Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
happy valentine's day!
just thought i would get that out there. here's what is new in my life:
i officially have a roommate: MS. LINDSI JO GISH! you have no idea how excited the two of us are. we're in the process of house (townhouse, condo) hunting. we're trying to find the perfect place in a perfect city. it's going to be the most fabulous house ever because we both kind of want to find some sort of special house that needs a little bit of a fixer upper...i love diy and so does she...so FRICKEN EXCITED!
other than that...just working on my portfolio and getting everything done for graduation. a long ways away, i know, but i have lots to do...maybe even score a job in the process? we'll see.
but other than that...happy valentine's day. and if you're the down in the dumps type...just remember that someone out there loves you. maybe not me... but someone ;)
just thought i would get that out there. here's what is new in my life:
i officially have a roommate: MS. LINDSI JO GISH! you have no idea how excited the two of us are. we're in the process of house (townhouse, condo) hunting. we're trying to find the perfect place in a perfect city. it's going to be the most fabulous house ever because we both kind of want to find some sort of special house that needs a little bit of a fixer upper...i love diy and so does she...so FRICKEN EXCITED!
other than that...just working on my portfolio and getting everything done for graduation. a long ways away, i know, but i have lots to do...maybe even score a job in the process? we'll see.
but other than that...happy valentine's day. and if you're the down in the dumps type...just remember that someone out there loves you. maybe not me... but someone ;)
Monday, February 05, 2007
more reasons to hate monday
i finally made it out of bed this morning. it took awhile. i was going to go swimming and texted the 2 guys i go swimming with to see if they were going. either they did and didn't want me to come with, or they didn't get up to go swimming either. either way i wish they would at least text back.
one of my roommates ate my pineapple pizza that i had saved for myself in the fridge especially for breakfast this morning. i was completely looking forward to it...that and it was probably the only thing i really had ready for breakfast. except i didn't get it. because someone ate it. who eats other people's food? i don't eat theirs. makes me mad.
i get on campus (and i think my eyelashes were starting to freeze together...damn its cold!) and attempt to drop off my painting stuff so i don't have to lug it around. the painting room door is still locked. i guess i have to drag this monstrosity around with me.
class was cancelled. yes, i am happy, but at the same time...i could have just slept in. and i almost did except i told myself i wasn't going to miss a class this semester.
i went and bought a cappucino. i tastes horrible. ick. almost 3 dollars of grossness.
and now i'm sitting at work. at least i get an extra 2 hours on my paycheck.
i finally made it out of bed this morning. it took awhile. i was going to go swimming and texted the 2 guys i go swimming with to see if they were going. either they did and didn't want me to come with, or they didn't get up to go swimming either. either way i wish they would at least text back.
one of my roommates ate my pineapple pizza that i had saved for myself in the fridge especially for breakfast this morning. i was completely looking forward to it...that and it was probably the only thing i really had ready for breakfast. except i didn't get it. because someone ate it. who eats other people's food? i don't eat theirs. makes me mad.
i get on campus (and i think my eyelashes were starting to freeze together...damn its cold!) and attempt to drop off my painting stuff so i don't have to lug it around. the painting room door is still locked. i guess i have to drag this monstrosity around with me.
class was cancelled. yes, i am happy, but at the same time...i could have just slept in. and i almost did except i told myself i wasn't going to miss a class this semester.
i went and bought a cappucino. i tastes horrible. ick. almost 3 dollars of grossness.
and now i'm sitting at work. at least i get an extra 2 hours on my paycheck.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
my last first day of school
tessa dragged me out of bed at 6:30 this morning to work out. it was pretty liberating. all in all i did about 4 miles!
came home, showered, listened to some vh1 music videos as i dried my hair and did my make-up. i went for the sweatshirt and jeans look for now...i'll change later tonight.
then i made myself a slice of wheat french toast and made my lunch (veggie burger and leftover broccoli cashew salad with a diet cherry coke). packed that up, turned everything off and then ran to the postoffice to mail a book that was supposed to be mailed last week (oops!).
at work, i finally finished my preliminary portfolio webpage. it's pretty cool cause it's in flash!! check it out here...then leave me some comments on what would be cool to do with it:
http://www.bemidjistate.edu/atc/staffsites/akroll/
my one class today? jewelry and metal making. boring. went over the syllabus and safety proceedures. all of what should have taken 45 minutes. but no...we have an adhd teacher who rambled on for half an hour on who should get into the class (we had extras wanting to get in...the class usually only takes 14 students...we had a 4 extras today). gross.
but now...done with work. i'm going to go see if my loan check came. then i'm going to deposit it and then possibly go swimming. then...date night with jennie! i think a marg would be the perfect way to celebrate my last first day of school! one semester left!
tessa dragged me out of bed at 6:30 this morning to work out. it was pretty liberating. all in all i did about 4 miles!
came home, showered, listened to some vh1 music videos as i dried my hair and did my make-up. i went for the sweatshirt and jeans look for now...i'll change later tonight.
then i made myself a slice of wheat french toast and made my lunch (veggie burger and leftover broccoli cashew salad with a diet cherry coke). packed that up, turned everything off and then ran to the postoffice to mail a book that was supposed to be mailed last week (oops!).
at work, i finally finished my preliminary portfolio webpage. it's pretty cool cause it's in flash!! check it out here...then leave me some comments on what would be cool to do with it:
http://www.bemidjistate.edu/atc/staffsites/akroll/
my one class today? jewelry and metal making. boring. went over the syllabus and safety proceedures. all of what should have taken 45 minutes. but no...we have an adhd teacher who rambled on for half an hour on who should get into the class (we had extras wanting to get in...the class usually only takes 14 students...we had a 4 extras today). gross.
but now...done with work. i'm going to go see if my loan check came. then i'm going to deposit it and then possibly go swimming. then...date night with jennie! i think a marg would be the perfect way to celebrate my last first day of school! one semester left!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
i have decided that i need to get out of this stupid funk that i'm in and realize that people have much bigger problems than me and that they need my help right now.
but i swear. i hate boys. they don't realize just what emotional turmoil they are putting on me. especially when i don't know you and you call me things such as "conceeded," "bipolar," and "the most unsocial person i know" when i tell you i'm tired. asshole.
that and they just don't listen to what exactly i'm trying to tell them before they act. stupid boys.
but i think things are starting to look up.
and then my radio died again in my car.
but i swear. i hate boys. they don't realize just what emotional turmoil they are putting on me. especially when i don't know you and you call me things such as "conceeded," "bipolar," and "the most unsocial person i know" when i tell you i'm tired. asshole.
that and they just don't listen to what exactly i'm trying to tell them before they act. stupid boys.
but i think things are starting to look up.
and then my radio died again in my car.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
life hates me
i think i had one of the worst days ever. it involved learning that my favorite manager was quiting, problems with certain people that i won't elaborate on, my cd/radio decided to quit with my new keith urban cd in it, and i dismissed a boy from my life (he decided to date someone else and not tell me...and then tried to break it off with me by blaming me. as if. he has way more to be blamed about). tessa and i will be dropping his things off at his place tonight whether he wants them or not.
i hate crying.
BUT today is a new day. my cd/radio started working again, although it was reset, i slept in a little bit, and its nice to know that i will not be lied to from someone i love for a very long time.
and i'm sure the tears will eventually subside.
although i do want to get the hell out of bemidji right now.
and, please, i don't want to hear any good for yous or anything. he's still my friend. and it just makes me cry again.
i think i had one of the worst days ever. it involved learning that my favorite manager was quiting, problems with certain people that i won't elaborate on, my cd/radio decided to quit with my new keith urban cd in it, and i dismissed a boy from my life (he decided to date someone else and not tell me...and then tried to break it off with me by blaming me. as if. he has way more to be blamed about). tessa and i will be dropping his things off at his place tonight whether he wants them or not.
i hate crying.
BUT today is a new day. my cd/radio started working again, although it was reset, i slept in a little bit, and its nice to know that i will not be lied to from someone i love for a very long time.
and i'm sure the tears will eventually subside.
although i do want to get the hell out of bemidji right now.
and, please, i don't want to hear any good for yous or anything. he's still my friend. and it just makes me cry again.
Monday, January 08, 2007
...here it is...
...here it is ...
well, here's the new template. i actually just modified the old one and it took me all day! good thing i can count it as learning css ;)
let me know what you think...or if you have any suggestions. i might try and add some color later...we'll see.
well, here's the new template. i actually just modified the old one and it took me all day! good thing i can count it as learning css ;)
let me know what you think...or if you have any suggestions. i might try and add some color later...we'll see.
Friday, January 05, 2007
for a kiss to be really good...you want it to mean something. you want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head. so that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. a kiss so hot and so deep that you never want to come up for air. you can't cheat your first kiss, nicole. and trust me, you don't want to...because when you find the right person, that first kiss? it's everything.
-dr. alex karev
grey's anatomy
-dr. alex karev
grey's anatomy
Thursday, December 21, 2006
got this off of anothers blog. kind of like it. others may not, but i kind of do.
You know boys are a funny thing. I mean you look around Bemidji and there is not much to choose from. Let's face it; Bemidji is not the ideal place to meet guys. Oh yes there is some great eye candy up there, what with all those Canadians so close to the border and with all those business majors and their hot ties (I like men's ties what can I say??). But truly, there is not a whole lot to pick from. But then fate steps in and BAM! Like a freight train headed due north, it hits you. You are looking for something that doesn't exist, not truly. My mother and I were dress shopping today and I was having the worst time picking a dress that I truly loved. Now granted i am a VERY picky person when it comes to my dress, but there was not much to choose from in that department either. Well, as i was complaining to my mother about the lame selection aloud in the third store we walked into, she turned to me and said "_____, you aren't going to find that perfect dress because the image that you have in your mind, the dress of your dreams is only in your mind and no dressmaker can bring that to life for you". As I continued looking I realized that i had been taking the same approach I did for dresses, to men. I have always imagined an ideal man. Someone perfect, someone wonderful, funny, intelligent, etc. I had even created a list of the qualities i was looking for in the man I would date, or at least end up with. But then i realized, that man doesn't exist nor will he ever. I am looking for a dream, a figment of my imagination. Someone so perfect and wonderful no human can compare. And so all this time as I was struggling to not only find that perfect person, but that perfect person interested in ME, I had missed many chances at perfectly wonderful human relationships. I have feared i would end up alone and single all the rest of my days but I realized if that happened it would be my own fault because i never allowed the perfectly wonderful guy to approach me while I was waiting for a saint. And so I apologize to all the men in my life that i have let down and hurt. I have been trying to reform myself and hopefully when i return in the spring I will have loosened up a bit and will be much more... approachable.
i just thought it was interesting, despite the rambles, because i think it's completely true. men are not perfect, just as women are not either. i embrace a man's imperfectness...i think its great character. and if they mess up? i forgive them, just as i would forgive anyone else, because i know it could happen to me too.
You know boys are a funny thing. I mean you look around Bemidji and there is not much to choose from. Let's face it; Bemidji is not the ideal place to meet guys. Oh yes there is some great eye candy up there, what with all those Canadians so close to the border and with all those business majors and their hot ties (I like men's ties what can I say??). But truly, there is not a whole lot to pick from. But then fate steps in and BAM! Like a freight train headed due north, it hits you. You are looking for something that doesn't exist, not truly. My mother and I were dress shopping today and I was having the worst time picking a dress that I truly loved. Now granted i am a VERY picky person when it comes to my dress, but there was not much to choose from in that department either. Well, as i was complaining to my mother about the lame selection aloud in the third store we walked into, she turned to me and said "_____, you aren't going to find that perfect dress because the image that you have in your mind, the dress of your dreams is only in your mind and no dressmaker can bring that to life for you". As I continued looking I realized that i had been taking the same approach I did for dresses, to men. I have always imagined an ideal man. Someone perfect, someone wonderful, funny, intelligent, etc. I had even created a list of the qualities i was looking for in the man I would date, or at least end up with. But then i realized, that man doesn't exist nor will he ever. I am looking for a dream, a figment of my imagination. Someone so perfect and wonderful no human can compare. And so all this time as I was struggling to not only find that perfect person, but that perfect person interested in ME, I had missed many chances at perfectly wonderful human relationships. I have feared i would end up alone and single all the rest of my days but I realized if that happened it would be my own fault because i never allowed the perfectly wonderful guy to approach me while I was waiting for a saint. And so I apologize to all the men in my life that i have let down and hurt. I have been trying to reform myself and hopefully when i return in the spring I will have loosened up a bit and will be much more... approachable.
i just thought it was interesting, despite the rambles, because i think it's completely true. men are not perfect, just as women are not either. i embrace a man's imperfectness...i think its great character. and if they mess up? i forgive them, just as i would forgive anyone else, because i know it could happen to me too.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
this may be one of the most challenging things i've ever had to do.
how do you comfort someone who has lost a family member to suicide?
i know they need to grieve, but my heart hurts for them, having to watch them go through this pain.
i just want to take it away from them and make it all better. but i can't.
how do you comfort someone who has lost a family member to suicide?
i know they need to grieve, but my heart hurts for them, having to watch them go through this pain.
i just want to take it away from them and make it all better. but i can't.
Monday, December 11, 2006
what happened to haloscan? i can't see if someone leaves me a comment...i went to their website and it seems as if the whole site is down. hopefully not for good?
for now...until haloscan comes back up or until i can get a new message thingy...shot me comments here: giggles1444@hotmail.com.
for now...until haloscan comes back up or until i can get a new message thingy...shot me comments here: giggles1444@hotmail.com.
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