figure it was due to the fact that i don't usually drink coffee and that i had nothing else in my stomach.

thursday we went to 2 different companies. star exhibits and eight hour day. eight hour day has a dog at their office! haha...it was a lot of fun, we were all laughing at the dog's little antics. o, and if you want a good laugh, check this out: northeast falldown you'll laugh.

friday we went to 2 more companies, ham in the fridge and triangle park creative. it was good times. ham in the fridge has done some very big stuff. check out their portfolio online and you'll see (target and cartoon network). we even got to see a new game they are working on...but i can't tell you...they would have to kill me.

it was so much fun in the cities. john, jenna and i, are, i'm sure, the only people to try and pimp out a bsu 15 p van. we found some 80s rap music to blast and john provided the hydrolics. we almost got it on video.

i also enjoyed dressing up and being professional for the day. asking questions, hearing the experts give you very note worthy advise...and picking up some cool business cards...all pluses. o yes, and let's not forget our games of sardines: 16 people in one 10 seater van, 18 people in one elevator...i had a lot of fun. plus, we hit up the walker for some amazing art work (well, in some cases, not so amazing...more like, "they call that art?") and the hard rock cafe minneapolis, where i got my first hurricane and glass, and got my bbq bacon cheeseburger. let's just say after this weekend, i definetly need to go on a diet.

friday night resulted in the bars and i finally saw my hater. and yes, he still hates me. said hi to all our other eurospring friends and just ignored me. pretty crushed by that move. i had to apologize to my friends i was with however as i kept keeping my eye out for him and was pretty distracted all night. it's really been bugging me lately. i sent him an email the other day, which i'm pretty sure he has to have read as he was online the today. this is what it said:

Hi xxxxx,

I've had a lot of time to think about our 'situation' since the Wednesday night you called me up at 1 am and yelled at me. After last night, I'm not sure how much more of this ignoring I can take. So here's what I'm proposing: can we get together sometime and talk this out? I would like to hear exactly what you think and hopefully I can give you my thoughts. I'll even make you cinnamon rolls, chocolate chip cookies, whatever you want. I just really want this to be over; I don't take people being mad at me very well. Let me know what you think and for now, here's some pictures for you to enjoy.

Have a good weekend!

Andi

i made sure to keep it short and sweet and no angry comments or accusatory sayings. he didn't send me back an email yet though...or anything. i'll keep you posted. and the pics i attached were pretty hilarious ones of the two of us goofing around. i miss those good times.

after bar on friday i ran in to friend tom and went back to his house where i hung out with chris and tom, roommates and dog sammy. it was good times...they invited me back over for more fun on saturday.

saturday was senior community clean-up day. we had good times raking extremely huge lake front properties. i definetly got my work out in. a little sore today. i was supposed to hit up the superlab on saturday and get some homework done, but of course, it didn't happen. so, hockey game (we're still sweeping! go bsu!!) happened with eurospringers and then afterwards, chris and tom's. it was quite the night. so much happened with me and the drinkers. keg, hockey party, perkins...where i think perkins was the highlight of the night with the whole hockey party there after it got busted, singing 'you've lost that lovin' feeling,' and the manager telling us to stop in a polite manner...even though, the hockey party occupied the whole place and we were all singing. it was hilarious. i even got to introduce steph to her crush, who is a bsu hockey player. let's just say she pretty much was in heaven. it was funny.

after perkins, i got chris to bed, carly was out and said goodbye to the boys...and then it was to bed for me.

and now here i sit in the superlab, waiting for renderings for projects to finish. it's great fun.

o, and aparently a blind date next weekend...should be interesting. julie's planning it. i'll keep ya posted.

and now....back to rendering.

such a whirl...

well, first news, my hater has yet to speak to me still. but then again, it's not like i'm trying to track him down either. and that's all i have to say about that for now.

secondly...i love my new job! i still need a couple of user names and passwords to get to me so i can do actual work, and i need to update myself on dreamweaver...but it will come. the whole uncertainty thing is a little uncomfortable, but i love the people i work with and we have a lot of fun, and it's so nice and laidback down there.

on monday, a good friend of mine was in town with her new baby. in fact, we used to be roommates. well, she called up all the other roommates, and one even skipped the class we are in together to spend time with her and the baby at the mall with the rest of them. let's just say i didn't get a call. i didn't find out until i asked one of the roommates where the one who was supposed to be in class with us was...and she told me and she was like, didn't anyone call you? hmmmm....no. not that i would have missed class. but i would have appreciated a call. it's hard for me to think that NONE of them would have been like, "hmm, wonder if andi would like to go to the mall with us?" it really hurts. i don't know what to think about this. i'm just going to steer clear from them for awhile. until i can sort my feelings out about this.

and i didn't even do anything to them....as far as i know anyway. i feel so forgotten.

tomorrow...i'm driving a bsu van to the cities for industry tours with the design guild! i love the bsu vans! i would never drive one regularly, but it's fun to drive them every now and then and feel like queen of the road. it'll be good fun. and i need to go shopping today to get a professional look for 2 days. i've got the pants, just need the correct tops...maybe a nice jacket or something? we'll see. i don't want to spend the money on it though if i don't need to...especially since my poor car should be done at the shop today! i miss it so much. the crap car the chrystler center gave me is really dragging me down. ugh. but, i've got to pay the price to get it back...plus, i need new tags on the car...that's a grand total of $400 to my car for the month. gross.

due monday...huge computer 3-d project due. crap. need me over the weekend? find me in the pc classroom at the superlab.

shopping today:
-new clinique foundation
-shoes?
-clothes for tomorrow and friday
-conditioner
-velum for 3-d comp project
-car?

maybe i should stop there....

ok...well, see you this weekend, if not tonight.

have a good one!

still nothin'

there was a possibility that i would have to see my hater last night. i was nervous. not sure what would come of the situation. would he start picking a fight? would he be cool about it? would we just ignore each other? or would we begin the make-up process? would we have to talk about it? i'm not sure...and i was nervous. he called the party host twice in the last 24 hours to say that he would call when he was done with work. 1:30 am rolled around and still nothing. figures. the host and i did figure this would happen, but we just werent sure since he called twice. makes you wonder.

i worry about the next time i will see him though. what will happen? i want that just to be done and over with, so that my life can get on. but as a friend pointed out to me, if he just can't see that fact that you are this nice, wonderful, amazing person, than what right does he even have to be in your life? but fact is, we were good friends before hand, we experienced so much of europe together, and i just wish he wouldn't act so childish about this and just get over it. if it was me in his shoes, i would have been over it right from the get-go. but that's just me.

so yeah, anyways. not drinking for a long time.

and i discovered text messaging on my cell phone last night (i know, call me a late bloomer). it was quite fun.

so yeah, it's 3 pm on a sunday afternoon...and i've accomplished nothing for the day. time to get up and get moving!

i'll talk to ya all later...haha.

andi

slacker

i know, i've been slacking on the posting. but i've been busy. and now it's a friday night, and i was at a party, but i wasn't drunk and i have to be up early for habitat tomorrow.

so i'm at home, in comfy clothes, kt's laptop on my lap, posting...and watching my new cinderella dvd. the mice are currently making her ungly pink dress, which eventually gets ruined...but it's ok, she gets a rockin, sparkly white one later.

i like they're drawing of the castle...it's so....dreamy? unrealistic, but so pretty at the same time.

well tomorrow night, i might have to see my hater. but to be honest, i'm not too happy with him right now.

cinderella's dress was just destoyed...i feel bibbitibobbitiboo coming on.

haha.

anyways, i also don't have my car with me. it started pulsating when i stopped at lights and such, so i brought it in and, in short, i'm gonna have to fork over 325 for a new egr plug, because apparently it's stuck open. and they have to order it from the cities and my car won't be ready until thursday. FUN. so i have this ugly dodge stratus that is kind of crummy on the inside and says bemidji chrystler center on the side. i guess i'm just complaining because it's not my car.

it's my dad's bday on thursday, too...any ideas on what to get him? i'm at a lost. i know what he really wants, but my mom won't let us kids get it for him...it's kind of a funny thing.

i'm split between getting an electric blanket for my bed. it gets really cold in the house at night and it would keep me nice and warm, but i don't think i would get out of bed in the morning. plus i'm worried about the whole electical thing....i don't want to be starting fires while i'm sleeping....so i don't know. any ideas kids? :)

i still pretty much feel like my little dude posted below. thanks to my hater. great.

well, i'm over and out, back to cinderella and a good nights rest. mmmmm....

andi

bad day

one of my close guys friends called me last night as he exited the bars, accusing me of calling him something that in no way, do i think that of him. or would have said it...well, in a sober state anyways.

apparently i did say it, but i don't remember it, because i was drunk. my roommate reminded me as i called a friend on saturday night, and well, for some reason i was drunk enough to call my friend this. and i don't remember it.

well, my friend found out and decided to include another one of our friends while he was drunk and then called me to take me out on it, while he was drunk. me, completely out of my element last night had no idea what was going on and why i would call him this and why he was accusing me of it. i pretty much started crying.

but good thing for great friends, the other 2 involved are going to talk to my mad friend tonight to get it all straightened out, even the one that shouldn't be involved. and i'm sorry that she got involved.

my mad friend told me last night that he needed time and that he would call me when he's ready...i'm starting to wonder how drunk he was, as half of what he told me last night wasn't true...however, i did call him something i found out today, and i can't hide from that, no matter how drunk i was.

i just hope that he forgives me...because it's eating me away from the inside.

last time i get drunk for a very long time...in fact...let's give up drinking for a very long time.

o, and my car is acting up on me too...hopefully it will start tomorrow so i can take it to the chrystler center so they can rack up a huge bill for me to pay.

what did i do to deserve this??

change!

finally! a change! i finally got out of the crappy job, and am now a part of a new job and team on campus: the web team! i will be meeting with people, doing interviews, making mock-ups and creating web pages as professionally that i can! it will be just like a professional job, but with student wages. my new boss apologizes for that, but i don't care! this will be so cool! and i should really stop with the exclamation points!

whew...ok.

other news...bemidji epidemic is almost done and over. being sick is the pits.

ok, i have homework to catch up on, and i should do it before design guild tonight...

life is getting better, i'm always up for that :)

i think this was written for me...

Good is good and bad is bad
You don't know which one you had
She put your books out on the sidewalk
Now they're blowing 'round
They won't help you when you're down

Love's on your list of things to do
To bring your good luck back to you
And if you think that everything's unfair
Would you care if you're the last one standing there

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And does it ever make you stop and wonder
If all your good times pass you by

I don't hold no mystery
But I can show you how to turn the key
Cause all I know is where I started
So downhearted
And that's not where you want to be

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And you could find a rock to crawl right under
If all your good times pass you by

When the day is done
And the world is sleeping
And the moon is on its way to rise
When your friends are gone
You thought were so worth keeping
You feel you don't belong
And you don't know why

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And does it ever make you stop and wonder
If all your good times pass you by

When the day is done
And the world is sleeping
And the moon is on its way to rise
When your friends are gone
You thought were so worth keeping
You feel you don't belong
Neither do I

update

this is my life...the past few weeks:

-habitat is going well, lots of university stuff going on, just trying to stay on top of everything without someone getting mad.
-country club waitressing is almost done. i really like it there and the work schedule is awesome, they totally cater to my needs. plus, tips are awesome!
-online services is something else...i'm currently looking for a new job. maybe records office? we'll see.
-homework is tolerable. i have a huge assignment due next week though and i'm no where near being done. i'm currently seeking a tutor to help me some more with form-z, just not comfortable with it.
-cities with the design guild for company tours : oct. 13-14
-homecoming this weekend! johnny holmes dance, carnival, football, hockey game, coronation on wednesday....it will all be fun!
-gilmore girls tonight!
-4-6: katrina relief benefit. habitat is serving up pickles.
-oct. 5: habitat highway clean-up
-oct. 8: habitat team building day

i think that's all...o yeah, and birthdays? tessa's drunkenfest of her 22nd was this last weekend, steph's 21st is tomorrow (brigid's and open mike night?), and ann's is on friday...happy birthday to all!!!

over and out...and back to my horrible job....

andi

augh!

she just checked up on me.

"whatcha workin on?"

like she doesn't trust me.

"i'm about to leave...just cleaning up the computer."

yeah...cleaning my stuff off the computer. so i won't have to stick around and do it when i get a new job and leave.

i hate this. walking on eggshells sucks.

i need help

if you know of a place on campus that is looking for a student worker, let me know. if you want details on why, go ahead and ask. but if you hear of a job, that would be wonderful! thanks much...

it's about time

haven't updated in awhile. haven't had the desire or need to i guess...and i was a little busy.

when i get home i should have a ton of mardi gras beads waiting for me, though.

everything is going ok i guess. got financial aid money today...and i have to go do some much needed shopping now...so ....

i guess that's what i'm going to do.

i promise i'll post more later.

me

sheer, utter, bordom...

which means i should find something to do. but this seems more fun at the time.

1.What is your fully name? Andrea Marlene Kroll
2. What color pants are you wearing now: blue jeans
3. What are you listening to right now: co-worker nate on the phone, answering a tech help question...other than that, silence.
4. What are the last two digits of your phone number: 65,19,25
5. What was the last thing you ate: chef salad from the union, pretty sure i have ranch breath right now
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be: cerulean blue
7. How is the weather right now: extremely nice...and i'm for some reason in a sweatshirt
8. Last person you talked on the phone: the loj
9. The first thing you notice about a guy/girl: smile
10. Do you like the person who sent this to you: of course
11. Favorite drink: i really like water...how boring am i?
12. Favorite sports: swimming! and hockey, baseball, basketball, tennis, gymnastics, ice skating, eh, they're all cool
13. Hair color: dirty blonde...sounds like a drink
14. Eye color: baby blue
15. Do you wear contacts: all the time...and get irrritated when my eyes get irritated with my contacts, forcing me to wear my glasses...like right now
16. Siblings: zach, zerek and allison...yup, we're azza
17. Favorite month: i don't have a favorite...
18. Favorite food: don't have a favorite of those either...
19. Last movie you watched: the end of forrest gump...run forrest, run!
20. Favorite day of the year: my birthday is a good one
21. Are you too shy to ask someone out? umm, heck yes
22. Summer or winter: summer
23. Hugs or kisses: Both
24. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
28. What's under your bed: all my old art projects that i have to save, a box full of junk, shoes and some office/desk type supplies
29. What are you reading: to busy to read...how about textbooks and emails?
30. What's on your mouse pad: dolphins :)
31. Favorite board game: i like a bunch of them
32. what did you do last night: sex party, homework, procrastinating, fixed j's printer and in bed by 11
33. Favorite Smells: boy...but not gross icky smelling boy. chlorine pools, the new vanilla stuff i got...mmmm
34. Can you touch your nose with your tongue: of all the mouth tricks i can do, that is one i cannot
35. What inspires you: so many other people...too long of list to name em all!
36. Plain or salted popcorn. both...but i do like kettle corn
37. Favorite flower: sunflowers and easter lillies...ok, and roses
38. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up? i don't wanna get up
39. Do you have a crush? sure

yep, that's right...george clooney emailed me!

Dear Friend:

In the wake of the destruction brought on by Hurricane Katrina, hundreds of thousands of Americans are facing an uncertain and challenging future.

We've all watched together as increasingly dire reports have come out of the hardest hit areas of Louisiana, Mississippi and Alabama, and right now our nation is trying to find its footing as it responds to one of the worst disasters that we've ever faced.

We all see the pictures on TV. Right now, they need water, food, clothing, shelter and medical attention, and soon they'll begin the long process of putting their lives back together... hospitals, sewers, schools...all the things that we take for granted every day.

As members of ONE, we must believe that Americans can't help people around the world unless we also take care of urgent needs at home.

You can visit the═ONE.ORG blog to find a list of ONE partners and other groups working right now to help those in most need.

In the same way that our fight against poverty is both urgent and diligent, we now have a new challenge with the same rules, to help stop people from dying today and help rebuild their infrastructure for tomorrow.

In July, you answered the call of the poorest countries in the world, and now perhaps we can help you find a way to participate at this important time. Please visit the═ONE.ORG blog and take action today.

Thank you,
George Clooney

P.S. You can also help by taking part in the "ReAct Now: Music & Relief" benefit concert that will air on MTV, VH1 and CMT, planned for Sept. 10th at 8pm ET/7pm CT. Please visit www.think.mtv.com═for up to date information.

Ok, ok...I know it's nothing special, but I thought it was kind of fun to see an email in my inbox that said the sender was George Clooney...who else wouldn't think it was cool?

finally...

the first wave of procrastination. i was waiting for it to set in. i have 5 orthographic scetches complete with measurements due on friday and i won't have time to complete them really tomorrow, so i have to do them today. like now. but i'm blogging...and eating vanilla ice cream with strawberry jam. i love ice cream and strawberries.

o, and i went to the weirdest party earlier. it was a sex toys party. i think kt and i are now scarred for life. but we had good fun while getting scarred! haha...

hope you had a wonderful hump day! ok...i'll stop with the jokes...

andi

quizno's

kt and i are going to quizno's so i can stock up on honey mustard. i have no homework due tomorrow and nothing scheduled for the night so i am making the best of it.

bring on the honeymustard!!!

woot woot! hahaa...

highlight of my day

i ordered 720 necklaces of mardi gras beads. all for a grand total of $28! yes, i rule.

we'll be selling them at the union for (as of right now) $2. all proceeds going towards demolished habitat homes and the red cross/salvation army katrina hurricane relief.

it's weird how some brightly colored beads can bring warm fuzzies to your stomach.

i can't wait for them to arrive.

renaissance and mn state fair.

i love minnesota. here's what i experienced this past weekend.

1. 2 people wearing colored socks with their sandals.
2. 493 fanny packs. and my mom wanted to wear one. nothing against that of course.
3. women who do not wear enough clothing and feel like they need to show off what they have...please ladies. i don't want to see your rolls. put a shirt on!
4. while in the bathroom, " fries make me so gasy..." HELP!
5. people who do not work at the renaissance fair dressed as fairies and pirates. i thought it was just renaissance? so confused.
6. my mom and i reckon that some of the girls who go to the renaissance fair do it just to have an excuse to dress slutty.
7. the best ever chocolate chip cookies. and all you can drink milk for $1.
8. DJ SNUFFLES!!
9. the smartest looking 10 year old boys who can play the piano. and tails on a tux rule.
10. everything on a stick. including fine art on a stick.
11. 1040 lbs. pig.

i had to add the pig on there. i was going to stop at 10. i wish i had pictures, but i didn't bring a camera. o well.

that was my weekend, in a nutshell. hope you all had a fantastic labor day weekend! back to the work week...

here it goes...

i knew fall semester was coming, yet i didn't prepare. and now i'm throwing things together, running out of doors on to my next appointment and leaving my roommate kt looking at me in shock as i switch bags, shirts, and do a quick mirror check before i book it out the door.

but at the same time, if i wasn't doing something (as i am doing right now...weird) i would feel...well, weird. i need to be doing something at all times. if i'm not on the go, i feel that i might as well be worthless. i am slightly worried that i won't get all of my habitat stuff ready for the big meeting on monday night...but i do need to remember to pick up candy for the habitat booth at the organization fair...and i need to sit down and figure out what all needs to be covered at next weeks meeting...and i want to do another design for gf's first night to submit to the competition, and i need to finish reading my wsi stuff...hmmm... and work.

which speaking of my wsi class, we had our first meeting today and i'm not sure quite what to think about it. the instructor sat and talked about wsi and red cross and herself the whole time. i don't know if it's just me feeling slightly jealous of those who have had this teacher for a swimming class, but she didn't ask anyone about their swimming experience or anything....if she referred to anyone about swimming skills she used those who she taught before and how we could ask them for swimming help.

as if.

i hate to sound cocky, but swimming is my thing. and i plan on blowing them away with my strokes on thursday. and i'm waking up early to go and lap swim before hand and get in a good workout. so there.

sorry about the rant. i think i'm just not used to people knowing about my swimming history. it'll take time, but i think i also didn't enjoy being lectured about things i already knew...but who can help that? the instructor has to lecture and i took the class to get the wsi certification...so i should just grin and bear it (is that how you spell that version of bear? hmmm)

but yeah, i need to get back to my homework...and i have an outing at about 10, 2 (yes, two!) 21st birthdays tonight! craziness! and i have to get ready. i'm such a slacker and falling behind. and i really need to talk to ___, but who knows when i will see him again...he's moved and i'm busy and i'm sure he is too...and it's his turn to call me, i called and left him a message last. i'll just forgot all of that stuff for now. worry about it when it needs to be worried about it. what shall i do...grrr.

over and out...and happy 21st lindsi and laura!

new photos on my msn myspace. check it out...under links. sa-weet. haha.

valleyfair!

1. 5 am wake up call. 6:30 out of town.
2. "was that the road i wanted?" "i think so..." u-turn!
3. 1 hr. and 3 miles later...we make it past the car crash on 94.
4. changing in the car is no easy task.
5. steel venom....holy crap. hyperventalating through the whole thing...and coughing afterwards.
6. wild thing! 4 times! didn't break mine and heidi's record of 8 times, however...
7. rip tide...yeah, way to freak me out as we sit in the ride, elevated, while they attempt TO FIX IT...and then RUN THE RIDE. i was not happy.
8. fatty, greasy FOOD!
9. 95.5...quite possibly the best station for sing alongs...ever.
10. 1 am...home sweet home.

goal was to make it to every ride in the park...but i chickened out on power tower...i did it once and happened to open my eyes, and i just don't feel safe in it....but we ditched the plan as we wanted to do more of our favorites and some of the rides just weren't worth our time...that and i didn't want to go on more water rides than what was required...and corkscrew was closed! i love that one...oh well, we had fun times anyways!

country club

i completed my first reception at the country club. it wasn't that big of a deal, really. just lots of people and all the waitresses kept saying, "this one is much worse than the last one..." but i made it. i had a sore arm for a couple of days following and i made a grand total of $3.25 in tips (it's not necessary to tip at a reception). i hauled some big, piled high trays full of dishes though, making me wish i lifted some more weights! but i made it, only dropping some plastic cups at one point.

i started my first day waitressing today. 2 of the girls there trained me in and it wasn't as bad as i thought actually. i'm just so worried that i am going to completely mess something up and someone will have to come and fix it and they'll be completely annoyed by it because they won't have time to fix it. but i did fine. i had two tables and they were really nice. i learned how to punch things into the computer and all that fun stuff. clearing the tables and that sort of thing is no problem at all, since that is what i used to do at grizzly's when i wasn't hostessing.

i decided i'm going to save my tip money for something. it might just be for paying off my credit card bills, i don't know. but it's going into a jar in my room and i'm not going to touch it until i figure out what i want to do with it.

you should leave me an idea...how should i spend my money?

a little late with this....

so its been year........ i have not yet forgetten..... still fresh in my memory like it was yesterday........ him joking around grabbing my shoulder with that big smile on his face saying "i know jamie... your always right" then laughing....... just seconds later glancing in front of us he sees the truckcoming head on in our lane.....and his laughter turned to panic..... screaming "oh my god what is he doing"............then i woke up........ i saw him laying there.....i screamed at him "monte wake up..... wake up.... monte please..... wake up" over and over again..... no response......... i put my head up to his chest for a heart beat....... i was in to much of a panic to even tell.......... i tried with all the strength i had left to pull him out of the car.....i tried so hard..... his legs were stuck under the dash......he wouldnt move......... i screamed at him again... please wake up....... still no response.....the car went up in flames....... there was nothing i could do..... so helpless......... i stood there a bloody mess in a daze......... the same words from my mouth over and over again "montes in the car".......... laying in a hospital bed days later wishing i was dead......praying for god to please take me with him......... thinking about his family......... thoughts running through my head "look what ive done........ look what ive done...... i took thier son away from them......... if they hate me i wouldnt blame them...why couldnt it have been me instead..... why god did you have to take monte....... he had so much more life to live....... he was supposed to have a family of his own one day...... why..... why monte...... he didnt do anything wrong....... he didnt deserve this......."

we'll always remember, monte.

aug. 19, 2004

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new stuff

changes are coming in my life. as of tomorrow night i will be a waitress/banquet person/halfway house cashier at the bemidji town and country club. which is freakin exciting, and scary at the same time. i have the restaurant experience, but i've never waited on a table...i'm excited to get into waitressing though, but nervous starting a new job just the same. banquet tomorrow night, i think i need to go black pants shopping, we'll have to search the closet...hmmmm....

should also be interesting with school starting up. don't want to streach myself too thin, but i need the money!

tonight: into the woods at paul bunyan theater with old roommie t. should be a blast.

ooo...and did i mention my old roommate is engaged! biggest bacherlorette party of the year will be held in 2007...get ready for it!!

HOLY CRAP!

SWEET! WE'RE GETTING SOME GOOD STORES IN BTOWN!!!

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YEEEEESSSS! read it all here!

Opperation Cell Phone: Complete

well, i found it. a quick walk over to chris and jaime's and the cell phone was found. thank goodness. i don't know what i would have had to do if i didn't find it.

other quick updates:

-i'm going to be an fye t.a. again. goooo team me.
-job interview: bemidji town and country club, bartender: double that goooo team me!

that's it for now...i think.

did i mention i love jessie's girl (not the actual girl...just the song)

Your 80s Theme Song:

Your 80s Theme Song is Jessie's Girl by Rick Springfield

What's" Your 80's Theme Song?

YOUR JOB

if you choose to accept it is:

call my cell phone and if by chance, someone answers it, tell them that i miss it, and i want it back and then tell them how to find me.

it's not lost until i've checked all the places that i think that it might be. i have this small feeling that it's in chris's car though...otherwise it's at t'juans.

joy.

good friends, good parties

this last weekend was one of parties. martini party and the ice off banquet = lots of crazy fun. kt and i left for maple lake and d's cabin thursday afternoon and after a trip to the liquor store (martini's in a box?! no way!!!). i had the big ass watermelon in the back seat and all the stuff i needed for an enjoyable weekend, except warm clothes of course. who looks to see that it was going to be 60s this weekend and that i should grab some warm clothes?

we arrived at the cabin to j and billy's greeting of "the martini queen is here! the martini queen is here!" yay! kt and i set to work cutting up the insides of the bomb, it was quite hillarious, since we had no idea what we were doing. the rest of the night concluded with a movie, lots of fun, playing dirty tricks on danielle, consumption of the watermelon bomb and d threatening to whip me with her belt, which i told her she could if i could take it off of her. more laughter.

that morning, d woke up to realize her underwear was scattered everywhere in the tree. kt and i order breakfast in bed, which billy wouldn't get for us, but kept trying to temp us with, but juan eventually did! then we called upstairs to amanda on my cell phone to get drinks, which they brought down screwdrivers instead. ick.

then we stupidly (well, not stupidly...just...i don't know) went tubing. it was cold. but it was fun just the same. we all want the shirt that says "tuber." on the front. hahaa! fun word.

from d's i headed the the g parents to eat and watch the pga tour with g pa. i think they wanted me to stay longer...i felt guilty. but i had to head to bad medicine! got to bad medicine at 8ish and then watched a movie with squeak...i don't like the pianist as much as i thought i would. too much killing and reminded me too much of mathausen.

next morning we woke, showered and headed across the lake for decorating for the banquet. let me say this: i will be hiring us for our next big event. the all over randomness of crepe paper streamers and balloons was wonderful! my aunt, uncle and squeak's brother (the ice off king) all came over eventually and we ate good food, crowned the king and then sent his helmet crown (with sparklers attached) on fire. it was real good fun. then we drank and had lots of laughs, brough the king on a trip around the lake, complete with helmet and pitchfork. we got lots of stares, but would have had more if the weather would have been nice! best line of the night: ice off king to his mom, "kingly procreation!" when he meant, "kingly proclamation!" it was great.

at 11 pm: saunaing and dives into the freezing cold water with the king and friend. the stars were amazing and the sauna felt wonderful!

the next day i came home, to boring btown. but it shouldn't be boring much longer...i'm hitting up tonight with the girls!

i was doing so good with eating well until this weekend. and then i did so well yesterday...and then i ate lunch today. it think i need to go grocery shopping...o well, today will be my one day off i guess. i need better choices in my fridge...i feel gross now! running tonight.

and that's it....back to my laminating....

happy bday to hannah banana and nicole!

10 things every single girl must own

1. A fabulous photo of yourself
yup, got a couple...i think...at first they look good but after the 43920 time looking at it, you eventually find something to pick out...like the flab in my arms. yeah, we're talking about the pic to your left!

2. A pretty pair of heels
i'm not a heal type of girl. i'm too tall to wear heals. but i do own a pair of black ones that i like, but they're lost at the moment. possibly at the parents house? possibly. but i don't need them because the guy i kinda like right now is my height if not slightly shorter.

3. An Eminem CD
annnnnddd....i don't. but i do own a couple songs by him

4. A great pickup line... and a way to blow 'em off
nope, i'm horrible. can't say no, can't even pick em up. this may be the reason why for being single for so gosh darn long.

5. A six-pack of good bottled beer
ick. beer. gag me. i like my hard liquor!

6. Bathroom reading
ummm...don't have that either. if i need bathroom ready (which i don't) i'll bring my own in there.

7. A business card
maybe in new york where it's stylish to hand it out with your number on it instead of scrawling it onto a napkin...but please, this is northern minnesota.

8. Earplugs
don't own a pair, but trust me, there have been times when i wish i did (sleepovers with friends - "hey, can you sleep on your side and not your back!")

9. A straight male friend on your speed-dial
very few of those here, in the land of manly men (paul bunyans)

10. A condom
well...since i don't see myself getting any anytime soon, we won't worry about that for now.


yeah, so i think this should be retitled: the top 10 things a woman should own if she would like to turn her living environment into her guys crash pad. except for the pick up line and the business card...those you need first and then the rest can follow.

blah.

i've got much to tell about my weekend...and it's coming, it's coming!

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fricken bar

i love going out with the girls. we meet up with guy friends, drink, play darts (i love darts!) and just have a good time. they get drunk, i drive, lots of laughter and all that jazz. it's amazing. especially when the drunk guys start hitting on you.

wait. o yeah, THAT'S NOT SO MUCH FUN.

well....except if they are really drunk, word slurring old guys who you can't understand for the life of you and you are sitting next to leann and andy and leann and i have to fight over which one of us will not go home with him. that was pretty funny.

but let me tell you a story from a couple of weeks ago. about a guy who got to drunk and a girl who can't say no because she feels too bad.

and gave him her number, which this one time long ago was thankfully entered in his phone wrong (thank heavens for that!) .

but then he saw her again, got way too drunk and she couldn't say no again...the number was fixed...and he wants to take her to dinner and a movie...and apparently is really shy unless you get lots o alcohol in him...then he gets way tooooo feely. ick.

i think i need to talk to two other boys about this and see what they think. thank god for good guy friends.

anyway, it was pretty funny. and then he started hitting his head on the table and i started to think, "o god, what did i get myself into?"

yeah.

but hey, free dinner and a movie? i think i could muster up enough courage to do that.

in other news...i got a french manicure and my nails feel so dang pretty right now. except for the two that she cut the cuticles so short that i started to bleed...they still hurt.

and you should go read the 'another andi' blog. she talks about introducing herself as andi and all the strange reply's she gets. i don't really get strange replys back, but i know what she means.

anyways...i'll post more later.

the cost of everything

i hate money. i really do. it's one headache after another with money. it just seems like i can't afford anything and everyone else can afford everything. i don't make enough to pay anything off...but somehow, i'm surviving. i thought i was making a dent in paying off my credit card bills, but it turns out no. credit card bills, car payments, utilities bill, rent, groceries, gas, and everything else school related....it's a lot of money, a lot of money that i don't have. how does everyone else do this? but i guess as long as i'm still 'surviving' i guess i'm gonna have to keep spending.

in other news...not much else going on. i started weight watchers again...but not meetings. i have plans so that when i loose another 10 pounds, i'm gonna get a perm, and then when i loose another 10 more i'm gonna get a massage...and then i think i will stop. because then i will be at 140...and we'll have to assess what my body looks like and what it wants to do from there. we'll see if it will even allow me to get to 140...i know most of my body is made up of muscle so i don't know how much that is affecting my weight. but i have been swimming again, everyday for about an hour. i would go longer but that's all that lap swim is open for. and i lift weights and jump rope. i guess if you jump rope for 10 minutes it's the equivilent of running for a half hour. i lost 2.5 pounds last week so i'm pretty pumped so far. but i need more veggies!! haha

party at danielle's cabin this thursday/friday....get pumped!!

zones madness!

this weekend was one of excitement, fun, long, water filled days. my old team hosted the central zones swimming championships this last weekend in gf. zones is a big, big meet. it's the next step above state and our zone is so big, that we usually have 2 zone meets going on. so we held one, and ann arbour, mich. held one. indiana, illinois, south dakota, midwestern, arkansaw, wisconsin, oklahoma and north dakota were at our meet. friday through sunday, i was up at 6, at the pool at 7 and stayed there until 9 each night. but i didn't complain (except at night when i was tired and my feet hurt)!

zerek made the team in the 50 and i knew half the team anyways, so it was exciting. at 7, warm ups started, i got my heat sheet ready and my cameras. i was in charge of getting record breakers up on the board (their picture). so i would sit through warm-up, cheering and prelims in the morning, get some free food, go through 12 and under timed finals in the afternoon and then get some more food while the finals warmed up and then for finals, i was in charge of the ready room, where the final heat would come and sit and when the signal was given we would walk them out to some music and they would be announced. it wa s fun because if we had someone from north dakota swimming in the final heat, we would make a tunnel with the team and walk the heat through the tunnel and slap our swimmer on the back. i was pretty proud of myself because i suggested it to zerek and then they did it for every swimmer. we also put together a slide show for the last day of all the pictures i had taken around the deck.

i really love zones though because it brings out the best in swimming. the crazy swimmers who dress up in halloween like costumes on deck, it also brought out cow humor (ok shirts had something about cow tipping which was targeted at wisconsin...who had a big inflatable cow). there was also a big inflatable monkey running around, lots of cheering, cool shirts, swim cap trading between the teams (i liked midwesterns the best...and south dakotas), shirt trading ( i bought an indiana shirt and scored a midwestern one, and i have my meet staff shirt), big swimming store where i bought an autographed janet evans shirt and a couple of discounted caps and people EVERYWHERE. i have to tell you, too, because of this last weekend and seeing everyone is fastskin II, i want to try one on, to see what i would look like in one, to see what it would feel like. but i can't try on zerek's, he's just got the legs, not the full body. o well.

i also enjoyed the cheering. i got to experience the 'you don't brush your teeth' cheer, which goes like this:

(leaders, who point out a team): YOU!
rest of team: YOU!
leaders: YOU DON'T!
team: YOU DON'T!
leaders: YOU DON'T BRUSH!
team: YOU DON'T BRUSH!
leaders, who come jumping back to team, have the team join in, with jumping and clapping: YOU DON'T BRUSH YOUR TEETH, HEY! YOU DON'T BRUSH YOUR TEETH, HEY! YOU DON'T BRUSH YOUR TEETH, HEY!
and that leaves the team the leaders picked out looking baffled and confused as they wonder what the heck just went on and if they just really accuse them of not brushing their teeth.

they also did the who rocks the house cheer, where they cheered, in a big circle:

'who rocks the house? the girls rocked the house and when the girls rock the house they rock it all the way down!' and the girls would gather in the middle and get down and dance. then they would do the boys (where i got a great pic of zerek getting down...it's good) and then the coaches (which was great because it's fun to see the coaches, these 20 something guys, get down and dance) and then they did north dakota rocks the house, and they would all get in.

so yeah, all in all, it was a good tiring weekend. fire drill and all...we had to evacuate the facility for a good half and hour. a couple records were broken, lots of best times for kids and a lot of craziness. i love swimming. i post some pics later.

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my favorite time of year

that's right: swim season!

we've had state, zones, sectionals, world champs, duel in the pool and every 4 years, throw a little olympics action in there: basically, it's swimmers heaven.

all last week, world champs was on tv. it was sweet, i love watching that stuff.

this weekend: i'm working as photographer to the record breakers at the zones meet in Grand Forks! i'm so proud, my teams hosting! check it here

also this weekend: duel in the pool is being broadcasted on nbc saturday and sunday. it actually happened last night and i know the usa won. i'm excited to see those hot usa swimmers smash the aussies like a guitar!

zerek's swimming zones this weekend. he will kick butt.

alli's starting high school: good luck to her...hopefully she'll find that positive attitude, learn how to not complain and not to argue with bryan: that should equal a successful season. hopefully alli will learn how to be a positive role model for her fellow swimmers, to encourage them when the going gets tough, keep a smile on her face, and to learn that it is always possible to make it through the toughest of sets and it will make you stronger for doing so. bryan will yell, but the secret to getting through the yelling is to just pretend he's not yelling, just trying to get a point across...listen to what he's saying, not yelling.

anyways...good luck!

back to work....or maybe lunch....some teachers got a dog in our office...it's one of those ones that's so ugly...it's cute. yeah. it just growled at me, i think it wants to play.

the odd happenings that made my weekend

i can't believe what all went down this weekend. so much happened, it's amazing. i didn't get much sleep because i was up partying non-stop with the eurospring 2005 group! simply amazing.

friday night started out with half price apps at applebees with a good chunk of the eurospringers who were in town. lots of laughs, lots of chicken and a strawberry daiquri later, i was doing well. i then headed over to another friends kegger, where adam and i jumped like mad on the trampoline there! then jaime, adam and i headed to the eurospring party at jennie's and we had a fun time. i drank beer, which was really not good and i know jennie agrees, we played a drinking game and then all passed out at 5 am.

i was out the door of jen's, to my house, showered, packed, to maurice's, spent mad money and out of town by 11:30 am that morning (i left jennie's at 10). kassandra's wedding was good. i got to see some friends and get the latest gossip. unfortunatly my eye decided to malfunction since i slept in my contacts the night before and it looked like i was crying, about to cry or was crying the whole time. i had to wear my glasses, too, which was NOT the highlight of the weekend. after the wedding and reception and much good food, i headed back for btown and my eurospringers and squeak set off for bad medicine. the ride back included a stop at the liquor store in crookston, which is good since otherwise, i would have been drinking beer all night (beer = GAG ME). i arrived at jennie's at 11:30 and was amazed at all who were there! andy, bill, silas, jeremy, laura, crystal w. and boyfriend, jennie of course, jill, sam and steph showed up later and much later jaime came. it was a mad party. there was a group of us who trooped it out until the end, playing truth or dare jenga, which you should only play with a group of friends who you know REALLY well. let's just say that by the end of the night, all this had happened:

-jaime and i had switched skirt for shorts. i think he enjoyed my skirt way too much.
-jaime later switched my skirt for silas's pants.
-silas went to the bathroom, left my skirt in the hall and we stole it. haha!
-jennie and i and steph and i all ended up having to kiss, and jaime had to kiss me.
-i slow danced with a broom, who was bill
-jaime slow danced with a shovel until i told him he had to use bill as a broom as i did too
-jaime rode steph
-steph got dizzy one too many times
-jaime belly danced
-there was an experiment to figure out exactly how much i do drink and to figure out whether i cheat when i'm supposed to be drinking - i do not cheat...i just take smaller swallows. i can't help it!

ooooo...it was good times. and this time we made it to bed at 7 am. i was pretty tired yesterday ;) but it was good times.

nothing too exciting for this week. friday is zones though...and i'm photographer! gooo me! haha. zerek qualified too, so i'm super excited for him! zones is always fun, so get ready!

i'll probably post more life happenings later...

world championships, baby!



ahhhh...i love the big swimming meets! since it's in montreal, the canadian channel is broadcasting the swimming world championships tonight, i think at 7...YEEEESSS! i'm excited. i want to see some aaron peirsol, michael phelps and natalie coughlin. and more. brendan hanson, above, won the 100 breaststroke last night, which is exciting for him since he lost it to the kitojima dude in athens when it planly looked like kitojima should have been deeked (DQ'd). and it was his birthday the day he should have won it. o well, what can you do? it's after the fact. but anyways...i'm excited, i'm going to watch it tonight!

USA ALL THE WAY!

wtf...laguna beach?



last night i ventured over to t's house to keep her company and we just so happened to be able to catch the season premiere of laguna beach.

we both had not seen an episode before.

and we have no idea how people can actually LIKE watching the show.

yes, it's entertaining. but no, it's not enjoyable. who seriously likes to see some snotty, bitchy girls sit and complain and cause trouble and drama for everyone else? not me. but we watched it. sitting there in disbelief. and i personally don't think that any teenager anywhere should be allowed to live the type of life they do. i highly doubt they've had much parental guidance other than what daddy's wallet can shell out. we couldn't believe half the stuff they did. whatever.

i can tell you that i probably won't watch it again...but then again, if i ever need some shock in my life, i know where to go.

and mtv? you're commercials suck. you need a new creative team. just thought i would let you know.

what made my night: talking to one of my favorite people, outside, while watching his roommates dog. it was the most enjoyable. i hadn't seen him in awhile and realized how much i missed talking to him, although we don't say all that much.

o, in other news...i also attempted a ballet leap thingy where i ran from the kitchen, down the hall and then leapt....right smack into the hall closet door. i couldn't stop. i think i scared lulu...haha...anyway.

treasures 'o fun



well, again, it was another up and exciting weekend. besides the fact that i have never been so sore in my life (i pulled my way through it like a champ!) i had a fun and relaxing weekend.

friday, after work and the 'facial' (i was suckered into buying some face washing stuff - that i do really like - and for scheduling a mk party...who does those?) i headed out to bad medicine to visit the squeak and the aunt and uncle. friday night consisted of arriving, eating and watching tv. saturday, we headed to tulaby lake to visit squeak's grandparents. it was sad to know it would be my last time out there. i sat in her gparents living room and recounted the couple of memories i had of going there in the weekends of my youth to play with erica. i remember times of getting into trouble and of having our long hair braided by the fireplace late at night (we had some long hair back then). we helped clean out tax returns and recorded checks from 1947 and forward. i also scored some sweet christmas decorations (treasures). and something else. but i can't mention it yet until i figure out what to do with it. all the cleaning out made me wonder how much stuff i will have accomulated (sp?) by the time i'm...well, old. i have more stuff than i know what to do with now, so how much stuff (stuff that i won't know what to do with) will i have when i reach the social security club age? maybe i can acquire a math equation somewhere...which i wouldn't follow through with because plainly, math is the pits for me.

arriving back at bad medicine on saturday night, there was more eating and tv watching and then bed...all for a peaceful evening. we also went for pontoon rides, which are always enjoyable. sunday morning we awoke and then basically just hit the lake for some good swimming times. we both burnt. i've had 3 people do double takes at work to ask me how i acquired my beautiful 'blush.' i'm not trying to go for skin cancer, but to some, it might seem like that.

then last night i hit it up with some eurospring friends for some pizza, cards, absinth and nonsense. it was good times. we have more plans for later this week! it should be fun.

but as for me...back to work. still working on the powerpoint webpage. frankly, i should just do it and get done, but i'm such a procrastinator. and i have to do research for it. makes me feel like i should be in school. ick. 5 weeks till start up, and i still have to pick another class! again: procrastination. i should get a move on it.

what i learned this week: to tell others in the btown area where i will be going at certain times...as they tend to worry. especially when they don't hear from me when i turn my phone off due to the fact that i'm at the lake and am just excaping all of the 'in town' stuff, and there isn't good reception.

have a good one...