Broadcasting Life

relearning

so i'm trying to teach myself to stay up late again and get little sleep and wake up the next morning in time for class at 8 and STILL be able to make it through the day with out thinking about having a nap. we'll see if it works. tonight it looks like i'm going to make it to 12:30...next week 1? i included a picture from eurospring...that's me and our fat tire bike tour guide on our cruise down the seine river. that night, after the tour, we drank underneath the eiffel tour, missed the last metro and had to walk many miles through paris to get back to our hotel. i wasn't in bed until at least 3:30 that night and had to be on the bus at 8 that morning for our bus tour of paris. and that's how most of eurospring was. extremely late nights, extremely early mornings. and somehow i'm still living to tell the tale. i need to retrain!

fact is though, that if i am staying up this late i should be making an attempt to do my homework and not slopily put it together during my 2 hours of work tomorrow. not that i have much to do tomorrow anyway at work...wait. that's a lie.

i joined weightwatchers online over the weekend. i really forces me to make all of my foods and eat nothing but fruits and veggies...which i love anyway. but it's hard when the girls want to have supper with you on wednesday night and you have to plan out everything that you eat around that supper...you just can't come home and find something to eat that matches how many points you have left for the day. i told danielle that i had joined weightwatchers online today at the rec center and she commented on how skinny i was. i noticed tonight for once that i was looking skinner...when i sucked in my stomach. i still want the body i should have had when i was a swimmer...but is that something that i should want? i think its a goal that i could at least work towards. and at least it forces me to eat healthy. and i love that i can still eat fast food if i wish. we'll see how this goes for a month before i give up on it or not.

zerek and i were talking online tonight and i think he misses me. or maybe he misses zach. i don't know. he asked when i was coming home next...which would mean that i would have to bring zach home with me. i don't think he's ever gone this long without seeing zach. me...well, he's gone a couple months. because i'm so gosh darn busy.

but it's 12:31 right now. i've reached my goal for the night. it's bed time with a 7:30 am wake up call. nighters...