Broadcasting Life

still nothin'

there was a possibility that i would have to see my hater last night. i was nervous. not sure what would come of the situation. would he start picking a fight? would he be cool about it? would we just ignore each other? or would we begin the make-up process? would we have to talk about it? i'm not sure...and i was nervous. he called the party host twice in the last 24 hours to say that he would call when he was done with work. 1:30 am rolled around and still nothing. figures. the host and i did figure this would happen, but we just werent sure since he called twice. makes you wonder.

i worry about the next time i will see him though. what will happen? i want that just to be done and over with, so that my life can get on. but as a friend pointed out to me, if he just can't see that fact that you are this nice, wonderful, amazing person, than what right does he even have to be in your life? but fact is, we were good friends before hand, we experienced so much of europe together, and i just wish he wouldn't act so childish about this and just get over it. if it was me in his shoes, i would have been over it right from the get-go. but that's just me.

so yeah, anyways. not drinking for a long time.

and i discovered text messaging on my cell phone last night (i know, call me a late bloomer). it was quite fun.

so yeah, it's 3 pm on a sunday afternoon...and i've accomplished nothing for the day. time to get up and get moving!

i'll talk to ya all later...haha.

andi