ITS THURSDAY

no, i'm not dead. just busy. i haven't been ignoring you, just haven't felt the need to write. so here's what's up:

ITS THURSDAY.

i consider thursdays the best day of the week. let me count the ways:

1. grey's anatomy (even though i have to tape it)
2. ww weigh in. which means its:
3. binge night! i can eat whatever i want all night long for one night only!
4. its the one night i will allow myself to drink a little.
5. karoake.
6. design guild meetings.
7. maybe a stop at slims...its like coming home!
8. no homework. i get it done earlier in the week so i don't have to do it on thursdays.
9. lots of friends, lots of drunkeness...craziness.
10. sleepovers. i love them.

i'm sure i could ramble off more, but i'll stop there.

and this thursday, its my good friend stephanie's 22. even more reason to celebrate.

i'm in east side this weekend for a little concerto by the black eyed peas. you may have heard of them. then some quality time with the fam before coming back to homeworkville. and work. gross.

other than that...life is good. how's yours?

last first day of school

hopefully. that's the plan anyways. it was pretty boring too. woke up (tried to wake up and do the early morning work out thing but as always it never works), went to first class at 9, had an hour off, another class at 10, an hour off and then another class at 1. then i worked out, went to work for a few hours and then a habitat meeting. which i am no longer president of (so i could help train in the new president while i was still in college). it's going well.

and today is my little sister alli's bday. she is turning the fabulous age of 14. and if all goes well, she will get her long lost wish of getting a cell phone. i think it's the only thing she wants more than anything else in life.

so yeah...that was my day...

and saturday (on a side note) happened to be a lucky day for me. but not too lucky. off of 4 lotto tickets i won 10 dollars. and then i came home to find a scholarship check in the amount of 500 written out to me. i proceeded to buy a powerball ticket thinking that there was no way i could go wrong. but of course i didn't win. how freakishly weird would it had been if i did win?

what would you spend your millions on?

my top 3:

1. school
2. credit card debt
3. i would buy my self a house or a car or somthing...

and then some would go to certain organizations and the rest into some sort of bank investment where it can build over the years. and then i would retire early.

the end.

seriously though...tell me your top three. where would your millions go?

i have never found myself missing him more. i thought it was supposed to get better over time...and it hasn't. and i'm not possitive...but he may have taken a job in another city. i'll have to check on that. and if he has, i'll be really sad.

and for now...i want nothing to do with boys. none of them seem to want what i want...and that's just not cool.

i haven't had this much fun in weeks...

so how come i want to call him?

ummmm...spoiled.

i don't remember the last time i have ever been bought this many clothes.

my mom, sister and i did damage in fargo today and pretty sure the retail stores will be sending thank you letters for the amount we spent. it was pretty much better than christmas...and nothing is better than christmas.

i found some hot deals at old navy where i got a long sleeve tee, pj shorts (that say good morning sunshine), 2 skirts and a halter top all for 30 dollars. at aeo i scored some yoga pants and another skirt for 20. i also found the perfect bra today and got 2 of them (sorry if you didn't want to read that...but that's how much i love it), got a new pair of brown shoes, a pair of brown pants, black pants, twill pants and plaid pants, 2 button up blouses, a sweater and a tank...all bought by my mom. i don't know where she found the money but i can definetly say i'm grateful.

but i'm shopped out. too bed and tomorrow i'm back in btown to work!

lyrics on my mind

and if you love me, then tell me
all of the time
and can i love you, i want to
i want to try

You got soul, you got class.
You got style, with your badass - oh yeah!

not exactly high class songs...but they are on repeat in my head. they're just a little catchy. i want to dance every time i hear that christina song.

Hobson Memorial Union sponsored a team in the first-ever Lake Bemidji Dragon Boat Festival August 5th. Members of the "Beaver Tails" were: Brina Ellison, Jessie Taray, Cody Nelson, Lisa Farwell, Jeremy Anway, Andrew Cashin, Melissa Arneson, Glen Schmidt, Barb Butler, Sam Malloy, Petra Remeta, Mary Tosch, John Larson, Jose Hernandez, Brian Hudson, Rosin Shakya, Nima Lama, Bikram Ale, Gabe Wakanabo, Christina Kippenhan, T.Todd Masman, Tim Stoltenburg, Andrea Kroll, Seth Wymore, and Cory Haack The BSU team palced 18th out of 36 teams with a two-race, average time of 5:04.57, and a great time was had by all. --BSU TODAY

yup...i paddled a boat. it was so much fun. i'm telling you...you should be in a dragon boat race. besides the hard, grueling work...you'll have a great time.

i think i miss that team and working out phase of my life. it's gonna hit harder that ever with girls high school swimming season starting. but i plan to hit the pool hard core this fall...mmmm...chlorine!

sisterly love

i love hearing the words of my little innocent sister. she makes everything seem so...much smaller :) here's our convo as we were falling asleep last night.

alli: we took the boat down the mississippi on to lake irvine and stuff. it was cool.
andi: lake irvine? he lives on that lake.
alli: o really? that must be cool to live on a lake.
andi: yeah, it's nice...did i tell you i'm not with him any more?
alli: you aren't?
andi: nope. cheated on me again. i forgive once but not twice. people make mistakes but shouldn't make them twice.
alli: o.
andi: we might see him at the country club tomorrow.
alli: really...but i don't want to see him.
andi: eh, i wouldn't worry about it. it's not like we would acknowledge each other.
alli: can i beat him up for you?
andi: not at the country club. i can just see it now...alli all of a sudden tearing through the country club after him in an attempt to beat him up. he'd be like...what the hell? actually, if he got a good look at you he could probably tell who you were (we look remarkably alike for the 8 year difference).
alli: no, i don't think so. he seems to stupid for that.

haha...made me laugh :)

dragon boat queen

i've signed up to race in the big dragon boat festival this weekend. there's opening ceremonies and a parade tomorrow night and then i need to be at the "beaver dam" at 9:15 saturday morning to gear up to race. i really think we have a good chance of winning. unfortunatly, i have to work at 4 saturday so if we go into finals...i can't help win. i kind of like the rowing thing. in fact when i started college, if bsu had a rowing team, i so would have tried out for it. because rowing teams sound like so much fun. fact: i have never spent so much time on lake bemidji in one week. i like that there is actually things i can do out on the lake right now that are either free or cheap. fits my price range!

the ex is gone this week, which i think helps. i don't want to call him as often, or basically, i don't want any contact with him at all for awhile...just to see what it's like without him. i'm still confused with everthing thing as i know i can't go back to him...but what if, just for the hell of it...i did? what would happen? what would people think, say or do? right now they all tell me how to live my life...i'm just having a hard time trying to figure out if i'm desperate or if i do just want to be with him...because i can and i want to. it's confusing. i read this on another blog: "i'm fine with being me, but it's hard to be me without thinking about us." this person may have written this with a lot more meaning behind it...but really, i just lost a part of me.

so because of the whole thing in the above paragraph and because i have been confined to my glasses to at least the next 3 months...i have a morning spa appointment tomorrow. i'm getting a body wave put in my hair (ALLI DON'T TELL MOM) and then i'm going to get it cut and i'm going to see if they'll wax the eye brows too. apparently it's going to be a 3 to 4 hour procedure...and then i'm going to work at the btcc. woop woop.

ps....it's payday tomorrow. i think it will be a fantastic day :)

i don't mean to copy other people...

Which leads me to question the concept of right and wrong. This decision is certainly right for her, but not for the university. This sort of situation happens all the time in our everyday life. We constantly choose to either take a selfish course, or one that will make others happy. I guess you need both in your life to live a fulfilling life, but the balance is important. So how do you find this illusive balance? The world may never know.

I hate disappointing people, and that is what I have to do today. One way or the other. I wish I could clone myself (sometimes) and make everyone happy ... I guess something will work out.

I guess it always does.

katherine

...but it just seemed to express exactly what i was feeling.

blind (again)

i have to wear my glasses for the next 3 months. i hate this. good news: i get to pick out new glasses to be perscription sunglasses. that's about as good of news as it gets.

i'm still trying to figure out my love life. i spent time with him last night because i couldn't sleep so i stopped by his place and found him awake still. i'm not sure what i want to do with all this information i had. i have to figure out what i believe in i think...and then go from there. let's just remember that we aren't all innocent...and i think we still care a lot about each other.

I want to know why some people spend so much time analyzing friendships.
I'm confident in my ability to choose good friends, and choose acquaintances. I think I'm smart enough to figure out real friends from fake ones - long-lasting from short-term. It has to be exhausting to spend so much time wondering who cares about you. Maybe it's a confidence thing. I believe in myself. I'd be friends with me. Maybe if you wouldn't be friends with you, then you spend a lot of time wondering why anyone else would want to be.

-l.jo.

i want to know why some people spend so much time analyzing relationships. I'm confident in my ability to chose guys (though i haven't chosen one before...but i am CONFIDENT). and I'm smart enough to know what i am doing. i believe in myself. so lay off. so what if you aren't happy with the guy that i'm with. i don't want to hear it in 1000 different ways, shapes and forms. you're not spending time with us, so really, what do you know?

if i decide to go back with him, it will be a personal decision. some of my decision will be weighed on what advise i was given, what i had been told. but these matters are questions of the heart, mine, not yours. i will decide and what i decide, well, you'll have to be happy with it either way.

but one thing i have learned about myself...i don't like unwanted advise. i do things my own way. and no one knows better how to run my life than me.

so i'm posting. where's my dvd??

i was just going to stop it there, but figured since i'm on, might as well leave something.

i killed my eye again...and this time the blurriness isn't going away as fast, which means i might have to go to a specialist to see if there is an underlying problem...and it may mean glasses for a really long time. i hate my life.

went to the lake with my beloved squeak this weekend. it's good to have her back in the states. all we did all weekend was eat, watch movies, swim and sleep. it was so relaxing. i think our butt's are imprinted in the chairs.

i broke it off with the supposed boyfriend. but things are so confusing. becasue the reason that i broke it off with him might not actually be true. and it's also really confusing because we weren't really dating this time around. and i don't know what to do. i think we need to talk some more and only time will tell. i guess it's getting him to talk though and if he won't return the calls to talk...why waste my time on that? but i do miss him...we have such a good time together.

and that's all that's really in my life. lots of working and my room is always a mess. and it's hot. kind of wish the guy would call me back so that i could sleep at his house where it is cool.

it can only get better from here...

slacker

i know. but hey, it's summer. i wish that i could just open up word, type up my post and then hit a button that says post on blogspot. for some reason that seems faster and easier than logging in to blogger. i don't know.

but posting has become scarce due to the fact that i can no longer do it at one of my jobs and i hate my computer at home and only use it for correspondance during the night time hours. that and for storing all sorts of design projects, pictures and music. that's it. otherwise, it's loud and noisy (sometimes) and slow. and my desk is filled with crap and papers that i haven't quite figured out what to do with.

in other news, my birthday was last week and i turned the old age of 22. that's right. double deuce. and i still say i'm 21 when people ask. shoot. i'll get used to it. it was a good birthday except that i did get yelled at by a good friend. that did not please me, but we're working on it.

jenny left for florida yesterday. i'm not a crier, but i almost did shed some tears. she's my twin sister pretty much. i'll see her at xmas though.

my eye was better but then i wore black eyeliner (which i think is the source of my problems) and both my eyes are now red. i look like i was doing crack at dmb this last weekend...

which the concert (dave matthews band) was really good (and no i did not join in on the crack and pot fun that others, appeared, to be having. gross). i had such an amazing time. i'm really glad that zerek came with me because it allowed me to be a little comfortable around everyone. i think if he hadn't come with i would have retracted into my little shell. but zerek and i got to spend some quality time together and i got to go camping...and now that i'm back, i think i've had my camping fix for awhile. i hate porter potties and communal showers. but other than that, lots of fun, lots of stories. i'll post pictures later.

but now back to the work week! and pirates of the caribbean tonight plus thursday night vball and burgers at slims!

well...i'm back from atlanta. and then i blinded myself. i took out my contacts on thursday night and my eyes instantly started watering. i woke up on friday and kt and jenny both had to do a double take with the mass amount of swelling my eye did. i, thinking that it was just my normal eye problem, called in to work, found a replacement for the morning and said i should be good to go for the night shift. well...it was more than that. i ended up going to the doctor, he doesn't know what caused it exactly so i'm on drops and i've seen my doctor every day since friday so he can make sure there isn't an infection. and right now my eye is still so swollen that i can't see out of it. but it's much better. i'm hoping to get vision back by my bday...3 days!

just to let you know...

that atlanta is going so well, that i've pretty much been offered a job here after i graduate.

and not only that, but that if all goes well with the grant that they are giving us (the school), that they plan on opening an office up in bemidji.

and i told them that i would definitely be interested in working for them there.

i am so freaking excited!!

atlanta

well...atlanta is going well. i got naucious (sp?) on the landings on the plane but other than that, i'm good. i'm sitting in my hotel room and am loving it. i ate (not my weight erica...i held back) chinese with barb for diner and then we went exploring. then i went running and now i'm just chilling and watching some tv. my clock says midnight and i feel like it is midnight...but my body should be feeling 11. must have been all that travel. i'm excited to pimp myself and dress for success in my new black skirt and white and black stripped top. maybe all that chinese chicken? who knows. but i'll let you know about all my 3d holographic adventures tomorrow...

i hate mondays

well, they actually aren't all that bad, but i have so many problems in my life right now that this particular monday is bad. i'm hoping things will look up. that's why i like thursday and fridays...life always looks 10 times better by then.

to go along with the last post:

5 exciting things that are happening in your life:

1. i'm going to atlanta june 19-22 for 3dh training paid for by bsu!
2. at work i'm getting a new mac: 30 inch monitor, dual processor, wireless mouse and wireless keyboard.
3. running is getting a lot easier. i just have to keep at it.
4. i will be out of the money danger zone in one week!
5. today is thursday and tomorrow is friday: bring on the weekend!

5 Things
I was tagged by julie...thanks for making me update! here's my answers:

5 Things in my Fridge (it's pretty sad...)
1. summer sausage
2. potato salad
3. cheese
4. strawberries
5. ketchup

5 Things in my Closet
1. clothes
2. dirty clothes
3. all my eurospring memorabilia
4. my flute
5. loads of art supplies

5 Things in my Purse
1. Camera
2. cash (aka going out money...that doesn't really get spent)
3. Phone
4. Pens
5. ID and credit cards

5 Things in my Car
1. mardi gras beads
2. Car phone charger
3. sunglasses
4. all sorts of cds
5. golf clubs

5 Things I wish I was doing right now
1. sleeping
2. Making out!
3. Laughing louder
4. running...but #1 is outweighing this one
5. floating around in an outdoor pool

5 Things I like most about my bedroom
1. my big bed!
2. cy computer
3. Pictures of friends, family and travels
4. my martini glass collection
5. it's right across from kt's bedroom!

ahhhh...i tag:

katie
erica
alli

oops...

so i found this on the wrong blog. it was supposed to be posted on here on september 15. how weird is that?

ouches

what i did to my heel...i don't know. but i can't walk on it. i'm now slightly gimpy, as i'm walking on the ball of my left foot, as to avoid the hurt of the heel. all i've done today is sit and teach an FYE class. i just got up from my chair at work and noticed it hurt. we're still not sure what's wrong...hmmm.

and in the news...amanda, jenny, kristin are sick and tessa's just getting better. amanda is deathly sick...i'm on call tonight if she needs anything. we may need to do a hospital run. i hope she gets better. and i hope that kt and i don't get the bemidji epidemic 2005.

here's to the end of another year.

the craziness is done. summer is here.

(almost) all my friends have graduated. the hardest part won't be seeing them leave to live out their fabulous lives...it was watching them all take that step together without me...and having the time of there life doing it, even though they keep repeating that they wish i was there.

one more year here in btown. at least i have one more year of _________. college life? i'm not sure how to describe my years here in bemidji. free falling? hmmm.

i have found my inner wild child. sometimes i wish i never found it. now i just have to wait for the phase to pass. i watched all my friends go through the phase and pass out of it. now that i'm going through it, they won' t let me...they're too protective. but i'm enjoying it. no regrets ;)

and bring on the lazy working days of summer.

should be a good night tonight...i make my acting debut...should also be an interesting night.

martini party recap


by mike nohner

the martini party was a huge success
i just wish the house wasn't such a mess
i also wish my underwear didn't end up in a tree
and what was up with the whipped cream?
all in good humor, all in good fun
i can't wait for next year so that we can have another one
i even got struck with a kiwi to the face
had it been another time or place
you might have got to see the fighting side of me
luckily we were at the martini party
george burns pretty much got raped
funny thing is that he's a hundred and eight
drinks were drunk and good times were had
for those that left early, well that's too bad
we were singing and dancing and having a grand old time
even though the table got ruined, that's just fine
we had watermelon bombs and mcdonald's cups
we even celebrated earth day by recycling stuff
so here's to those who came and conquered
to those who drank and wandered
to those who had a good time
and to everybody who is now a friend of mine

i realize that i've kind of been slacking with this blog. life is a little hectic and when i have down time, i'm lazy. and i just guess that's how it goes.

i was just told that i got the funding to work with 3d holographic technologies this summer. it will make my summer hectic, but hopefully well worth it.

yesterday was beautiful outside...it was so warm. i got to spend it out at the golf course and unfortunatly i was inside working...and the air wasn't really turned on. i was so hot. now today, it's all crappy and cold out. gross.

i did a crap load of dished today and due to the fact that i had to go to class, they still aren't all done. i feel like dishes consume my life.

i got the porch up and working this last week. table, chairs, and major cleaning of dust took place. plus, i plugged in a fridge! it's fun.

and that was a bunch of ramblings. i hope you enjoyed it!

my acting debut:



you better be there.

quote from my stephie:

If I could wrap my arms around BSU, and give it the biggest, most meaningful hug in the entire world, I would.

I love it here.

cheers to that, my new roomie!

guy psych update

all is good. turns out i read him right on. ahhhh....chicken.

guy psychology

the boys (or maybe just one boy) in my life have pissed me off. and it takes a lot to piss me off. i try so hard to understand their way of life and every time i think i understand, they do something that just bewilders me to no end.

or maybe it is that i do understand, that i can see what they are doing, but just wish they would all grow up and hope that they could open their eyes and see exactly what it is that they are doing and then act accordingly.

or maybe....it's just me.

opportunities coming my way:

3d holographic part time job on campus

i get to research for the new technology that we have on campus. it's a beta version and i get to help write the manual...kind of exciting!

which means...one more summer in btown!

and dmb this summer...it's going to kick butt.

life or something like it

i have to admit, when i get the time to sit on the couch these days and watch tv, i take it. i feel bad though because i'm pretty sure my roommates only see me sitting on the couch when they do see me.

i'm sick. with a cold/allergy thingy. i want to go out tonight and party with the rest of BSU but i have to be at school dressed and ready (in my suit!) at 7:45. and i need to go to bed early tonight to try and kick this cold away. sometimes i don't understand student achievement day. all it's doing for most of BSU's population is giving them a night to go out and party in the middle of the week. o well...if you can't beat em...join em!

and that's all really. 3d holographic presentation 10:30 tomorrow. then i'm good for awhile...easter and a paper, 2 projects, a test and i'm good to go for the school year. it's winding down fast...bring on summer!

alli and zerek...
nd state short course swimming championships

i got my first professional suit attire today for my presentation i'm giving in april.

i would feel more grown-up except for the fact that my mom bought it. at least i got some cool shoes out of the deal.

and what's with all the ill-fitting suits at most stores? horrible.

a visit with the g-parents

grandma: well, if you want my opinion, you don't need a guy. If a guy offers you a ring, you tell them that your grandma said no.

grandpa: unless he's a millionaire.

grandma: no, she'll be making millions anyways.

a-lister?

so i've kind of been playing the part of movie star the past couple of months and i'm having a lot of fun with it. you can check out the script and pictures here:

http://biro.bemidjistate.edu/~morgan/wcw/index.php/AaronReini/DoingAnythingScript

an afternoon off

i feel guilty, but they made me stay back this afternoon. it is kind of relaxing though...i'm listening to really great classical music and surfing the internet on brynn's computer, all snuggled up on her airmatress with her fleece over me, trying to regain warmth. soon i'm gonna go take a nice long shower. and then nap i think...but i'm sure they will be back by about that time. i'm hoping i feel more up to 100 percent by then.

we played a made game of catch phrase last night...well they did, i joined for a little. they had to remind themselves to keep it down for most of the game. didn't want to wake the neighbors up.

today: snow...and coldness. which is why they wanted me to stay back. but cabinets (expensive ones...we had to be careful) and vanity's and mirrors and expensive drapes and toilets and all sorts of stuff we're scrounged up from around the demolition house for h4h to resell.

tonight: bowling...i think.

tomorrow: looks like a new house, getting ready for dedication. pretty sure we're almost done with demolition on the rich house we've been slaving at for the last 2 days.

friday: half day work...and then the long trip home.

i'm sick in new jersey. and i want to have fun. this sucks.

that and i wanted to post images on here for you guys to see of our days here so far...and it wasn't working.

ugh.

go phila!

i'm loving new jersey and philadelphia. today we had off so we got lost trying to find our site and then headed to phily. we also got our gas pumped for us as in jersey, it's unlawful to pump your own gas. (me: "ma'm...I can pump my own gas." her: "you wanna do what?" with a little jersey accent. "where you from?" haha). then we took one of the biggest bridges ever over the river and saw where the constitution was signed, quincy was sworn in as president and other significant sites including the liberty bell. we also ate hard rock cafe and had all sorts of laughs. it was fun...and now i'm tired. and my brother is going to braid ann's hair...ann...beware!

in other news...i haven't remembered a dream since i was little. ever since this trip has began i've remembered two dreams. one of them involved me forgiving that guy and i was just happy again. i'm not sure what all of this means. i'm not sure what i want it to mean. i'm not sure if i believe in dreams! i guess i'll just have to wait patiently for april...and before all this chaos began i convinced myself that april wasn't that far off.

much needed spring breaks starts right about...now! all homework done (well...for the most part...), bags almost packed and i haven't slept since i woke up at 7 this morning. it's 4 am right now. 2 vans, 14 passangers and a crap load of luggage and food.

jersey here we come!

(see you in a week)

torn to pieces

i waited a long time before i trusted him with my heart. december was wonderful...and then he left for st. cloud, turned into a different person, cheated on me and took my heart and smashed it into a million little pieces.

and the worst part? some "friends" knew about it and let it drag on for longer than it needed to.

i just want him to know how much it hurts and i hope that he hurts too...and that life will not be pretty for him when he gets back to btown...too many people care about me to not do something. where's chris when i need him? get your shotgun!

and now i'm done. done crying...i don't want to talk about it anymore.

and thanks for true friends who dragged me out of the house last night. it was much better than wollowing on my bed, cell phone in hand, not knowing what to do.

i lied...i feel like crying again...and i will again when i remember all the good times we had in december.

why are guys such idiots?! i'm playing sad wollowing songs on my ipod...chariot give me your strength. grrr...i just want the friendship back...and things to be back to normal. bring on spring break.

this would make anyone's day brighter.






i needed that.

i've never known what it's like to put trust in someone and then have them rip it all away in a matter of a few hours.

guess what? it hurts.

i think i've checked almost every site on the web...i'm sure i'm pretty close anyway.

and now i'm ready to start animating my glasses again. and keep my music up loud...the old dude on the computer in front of me is making funny noises...and if i look up or take my eyes off my computer...he tries to make conversation. gotta keep my eyes on the computer!

back to icky homework.

on my plate

-3D imaging, project 2. 4 animations...and count rendering time!
-multimedia II project. kiosk for local museum. meeting on wednesday.
-design guild trip thursday.
-habitat trip in less than 2 weeks!
-habitat chili feed fundraiser - march 9th...finish organizing
-habitat shirts done and ordered tomorrow...
-3 websites to finish...and soon.
-student senate website to update
-i've got to finish layout for the book i'm publishing...
-umm...social life? and one that doesn't count the computer...
-gotta find some money somewhere...good thing pay day is friday.
-let's finish up my resume and send it out after spring break.

-thursday...HOME.

mmm...weekends

sitting around doing nothing. having the guy home. television. sleep. i would say food, but i just got done complaning to my mom how that's pretty limited. tonight it was tomato soup and pop corn.

"I remember when I first got to WVU I was so happy and seemed to be getting along with everyone. Then I started drinking pop again. There is my answer, pop is fucking me over emotionally."
-andrew

and i had pop. at least 3 times this week. i haven't had pop in soooo many months. unfortunatly, i'm emotionally stable right now...but i kind of wish i wasn't so i would stop drinking it! NO MORE. i broke down and had mt. dew. i was craving it. no more.

again...i love grey's anatomy. but i didn't want george to move out. things will get better.

i also love the fact that the world can get together and party. unfortunatly to ricky martin and avril lavigne (which...it could be worse), but they're still partying. that's one of the many reason's i love the olympics...t minus how many days until swimming olympic trials?! i've got to start saving money!

kt needs her computer back. good night all!

sleepless in btown

tuesday night bedtime: 3:30. wednesday night bedtime: 4:00. and i'm still golden! it's so funny that a couple of weeks ago i was complaining about how tired i was and now i'm practically pulling one all nighter after the next. last night i got the student senate webpage up. theres still a couple of broken links (don't go to the constitution!) but go ahead and check it out.

i'm excited for the weekend...and for thursday night madness...and for seeing people. my computer at work isn't the only one that needs my attention.

hell day

so today i stayed in bed till about 4 today. not because i was sick, but because i killed my eyes. last night i went to bed and i could barely shut my eyes without them watering. i couldn't keep them open because they hurt too much. i finally got some shut eye but woke up numerous times throughout the night. this morning i couldn't keep them open and they wouldn't stop watering. i couldn't focus on anything with my eyes open. i finally got some more sleep, my eyes got some oxygen (as what was wrong with them was that they didn't get enough oxygen to replace the cells on my eyes), and one eye is healed...the other is still really really red, but i can open it and see things now.

what really sucks is that i had to miss the presidential luncheon at school. i had a free lunch! no fair... i secretly hope it sucked...but i know if was probably really good.

habitat meeting in 1 hour...i think there is a trips meeting. i feel so unorganized. i suck as el presidente. dang.

tonight: making one hell of a resume. it's going to rock.

it's a new love

grey's anatomy is seriously the newest love of my life. i love the characters and all the great feelings that are expressed in this show. i think it's because i'm such a guarded person that when i see all their emotions, i can't help but get attached. it's such a perfect mix of so many great emotions...i think i need to learn to express myself better. but no one needs to know me that well. sunday night television is my addiction.

and it just turned into the best show ever...george and meredith...way too cute.

last night. wow. i don't think that will ever happen again. at least i hope not. it wasn't supposed to happen. and now...i just need to recover :) sleep, ice cream and no contacts for a couple of days...i guess glasses are really the only consequence for my actions...besides the fact that i owe a friend 40 dollars...and that never should have happened. augh.

here's to another week...next saturday will be good. can't wait!

not much going on lately. lots of homework going on. trying to get a lot done with the book this weekend as i have a check point meeting on wednesday. i had a test on valentine's day which i'm hoping went ok. before that i hadn't had a test since oxford! i sat at home all valentine's day and read 6 chapters on history of modern design and ate dove chocolate and some of the chocolate that my parents sent me. they also sent me a really pretty bracelet which i may not take off for awhile. that night i went to northwoods with danielle, jenny, amanda and leann and we celebrated vday. then jenny and i hit slims where we scored free drinks. i then went home and went out with others later to 209. the single crowd...hmmm.

well...i've got habitat stuff to do. off to the bank! later...thursday night madness. excited!

more filming

here's a pic of cast and crew looking over the storyboards. yup working hard...and then after studying storyboards, i still couldn't act the way that i was supposed to. figures. ha.

andrea -- [noun]: A person who laughs at anything (even this entry) 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

how true.

o italia and osterreich

i miss italia right now. and i wish i was an olympian.

i also miss austria right now. my good guy friend has met a stripper. he wants to ask her to marry him. he's going back tonight to see her after his guy friends convinced him. he wants to be 'that friend' that marries a stripper. it's classic. he got me to go to a strip club in austria. i told him he should go eat greek food now as that's all that we did in vienna...went to a strip club and got free greek food from a very kind greek restaurant owner. amazing. he wants me to come down to the cities tonight to go back to the strip club with him...i sooo would, but i have to film tomorrow.

i need to stop watching opening ceremonies...they'll be on later tonight. i need to be productive right now.

disclaimer: i don't know if that's the EXACT spelling of osterreich...i know it's close so don't chew my head off if i spelt it wrong.

movie star

did i tell you i'm a movie star? well...sort of. i'm still trying to earn my gold star...but i have to learn to stop giggling so much on set. but it's fun. we had our second day filming on saturday. for some photos of the shoot, go to mr. director's blog.

my superbowl part II

here's a pic of tessa, with her computer, i just put my borrowed one down, our devoured green mill on the floor and, well, yes, we do have the superbowl on.

and i did know it was pitsburgh...it just took me awhile...it's all the same state. and hey, getting the same state is pretty good for not watching one football game this year.

favorite commercial? the advantage one, where the lady ends up in some guys lap in the airplane after some turbulance...and she was trying to make it to the bathroom. and the dove commercial for woman had all three of us in goosebumps and tessa said she shed a tear. and the kermit the frog one? that one HAD to be made for tessa (it is easy being green!)

o yeah, and tessa's team lost. she also chose it because one of their players, hasselbeck, well, his last name sounds like hasselhoff. another good reason.

p.s. we had a really amazing girls night on saturday night that included a scavenger hunt of bemidji. wild things happened, lots of laughs happened...and i can't even show you the pictures...as people like my siblings shouldn't be allowed to see them. but for you older folk (but not too older), go to facebook.

superbowl

soooo....completely untraditional superbowl for me. i'm sitting at tessa and jenny's, in days old pajama-y clothes, slippers, laptop, homework and i'm waiting for green mill. tessa's also laptoping it up and jenny's putting clothes away. we're just in it for the commercials basically though. and the kick off just went.

usually i'm at the smith's house or they are at my parents and we have a crap load of good appetizer food...and the guys get into the game, the girls talk...but we still enjoy the game. but not this year...just homework and the game.

by the way...i'm cheering for philly...only because i'm going there for spring break. tessa however is cheering for seattle...because she likes birds.

i was supposed to go snowboarding today, superlab tomorrow, but since lucas wasn't kind enough to tell us that bv wasn't open today...well, we made the trip out there just to find it closed. so amanda and i are going tomorrow. i hear it's the 7 7 7 deal..woohoo!

but yeah, stupid 3d studio max is taking FOR EV ER to render. i just want to see how the margarita glass is looking so i can figure out if i need to add more light.

well, i'm still tired these days. 5 o'clock hits and i'm yawning. i was almost out on the couch at 8 last night when jaime called and asked if i wanted to go to "humpback mountain" with some of our friends. brokeback jaime, brokeback. it was good...but kind of weird.

well...i'm going out tonight, probably not good for the tired body, but i'll live. my mom thinks that i'm tired, but i just won't recognize the reason. and she thinks she knows the reason. i won't atribute it to that but i don't know...sometimes your mom just tends to be right. we'll see.

have a good weekend...i'm sure i will.

cravings

i want to sit on the couch for the rest of the day, pop in a good movie (i'm thinking under the tuscan sun), eat taco johns and pizza and chicken fingers with honey mustard from quizno's and eat a heck of a lot of ice cream like i don't have a care in the world with how fat i could get and never do homework again.

distance relations

i hate how distance seems to destroy friendships. it's convenient to be a friend if that friend is right there with in reaching distance. however, they move away and that friendship fades to dust. it still exists in the form of we used to hang out all the time and now it's the person who i used to be really good friends with that now lives in ____ town. it's a sad happening.

what happens that makes us loose touch? i suspect that 2 different lives now take place. each person gets involved in new discoveries and the current is replaced with the new. i also suspect that some of it just has to do with natural human laziness.

i just wished that friends never went away. or that if they did, you would always have to stay connected...that there was no way to loose touch. but unfortunatly that happens...and i will admit to it being partly my fault. i think sometimes i need to step back from my crazy, hectic life and just enjoy life...because when i'm in crazy, hectic mode, when i get down time, i crash.

here's the start of a new week. wake up time: 6:30. good luck!

rocked out

so the battle was fun. i always feel bad at the end of the night when all of our bands gave it their best but we can only give the band who had the most people there to vote for them the winning prize. because we had some really sweet bands there. it was a lot of fun...and now i'm spent. i've lost my voice, but i think it's slowly coming back. and i got to sleep in today!

so i was supposed to go out of town this weekend, but that fell through. looks like i'm staying here. but that's ok, because i'm with people who love me and that's all that matters.

here's something funny though: i had my brother pick me up from the bar last night and take me home. my car is still at slim's...filled with habitat battle of the band stuff.

well...i think i'm going to clean my room...or attempt to. i can't really do laundry as the washer is broken and i don't feel like going out to take care of the laundry so it's just going to sit there.

have a wonderful weekend!

i love it when you call your mom and she not only puts everything into perspective but makes it seem like the world is NOT out to get you.

boys are stupid...and i'm smiling now.

life will be better after tonight...BATTLE OF THE BANDS!

drats

i was looking sleepily at my clock last night at 10:30. in bed at 11, watched a gilmore girls episode and was out by midnight. wow i suck. and then i still had problems making it in to work at 9. hmmmm...

in other news, my big party, battle of the bands, is tomorrow night. BE THERE. it will be a good time. good music, good food, door prizes...and who knows what all might happen. and while your having fun, you'll also be raising money for habitat for humanity...who knew that fundraising could be this exciting?

i could go for a double choc flake frescata right now...why is there no costa coffee here? aparently they're going international...

it's true

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

i'll take art.

relearning

so i'm trying to teach myself to stay up late again and get little sleep and wake up the next morning in time for class at 8 and STILL be able to make it through the day with out thinking about having a nap. we'll see if it works. tonight it looks like i'm going to make it to 12:30...next week 1? i included a picture from eurospring...that's me and our fat tire bike tour guide on our cruise down the seine river. that night, after the tour, we drank underneath the eiffel tour, missed the last metro and had to walk many miles through paris to get back to our hotel. i wasn't in bed until at least 3:30 that night and had to be on the bus at 8 that morning for our bus tour of paris. and that's how most of eurospring was. extremely late nights, extremely early mornings. and somehow i'm still living to tell the tale. i need to retrain!

fact is though, that if i am staying up this late i should be making an attempt to do my homework and not slopily put it together during my 2 hours of work tomorrow. not that i have much to do tomorrow anyway at work...wait. that's a lie.

i joined weightwatchers online over the weekend. i really forces me to make all of my foods and eat nothing but fruits and veggies...which i love anyway. but it's hard when the girls want to have supper with you on wednesday night and you have to plan out everything that you eat around that supper...you just can't come home and find something to eat that matches how many points you have left for the day. i told danielle that i had joined weightwatchers online today at the rec center and she commented on how skinny i was. i noticed tonight for once that i was looking skinner...when i sucked in my stomach. i still want the body i should have had when i was a swimmer...but is that something that i should want? i think its a goal that i could at least work towards. and at least it forces me to eat healthy. and i love that i can still eat fast food if i wish. we'll see how this goes for a month before i give up on it or not.

zerek and i were talking online tonight and i think he misses me. or maybe he misses zach. i don't know. he asked when i was coming home next...which would mean that i would have to bring zach home with me. i don't think he's ever gone this long without seeing zach. me...well, he's gone a couple months. because i'm so gosh darn busy.

but it's 12:31 right now. i've reached my goal for the night. it's bed time with a 7:30 am wake up call. nighters...

it's a new week

friday came last week...and now i'm sitting comfortably. i paid off a bunch of bills (though i still owe kt...), bought my books, and then splurged on a new bed spread, which is shown...except the yellowy color is actually a soft green. i'm liking the fact that i finally own grown up sheets. 400 thread count, egyptian cotton luxury sheets. i also bought a down feather mattress topper. and now that i got my country club pay check and won a $10 gift card from target at the xmas party last night, i'm going to go and buy the duvet for my down comforter. unfortunatly though, i put on my face crap at night because i had some minor breakouts and i ended up ruining some of the pillow cases. i'll still use them but it has me slightly pissed. they weren't cheap pillow cases! i also bought an online membership to weightwatchers. if i'm going on vacay to california this summer, i'm going to look good!

battle of the bands is this friday. i have a lot to do!!

and st. cloud this weekend? i'm hoping.

friday please come!

i don't have the books so i can do the readings for tomorrow.

friday needs to get here a little sooner so i can go book shopping crazy!

financial aid friday is like christmas to me.

can i complain?

my stationary tube in my ear is inflammed from cold drainage...so it feels like it's clogged. i try picking out whatever is in there...but nothing is in there. sudafed tonight.

reading homework sucks. nothing sticks and my mind keeps wandering.

i get tired at 9 o'clock nightly. 9 o'clock PEOPLE? why 9? i don't want to go to bed at 9...


our house is cooolllddd....

i have no money to pay utilities this week...and we need to pay them... i think i'm going to offer to pay the late fee as i will have a crap load of money this friday.

life isn't that bad...i just need to complain every now and then. friday...everything will be lovely.

versace died

and he's still floating in the tank. i'll have to flush him one of these days. i'll buy a new fish next week.

classes are off and running and going pretty well so far. lots of stuff going on but i'm pretty excited for these high end projects.

my group and i need to make a historical kiosk (interactive tv...like at museums). on any type of historical person or event. any ideas? you should leave me a comment and let me know.

o wait...nevermind. we're doing steven spielberg. should be fun!

somethings missing

in the last couple of days, i've seen her. at the rec center. we ignore each other. we once passed each other on the stairs and we both barely, if even, looked at each other.

i was hoping that in my whole life that i wouldn't have to ever run into her again, but figures that i would run into her at the rec center. i don't think i could ever hate someone, but there is some hate that comes out of me when it comes to her.

she's my old co-coach from swimming. she once yelled at me and made me feel really degraded when i went to talk to her about getting some extra pool time for a swimmer. "No." she said rather loudly, "she only wants to try and get an a cut and she's not going to get it anyways." thanks for believing in your swimmers.

another time, at our end of the year banquet, i was just running over some things i think she should say to the group of swimmers and parents...just some things on my mind that i thought she should know, since she was talking. "you know, i do know what to say, i know what i am doing. i am older than you, you know." talk about punch to my stomach. and that's when i knew that that was what she had wrong with me....that's why she didn't like me. i was the younger coach...who just by chance actually knew what she was doing and happened to be stepping on her toes...but it's not like i was trying.

becky, the treasurer of the swim team, called me the other day to get my home zip code so she could mail me my w-2 forms for taxes. she invited me to lunch sometime. "i miss my college kids," she told me. i know she loved taking me under her wing. the parents loved me. i was much more personal than the other coaches they had experienced. after years of hearing my mom complain about our coach, i knew exactly what kind of coach the parents wanted.

i had way too much fun with the kids. we laughed at practice, we had fun days, we worked hard. one of my swimmers told me, "out of all my coaches, you were the one that worked me the hardest." it was the best compliment that i could receive as a coach. i had kids make state times, i had kids setting goals and working hard to make state times. they were all reaching up for times that they hadn't thought about before. they made me smile and love meeting them every day after school at the pool.

i had tucked all those feel good memories about coaching back somewhere in my brain over the summer, after woody decided that he didn't want me as a coach. i was never given the chance to even tell the kids why i wasn't going to be their coach anymore. i was just gone...never returned from europe. and then i saw meghan...and then becky called. and it all hit me. i miss coaching.

one day i will get back into coaching. it's something that i vow that i will do with my life. it's what i love. how could i have forgotten it? i wait for the day that i'm back on the pool deck, deck sandles on, stop watch in my hand, and a grueling set up on the white board that the kids are groaning over and wishing that they were sick that day. i can't wait.

baking frenzy

for some reason i got a huge baking kick at midnight. and that's when i wanted to be in bed. i'm making 4 loaves of banana bread and 2 batches of choc. chip cookies. except the cookies aren't turning out all that great because the baking sheet is downstairs and ivory is sleeping down there. but yeah...lots of food.

at least i'm not whipping up the homemade cinnamon rolls. maybe for this weekend.

for some reason i'm really missing eurospring right now. the people and the places. especially paris and venice. don't know why...just want to be there right now.

zach moved in today so i got to see my parents. he got lucky and got his own room. i think he's going to do great this semester. plus it will be nice to have a member of the family around.

well....got to go check on the cookies. i think i might send some of them in the mail down to the boyfriend tomorrow. we'll see.

c-c-cooolld.

fifty fricken four degrees. i need a heated blanket. and i just wrapped up my fish's (versace the fish) bowl with a towel. his water is freezing and i'm pretty sure he won't make it until friday when we get fuel.

ficken freezing cold

one lesson i have learned by living with girls over the last many years is this: never, ever touch the thermostat. someone will inevitably get crabby and start asking who touched the thermostat, and it just goes down hill from there. so i have never touched the thermostat. i'm not even sure if i know how to work one or what a good temp it is to set for in the house. i know i like my pool water temp to be at around 74...but that's it.

so last night, as i'm getting ready for bed, freezing, i notice this note taped over the thermostat from one of my roommates: do not touch the thermostat! we are dangerously low on fuel oil and are in danger of burning out the heater!

good. that's always a plus.

i was actually at an ok body temp when i went to bed last night, it didn't take too long to warm up the cocoon that i made in my bed, but getting up this morning was down right horrible. pretty sure the water at my bed side had little bits of ice floating in it. i should really go and see just what the temp is in the house...just for curiousity. i hate winter...pretty sure my cold blooded body hates winter.

how many months till summer?

(the pic up top is of me, cold and trying to preserve body heat, with about 10 blankets piled on top of me by roommie katie, and with sunglasses on...because it was sunny outside)

back to work

well...i finally made it back to work. i was going to be in at 8 this morning, but since the last two days i slept until 2, i had a hard time sleeping last night. i ended up getting out of bed at 2 to turn on the tv and watched late night nbc until 3 when i finally decided i would have to make myself go to bed.

and when the alarm went off at 7, there was no way i was getting out of bed.

it's still holiday vacation for gosh sakes.

and gosh sakes sounds really funny...and is even funnier to type.

back to student senate webpages...once the homepage is redesigned, it will all be down hill and ten times easier from there.

workin out at 4, rec center. i suppose once zach gets here in a week, we'll have to schedule swimming dates. fun fun. i need to start lifting weights too...but we'll see how long that will last with my busy spring semester ahead of me.

gilmore girls tonight? doubt it's new. let's hope that it is.

nothing new

life in bemidji has been pretty boring lately. i was going to go into work today, even though technically we aren't allowed to, but opted to stay in bed. and that's pretty much what i have done the last 2 days. i slept until 2-3 in the afternoon. no apparent reason, wasn't really tired, there was just nothing else to do. but i'm up now and my plan in to go to the rec center for a run, then come back here and clean house. maybe do some rearranging of crap in my room, we'll see. but ivory comes home tomorrow and she doesn't need to lay eyes on my mess.

my creative side is starting to kick in. i think it's because i have all this spare time. i'm excited to actually get going on all the websites i have to create/redo, i'm thinking about pulling out the painting supplies and going crazy with that, and who knows what else i'll end up pulling out. i'm even in a baking mood. i want to make cookies...but i'll have to figure out who to redistrubute them to first. i know i don't need them all.

here's what's coming up:
-next weekend: zach moves in...which means parentals are coming up, which means free meal..haha.
-jan.10...soar. pull out the blue shirts! and my snow suit, i have to sit out in the parking lot for an hour and redirect cars. if we get done early enough (zach and i) we're going to make a trip to dl to see zerek swim.
-jan. 14...will be a good night. enough said.
-jan.21: country club christmas party
-jan.27: battle of the bands

hopefully life in bemidji will pick up. new years eve was fun, but nothing too exciting. but yeah, hope everyone had a good new years!

and here's an update...

it's been awhile. christmas has come and gone (it was good) squeak is back in germany, movies were watched (narnia was good, family stone...a little more dramatic than what was expected, funny but not as funny), and way too much food was eaten.

i went out and bought the first season of gilmore girls and i'm watching while i wait for a certain person to call. i love this show. i love how innocent rory is in the beginning...lorelai too. she tries to be cool...well, she is cool...but inviting your crush over for movies with your mom = not cool. just a note to mom's out there. at least she makes up for it in the long run.

well...here's for a boring night in. tomorrow night should be a good one though. everyone will be back in town!

if i don't say it before it happens: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

released

it's weird to see your friends leave. it's almost an eye opener to know that you've been here long enough to watch your friends be released into the real world and leave the safe, crazy, fun haven of bemidji.

good luck to all that are graduating...it's been a fun couple of years. keep in touch.

Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
But the rest is still unwritten
-unwritten, natasha bedingfield

My blog is worth $3,387.24.
How much is your blog worth?

...and how can i get this money?

and it's christmas...allover, again!

a eurospring christmas party just got done. i hosted and am now officially broke. why did i agree to host? because then it wouldn't have happened...and it was so much fun!

i was the only one who stole on our white elephant gift exchange. i wanted that painted martini glass like no other. and bill looked pretty kickin in the hat i gave away. suited him more than it did me! haha.

habitat christmas tomorrow, plus bajillions of cookies to deliver.
christmas with the girls on tuesday.
out on the town for one last hurrah with the peeps on wednesday. before they all go home...and i stay here to work. but o my, will it be wonderful. i get the house to myself!

big project due tomorrow, let's hope i finish it.
tuesday test.
wednesday, @ noon, my paper retype is due. aparently, when a teacher says to type about your passion, she doesn't mean your passion. she means to type about the part of your passion that you really don't care about.
WTF.

and jennie leritz might be living with me next year! wooohoo!

so me and my 20 dollars that i hold to my name are over and out for the night. doing homework...boo.

job well done

i love it when you get good reviews back on homework that you kicked your butt on. we completely rocked our design management class, our teacher was so impressed. he said:

"it's so good to see a group meet your expectations, but when a group goes above and beyond your expectations...wow."

thanks mark!

and thanks to phil, jenna, and jessie...we had a kick butt group. if you want to see our dance club and business plan that we put together so stylishly...go here:
http://www.bemidjistate.edu/atc/staffsites/jtaray/InThePit


so yeah, sweet presentation today...glad to have class number 2 out of the way...3 more to go!

the good and the bad

it's been one of those days

good:
-got my hockey ticket for friday
-ran into a certain someone...made me smile
-was told about my work being published (see below)
-finished my honors class (YEEESSSS!)
-got 2 more registrants for battle of the bands and another on the way!
-cookie sales finally got going
-we had a good habitat meeting tonight...for once i didn't have to do all the talking

bad:
-sat on the phone with habitat international today as they continued to screw us over. i know they don't mean to, and i'm not mad...just really frustrated because i want them to give us something in return for all of our suffering...even though they have nothing to give us.
-i hate running all over campus
-i wrote a 10 page paper in 1 hour and 49 min. and ran it to be turn in with 5 min. to spare
-i miss a certain someone. though i shouldn't be jealous...i got 3 days in a row before this one day off.
-form z can bite me butt. i hate it
-no more homework, make it go away.

it's my finals week

and after this week i'm done! but for now...well, i shouldn't even be typing in here i have so much to do...and i have so much going on!

but i do have to tell you this: my teacher for 3d computer imaging will be featuring my artwork in an article that the software company that we made our artwork in wants her to write. it will be featuring bemidji state students and i'm one of the few she choose to include in the article. so yeah...that makes me happy.

i lost 9 pounds in the past week

i'm happy...yet concerned. that's an awful lot to loose in 1 week. that's 5 pounds of turkey and 4 pounds of me...just random fat that was there before. well...6 pounds until my goal...and then i get to reward myself! massage...body wave for the hair? i don't know. we'll worry about it when (and if) i get there...because i'm technically not on a diet.

things i should be doing:
-business proposal papers
-3d computer imaging homework
-the book
-student senate webpages
-honors paper...if i have to do it

things that i want to be doing
-watching tv
-blogging
-running
-sleeping
-anything and everything that's not on the list above...

how sad am i? eh, gotta keep going...

i hate keeping secrets. sometimes, i just want to run out and tell all to the world. i don't want to tell my secret, but sometimes...it's hard to not say it. i find it funny that you have friends that you only tell certain things to...never the whole story.

but then again...we don't want others screaming, "too much information!"

june 24.

i will be competing in a swim meet on june 24...or at least i'm pretty sure. i need to start getting in shape! my siblings and i are going to do a medley relay for sure: i'll swim back, zach breast, alli fly and zerek free. zach and i are going to have to train hard core this spring semester. we can't let the 2 that are still in shape swimming wise down.

i need to start running, everyday. no more eliptical...we need to do the tread mill. and swimming more often. i'm kind of excited!

so i'm bored at work...have fun!

10 Firsts:
First Best Friend(s): Britton Smith
First Screen Name: giggles1444...andi...
First Kiss: Shawn
First Pet: Brandy, my guard dog
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: Britton...funny how your 3 year old best friend is also your first crush
First CD: I think I got Amy Grant for xmas...good cd.
First love: swimming...haha.
First Stuffed animal: this little teddy bear...apparently i had a name for him and my mom asked me and i have no clue. thanks for remembering mom...so now i have my first teddy bear lying around nameless. sad.

9 Lasts:
Last Cigarette: ick, gross, keep em away.
Last Alcoholic drink: last night...combat!
Last Car Ride: home from the bar last night.
Last Kiss: my mom gave me a kiss before i left back to bemiji
Last Movie Seen: Harry Potter
Last Phone Call: i just talked to steph who's on the radio right now. she played a surprise song for me.
Last CD Played: a very merry christmas 2. i love xmas music
Last bubble bath: right after we got the new jacuzzi at our home last year.
Last time you cried: the night my friend yelled at me and then we didn't speak for a month...beginning of october.

8 Have You Evers:
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: how about, have you ever dated? no.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope...but i have been pulled over because i can't control my passengers fingers when they decide to flip off a cop. the cop wanted to take me in for that one. how would the rest of my drunk passengers get home? stupid.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yes! adrianic sea at the island lido off of venice, italy. amazing.
Have You Ever Been on TV: yeah...news and when i was little they had this show where you went up and sat on santa's lap and told all of the grand forks community what you wanted for xmas. i was the last one picked from the big crowd to go up.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted it: not yet.
Have You Ever Dreamt about someone you knew: ummm...doesn't everyone?
Have You Ever played in the middle of a hurricane: No.

7 career paths you've considered:
1. layout artist
2. grahic designer
3. graphic design teacher
4. swim coach
5. beggar on the streets of oxford
6. artist
7. president of the united states...ahaahha...no. why would i want a job where almost eveyone hates you?

6 Things You've Done Today:
1. Checked E-mail
2. Ate lunch
3. woke up at 11...yeeeesssssss!
4. checked all my websites
5. struggled to put my contacts in
6. amused our selves at work with contacting the other office via microphone and tv

5 favorite things In NO Order:
1. computers...and the internet
2. laughing
3. music
4. being warm and near good people
5. cuddling

4 People You Can Tell Anything to in NO order:
1. ok, first off, i tell everyone everything because a)nothing cool ever happens to me so there's not much to tell and b)if something cool does happen, i tell everyone because it's just that cool

3 Choices:
1. Black or White: either or
2. Hot or Cold: depends on my mood
3. Chocolate or vanilla: they're both good...i had triple chocolate cake today...and phil made me scrap all the rest off the bottom of the pan and eat it...gross.

2 Things You Want to Do Before you die:
1. travel all over the place (and relive eurospring)
2. Die clutching all my glorious money (i kinda like that answer...)

1 thing you regret:
i have nothing to regret...yet.

christmas time

you know it's christmas when you hear the redneck's version or the 12 days of christmas.

"..and a beer in a tree..."

they play just to amuse us all at work...it's making my co-workers laugh at least.

"eight...(twelve!)...oh, twelvth day...good day..." "go out to the store and get some presents...or the donut shop..."

"i think it ranks up there with stairway to heaven."

o my.

thanksgiving in bemidji photos

no school!
at least night class, which means no honors...which is more than wonderful! but this crappy weather sucks. we're in a blizzard warning, i can't get in my car, which means that i can't charge my phone (no i wasn't thinking of driving!). but there is a possibility that their won't be school tomorrow, which means no stupid wsi...but i do need to get there to work, so i will be walking across the street tomorrow....and i cancelled habitat for tonight, there was no need for me to keep it on and go and only be the only one to show up, but this just means we have a lot more to do in the next coming weeks.

yay for blizzards!

turkey and snow (or basically ice)

i made it into work this afternoon, which isn't much of an accomplishment since I just had to walk across the street and get into bsu's tunnel system to make it here, but my morning classes were cancelled since the teachers couldn't make it into town due to the mass amount of ice on the roads.

coming back to bemidji yesterday afternoon wasn't too much of an accomplishment either, well for me i guess. ice and snow on the roads doesn't phase me one bit, but it seemed to everyone else. i was going 50 on a 65 although everyone else was going 40. but i felt confident on the road, i wasn't sliding, and there was no way i was going to leave egf at 2 in the afternoon and get home at 8. so i passed everyone...including a sandtruck in a ditch and 2 other accidents, but they were all in the west bound lane. tessa was 10 minutes behind me and katie another 10 minutes behind her, so if trouble did happen, i would have my back covered.

my mom sent me home with quite a bit of food, which for that, i'm thankful. i wouldn't have anything otherwise! i had to buy a new cell phone (lindsi on my old phone: "that thing looks like a spaceship!") as my old phone would turn off for now apparent reason (i would turn i on and it would still have full battery) and no one could really hear me in it anyway. but unfortunatly i had to drop the rest of my paycheck on it, so i've got 2 weeks to go until the next paycheck. but anyway i got all sorts of leftovers from out friday night junk food night, a pizza, all sorts of chicken (grilled, patties and breaded), hamburgers, turkey, cheese, pasta, spaghetti sauce, veggies...it was a lot! so i should be set for the next couple of weeks.

it was good to see family on thursday and friday. i don't get to see my cousins that live down in the cities all that often, so it was good to catch up with them. it was a lot of talking and eating and just good times.

and now it's back to the daily grind. homework to be done and all sorts of other things. emails to send, projects to complete...and that stupid water safety instructor workbook to finish for tomorrow and i don't understand what i'm supposed to complete in there. i'll have to email the teacher, but i'm pretty sure she hasn't looked at it.

but anyways....happy monday!

i did my damage

ahhhh...good times last night. i did some good damage in the drinking department and need to go for a run so i can get in shape to continue on tonight... cause it's billiam's birthday! happy birthday my friend!

i also made an attempt to clean my room and rearrange it. i got the rearranging done...there's so much space in my room that we can have A DANCE PARTY in there! along with the new subwoofer and speakers, it could be a good time...that is if i could just clean up my floor so there would be room to dance without tripping over my clothes...and swim bag...and shoes...and random papers...and the broom...and....yeah.

tonight: party hardy!

freebies

i got a new bsu id today, for free. when i went to take my picture for my new IT working credential thingy, the guy was like, that doesn't even look like you! so i got 2 new ids. didn't realize that i had changed that much.

anyways...it's a thursday night so that means out on the town. slim's burgers, keg and who knows what else. and it's ben's birthday ... happy birthday ben! (highly doubt he reads this)

and tomorrow night...it's billiam's birthday! but i'll save his happy birthday for tomorrow!

and how crazy is this...i have another birthday to celebrate on the 19th and then the 20th it's a baptism. so much going on.

good nights

big project out of the way yesterday...time to go out! good bars and good friends equal good times.

i love bemidji...but for right now, i could do without the mass amount of snow it's dropping down on us.

my sister, the stud

last weekend, pretty damn exciting. i went home to see my sister swim in the north dakota high school girls state swim and dive meet. it's the meet that pretty much became what my life revolved around for 4 years and now she has the opportunity to do it for 6 (1 down,5 to go). it's dressing up for the parade of athletes, wearing a fastskin II, not shaving your legs for 3 months until the day of the big meet, wearing crazy colored tights and swimsuits to recreate the drag that you just shaved off for warm-up, getting your last gift from your secret sister, giving your last gift to your secret sister, cheering, and last but not least: swimming out of your mind.

before i go on, i have to tell you this: i went to go see fredrick winters, the hypnotist when he came here to bsu for a little show. he sells cds with his hypnotic practice on them for $5 a pop and he had one for sports and since i knew my sister had a mental issue when it came to swimming, i picked one up for her and mailed it to her. she became addicted to it, listening to it every night before bed and right before meets. i have a feeling this is what helped her, as she made sure to listen to it on the car ride over to the pool for prelims last friday.

alli was seated in the upper 20's for the 200 IM. my parents and i weren't sure what to expect. we weren't sure if she was going to swim her time or bomb it ... or maybe she would drop a second or two. or she could do what she did: drops 5 seconds and takes 21st. she didn't make it onto the next day for that event, but my parents and i had our hopes up for the 100 fly.

going into the fly, alli was seated 19th. being a seventh grader competeing against seniors can be slightly intimidating. she had a 1:08 seed time that she earned at eastern distric championship (edc) the prior weekend. i knew she would have to drop at least a second to make the consol heat, and i knew my mind was blank when the beep went off for her race and she dove in. i had no idea what the outcome would be. she had a strong first 50, staying pace with everyone else...then all of a sudden she took off! i know my mom and i were screaming, urging her to go faster...she touched the wall at a 1:05, now seeded 11th...we were so impressed. my parents took us out to eat that night so she could get a decent pasta meal and to celebrate (it was my 2nd time of the 4 times that weekend that i would eat restaurant food for a meal...it was a swimming weekend, what can i say?).

next morning, is finals. i'm in charge of running the video camera for the scoreboard at the meet, which naturally, i had fun with, warming up the crowd, zooming in on certain swimmers having fun and such. alli and the team warm up (alli wore red tights i had bought her as a fire up gift, pink fishnets, drag suit, and my brothers red short drag suit...stylin), then they have parade of athletes, and then relays start. she was on the 200 medley, swimming the fly leg, which was right away, she looked good during it, but they missed getting up on the award stand. then, later, after diving, is her event. part of my job was to zoom in on every swimmer and get them on screen. when i got to her, she blows a big kiss to the camera...what a ham. i started to worry she was going to bomb the swim, as her mind might not be in the right place...but boy was i wrong. last 50 she takes off again...cruising by everyone, touches the wall at a 1:04.49 and winning consols...taking 9th! as a 7th grader! she's pretty much a stud in my book.

so yeah, anyways...as state swimming comes around every year and i hear all the talk about it, it puts me in a swimming mood...shaving my legs is veeerrrrry minimal, and i've been at the pool as many times as i can make it to whip out a couple of sets. it's too bad bemidji doesn't have a team.

ahh...i heart swimming.

barf

i just ate 3 pieces of candy and now it's time to start homework.

there's 2 reasons to barf.

trying to finish so i can make an appearance at keg tonight...we'll see.

no homework weekend

should have done homework...but it didn't get done. instead, halloween decorations came down (tear*) but all the leaf decorations are still up. once i get paid, i'm going to buy more thanksgiving decorations for turkey day.

kt and i are planning a little shindig for turkey day. it should be fun. good food, good friends, and maybe a little touch football? :)

state next weekend. i haven't been home in 2 1/2 months! my sister dropped a second off her 100 fly time yesterday and she's not all the way tapered yet, so that should equal a rockin time next week. hopefully making it into the next day and t16? we'll hope...i need to make a sign i think...

well, i'm off to bed. i think i'm gonna go running in the morning. danielle and leann are my inspiration! hopefully i can get my lazy butt out of bed in the morning!

...and stupid turns to just plain unlucky...

but maybe not in all ways. so, as you have probably already read, i locked my keys in my car. so this morning, kt and i begin the excursion to retrieve my car. it goes a little something like this:

-go to get vin number off of my dashboard of my car.
-vin number is covered by A BOOK. figures.
-grab fricken parking ticket i was told i wouldn't get by police officer becky.
-call parents. no one will be home to tell me my vin number untill 1.
-go by police station, appeal ticket. old man sheriff is super nice, no ticket to pay!
-go home. dad calls at 1 with vin number.
-call chrystler center. five dolla gets me new key.
-go to chrsyter center. nice old man there gets me a spare key for free! score! really liken old men right about now...
-go back to car, drop off kt, take off to drop off friend's car.
-kt calls, "your car is dead!!"
-back to car
-indead, it is dead
-drop off friend's car
-to house, pick up kt's car and jumper cables
-back to my car
-proceed to hook up cars the correct way and not electrocute ourselves
-we succeed! bring car home, no money spent...but time.

loooooonngg process. all because i fricken locked my keys in my car.

bar scene tonight was dull at the most, but i got to hang out with lindsi, good times.

thursday night should be exciting...no school friday. jenny and i need to get drunk and dance!!

or at least that's what i'm hoping...someone else can drive this time.

stupid

fucking locked my keys in my car outside of brigids (excuse my french). i just can't believe how stupid i was. how did i forget to grab them? it's so unlike me...ugh.

good news though: talked to police officer becky, and although she couldn't unlock my car, she's going to spare me the ticket as she is on ticketing duty tonight (yes!). so tomorrow, all it's going to cost me is five dolla for a spare key at the chrystler center. and i really can't even handle that with all the broke-ness...thank god for five dolla spare keys at chrystler!!

and thanks to garret, who got me into keg, since my id is attached to my keys, which are in the ignition.

grrr.

party at the hockey house tomorrow night? hopefully!

new stuff

so i made a bet with jen and steph that i would get married before them...as in, if i do, i owe them each $50 in drinks at my bachelorette...if not, they owe me...$100 in drinks...it will be a sweet reward, because i can almost guarantee that i will not be getting married before them, as they sit at perkins with guys and i chose to come home. but i have an 8 am!

good news...i whipped out the hot red pea coat today. matches my scarf from berlin perfectly and ties in my fav. blue mittens. i want the cold to go away, but if it's going to be here, at least it gets to be in my red coat.

danced with a good guy friend at keg to build me up buttercup. it was fun, especially since i wasn't in the mood for dancing. i love dancing with him, it's always a good time.

thursday nights: slim's, bar bingo and karoake at keg with jen and steph (and all you lovely folks that come out to join us)...i love thursday nights

life is falling apart

eh....missed a class this morning. but i didn't have the homework done quite yet for it anyways, so yeah...but i can't miss anymore for that class. i've missed my 3. i don't necessarily like the content that we are learning in that class. it's stuff that i'm pretty sure that i won't be using in the future anyway.

i still have no money. and i've found that i owe more money to a credit card. i can't wait to get paid in a little over a week...but then again, it doesn't matter...because all that money will be gone towards gas, utilities and such. the only reason i go out is to see people. i can't drink, because i can't afford it...and if i do drink it's because someones paying for me to drink. thanks guys :)

ahhh....life sucks.

why is it like this?

so you get close with a guy...as in, heck, ok...i slept over at this guys house last week, shared a bed with him, we cuddled...it was fun. we didn't talk all week. party at his house tonight. he has 2 girls all over him and when i'm leaving and walking past, we finally say hi and we ask how each are doing...while he is still grinding with this girl.

why?

i'm not sure if i even like this guy, but why do guys mess with girls like this? my old roommate and i were talking about this. guys always seem like they are interested. you'll go out one night and some guy will stick with you all night, dance with you, buy you your drinks, hand on your back, hand around you...the whole bit. but other than that they want nothing to do with you.

it must be the alcohol...but seriously. i don't liked to be messed with.

stop messing with me!